novelraw Chapter 454 Have You Had Enough Crying? !
Chapter 454 Have You Had Enough Crying? !
"Ninth brother, after I leave your world, don't regret it. Because as long as you regret it, I will come back to you without shame."
"I'll be fine, don't worry."
"Also, I will always worry about you without me in the future, so don't be too lonely."
"Ok."
"You...you're fine." Jiang Xinran shook her head with a smile, and tried her best to force back the tears that filled her eyes, "I'm very reluctant to part with you. But I must part with you."
Because if she is not willing to let him go, she will live in pain for the rest of her life.
"I'm sorry, Brother Nine, I said at the beginning that I would love you for the rest of my life. I was so swearing, and said boldly, whether you like me or not, and whether you will respond to my feelings, I will always like you You, until the end of time. But I did not keep the promise I made with you privately. You see, even the promise that I will always like you, I am singing a one-man show alone. You never cared whether I would or not I have always liked you. From the beginning, it was the beginning of me alone. To the end now is also the end of me alone."
He's like an outsider.This love that has lasted for more than ten years has never had anything to do with him.
But he is the one she likes!It was the man she had liked for over ten years!
Why is she always the only one in this relationship?
A person's feelings, not feelings.
Therefore, she will end up like this today.
All these pains and discomforts were all caused by her.
He has expressed his dislike for her countless times and asked her to stop wasting time on him.It's her own wishful thinking...
Everything is only her.
Ming Huaijiu did not speak.Because he knew that no matter what he said now, it would not make her feel any better.On the contrary, the more comforting words he said, the more she couldn't let go and felt more uncomfortable.Since he couldn't respond to other people's feelings, he kept silent and refused from the beginning to the end.
In this way, it is the best for others, and it is also responsible for oneself.
Jiang Xinran seemed to have a lot of things she wanted to say to her ninth brother, but when it came to her mouth, she found sadly that she couldn't say anything.
Like what he said, she has said too much in the past ten years.No matter how sweet the love words were, she had told him affectionately.
Come this far...
"Okay, Brother Nine, hurry up and take a medicinal bath. I've already expressed what I want to tell you. I heard your answer clearly. So, I'm leaving."
Gone forever, and will never appear in his world again.Even if she appeared in his world again, she was no longer the little girl who liked him, but a little sister who had known him for a long time.
When they met again, she would just nod and smile at him and say, "Long time no see."
Then?
There's no after that.
She and Ming Huaijiu have never had words like "then" and "later" that are so imaginative and can open up many beautiful futures.
Ming Huaijiu looked at her, his tone was never formal, "Xin Ran, goodbye."
A goodbye, not never see you again.
The overlapping circles, the same circles, they can never see each other again.
But when we meet again, it is definitely completely different, from every aspect.
"Brother Nine, goodbye!"
Holding back the tears that were about to burst out, Jiang Xinran took a deep breath and gave Ming Huaijiu the sweetest smile.
In this dim bedroom, her smile was astonishing and desperate.
Ming Huaijiu knew that in his whole life, he would never forget this girl's smile in this bedroom.
I want to cry but laugh, my eyes are full of tears, but I smile so touchingly.
This smile.
It was deeply engraved in Ming Huaijiu's eyes.
He also smiled, softly and distantly, "You know my body, so I won't send you off."
"It doesn't matter, just let Steward Liu send me off. Anyway, I have spent more time with him than I have with you. I have spoken to him more than I have spoken to you. It really counts , I should have the closest relationship with Butler Liu in this Ming Mansion."
Yes, she has a closer relationship with his housekeeper than with him.
How sad?
From the moment she fell in love with him, perhaps she was doomed to be sad and humble.
Without further words, Ming Huaijiu turned his eyes away and stopped looking at her.
"Come in, help me take a medicinal bath."
The nurse who had been waiting at the door of the bedroom immediately walked in one from the left and one from the right, helped Ming Huaijiu up from the bed familiarly, and slowly helped him walk to the next room.
Jiang Xinran blinked, but after all, she couldn't hold back the big drops of tears.
She was sitting by the bed, watching the thin figure intently.
It was as if he wanted to imprint his back forever in his eyes and engrave it in his heart.
This man she has always liked since she was a girl, from today onwards, is no longer the one in her heart.
Ming Huaijiu's back was extremely thin, as if a gust of wind could blow him away.The already skinny person was still wearing a large nightgown. Under the dark purple nightgown with gold trim and intricate dark patterns, Ming Huaijiu's thin body was only left with a pair of skeleton.Not even one or two more meats.
"Ninth Brother—"
The moment Ming Huaijiu was about to walk out of the bedroom, Jiang Xinran couldn't hold back, calling him out of despair.
Ming Huaijiu didn't look back, but stopped slightly, but soon, Ming Huaijiu signaled to the nurse again to help him continue walking.
Now that Xinran has decided to let him go, that's a good thing.He also needs to be a little neater, and be more straightforward like a man.
Don't give Xinran any more hopeless hope.
This is what he should do as a brother.
Seeing Ming Huaijiu's figure, he paused for a moment before continuing to leave.
Jiang Xinran's tears fell down even more violently.
She wanted to laugh, she wanted to laugh so reluctantly, but she couldn't force a smile on her small face.
Regardless of whether Ming Huaijiu could hear it or not, Jiang Xinran reached out and pointed at the luxurious nightgown on him, "Brother Jiu, you are not suitable for a color like deep purple. It is too dark and not suitable for you. This color is also not suitable for you." Not for a patient."
In her heart, there is only one person who can suppress the overly luxurious and dull color of deep purple——
Right five.
The same dark purple nightgown, wearing it on Quan Wu's body exudes a sense of nobility.But wearing it on her ninth brother's body would make him look even thinner.
Ming Huaijiu heard it, but did not respond.
within reason.
When that skinny figure completely disappeared from his sight, Jiang Xinran finally couldn't bear it, and burst into tears with a cry of "Wow--".
She was lying on his bed, her nose was full of his unique medicinal fragrance, and all around her was his breath.
Here, shrouded in his breath, she lost him forever and ever.
Moreover, it was she who took the initiative to go to him.
She pushed her ninth brother away with her own hands.Not even the last bit of hope left for himself.
Jiang Xinran cried very sadly, and her voice was loud.
Ming Huaijiu is in poor health, and he himself doesn't like noisy environments.So there is no one else in the Ming Mansion except for Housekeeper Liu and a few necessary nurses and doctors.
In the huge Ming mansion, the desperate crying sound lingered endlessly.
It filled the ears of everyone in the Ming Mansion.
An Ning, who was sitting in the living room drinking tea, could clearly hear the loud cry from afar.The hand holding the fine porcelain teacup trembled slightly, and a few drops of hot tea splashed out of the cup and dripped on the back of her hand.
She didn't realize it.
At some point, old head Liu appeared behind her and called out softly, "Mrs. Quan."
"Ah."
"Missy has been crying for a long time."
"So?" An Ning took a sip of scented tea, put down the teacup, and slender fingers slid over the edge of the teacup, "Do you want me to go up and have a look at Xinran?"
"Yes. Master Jiu is unable to comfort the eldest lady. It's not suitable for me to be a servant."
"Let her cry." An Ning said calmly, looking out of the window, on the sea of flowers covered with snowflakes in the Ming Mansion, "Crying and venting. It's what Xin Ran needs. She has suppressed it for too long , and suppressed too much. It is much better to let her cry unrestrainedly than to let her go out and get drunk. Of course, if Butler Liu or Master Ming Jiu feel that it is too unlucky for someone to cry like this in the Ming Mansion, or something, Then I will go up now and take Xinran away. I will definitely not disturb the Ming Mansion."
Steward Liu smiled wryly, how could he not hear the bitter sarcasm in Madam Quan's words?
But after all, it was the eldest lady who was made to cry by the ninth master of their family. It is human nature for the eldest lady's friend to say something ugly.
No matter how people know right from wrong, when they see someone they care about crying like this, they will hold their breath in their hearts.
In silence, without another word, Steward Liu left.
The back of the head seemed to have eyes. As soon as Butler Liu left, An Ning immediately stood up from the chair.
Pulling her sweater, she followed Jiang Xinran's crying and strode towards the second floor.
"Jiang Xinran, have you cried enough?!"
As soon as he entered, An Ning leaned against the door frame, folded his arms and sneered.
"Even if you want to cry, you should go home and close the door and cry by yourself. Even if you cry to death, no one will ask you a question, but you cried like this in Renming Huaijiu's home, in his bedroom. De Xing, do you still want to show your face? You really like him so much that you don't even want the minimum dignity?!"
Contrary to the caring and gentleness of more than ten minutes ago, An Ning's attitude this time is very cold, and she almost swears a series of swear words.
In terms of comfort, they have said too much to Xinran.There is no need to say any more.
What Xinran needs now is not comfort, but a blow to the head.
Only this pungent and harsh words can tear her out of her despair.
So what An Ning said was merciless, hit the nail on the head, and sealed her throat with every word——