[Peace] Peace of mind

Chapter 8

Ling Yiming didn't look at Kudo Shinichi, his face seemed to have no expression but it seemed to be full of expressions.Kudo Shinichi felt very confused, he couldn't see through him.

"Help it until you can't hide it anymore."

Ling Yiming'an's voice was rare and indifferent, and the Kyoto accent that had been disguised for a long time seemed to finally relax with a Kansai accent. For some reason, this made Kudo Shinichi feel a little more at ease in his heart.

Ling Yi Mingan had already started to turn around and walk back, Kudo Shinichi saw the pain and determination on his face at that moment, and he thought of the sadness that Toyama and Ye showed when they touched the name Hattori Heiji.He felt that he couldn't keep silent any longer.

"You can't hide it from her, Hattori." Kudo Shinichi said suddenly, his voice was very firm. "She's already a little suspicious, I think it's impossible for you not to notice it." He paused, looking at Ling Yimingan who stopped with his back turned to him. "She recognizes you, you can't hide it from her."

"If you can't hide it, you have to hide it, Kudo." Ling Yiming suddenly turned around and faced Kudo Shinichi, his eyes were full of determination and helplessness. "What do you want me to do, Kudo? After going through so many things, I am no longer the aggressive brat I was back then." He looked at Kudo Shinichi with an unprecedentedly serious expression, which made Kudo Shinichi's heart ache. Have a bad feeling.

"I lurked in the organization for a year before I got that picture. During the year, all I saw were scheming arrangements, intrigues and tricks, carefully avoiding every trap that might fall into it. I was really tired I don’t want to live that kind of life anymore. So even if it’s in this way, I must come back and go back to her. "

Ling Yiming'an's eyes were burning, and his pupils shone with unwavering light.Kudo Shinichi was stunned for a moment, he just faltered with sobs: "But, it's Yuan Shan, Yuan Shan...is waiting..."

Ling Yimingan raised his eyes to look at the crescent moon in the sky, his voice was soft but a bit harsh, which made Kudo Shinichi feel sad involuntarily.

"I have no choice, Kudo." He had a helpless smile on his face, but it was inexplicably distressing. "The people from the organization came to look for Kazuha a few days ago," he said, and looked sideways at the startled Kudo Shinichi. "I think they should have discovered that the blueprint has been replaced. In order to find me, they wanted to start with Kazuha. Kudo, if I was one step late at that time, I might not even have the opportunity to stay quietly by her side now. It's gone." Ling Yimingan's eye sockets seemed a little red. "How could I involve her?"

Kudo Shinichi looked at Ling Yiming'an, and the time when he was still Conan flashed through his mind.He wanted to say something more, but his voice was stuck in his throat and he couldn't come out anymore.

Really, this kind of feeling is familiar to him, isn't it?I made the same choice back then, so what qualifications do I have to persuade others now?

Ling Yi Mingan turned around again, with his back to Kudo Shinichi.Under the light, his shadow was stretched long, which only added to his depression.

"Kudou, don't worry about me. Hurry up and decipher the blueprint. Deciphering the blueprint and finding their lair is already helping me the most."

Kudo Shinichi suddenly felt powerless.He visited many experts on that blueprint, and after studying it for a long time, he had no clue.Now my best friend is forced to hide his name because of his failure, and he guards the woman he loves but cannot recognize each other.This makes the famous Kanto detective who has almost never failed feel guilty.

"Hatto," Kudo Shinichi's voice choked, "Do you have any other wishes?"

Ling Yiming suddenly laughed when he heard the words, he straightened his back to Kudo Shinichi, raised his eyes to the sky.So Kudo Shinichi didn't see the glistening water in his eyes.

"He Ye, she said, I never looked back at her. In those days, she said she liked me so much, but I couldn't understand her heart." Ling Yimingan's eyes flashed the image of Yuan Shan and her love that evening. With Ye's expression of tears in his eyes, his heart began to throb and ache again.

"Kudou, you know, I always think these things are not important. I think I have a relationship with her that needs to be known without saying anything. I didn't expect her to care so much." Ling Yiming settled down and sighed almost inaudibly. "She had to wait for me. She said that I never told her that we should date." Ling Yimingan smiled wryly. "Kudou, do you know? I owe her too much."

Kudo Shinichi was thoughtful, silent and did not speak.

Ling Yimingan turned around suddenly, and somehow he took back the precious tears in his eyes.His expression was firm and confident, and his eyes were burning, which almost made Kudo Shinichi suspicious.

"I just want the most ordinary fireworks in the world, Kudo, this is my wish." Kudo Shinichi saw the brilliance in his eyes. "Even with this face, I will try my best to make her fall in love with me again."

Ling Yimingan turned around, stopped after walking a few steps, tilted his head slightly and said calmly: "So Kudo, please, keep silent."

Kudo Shin watched Ling Yimingan turn back to the original road, a kind of inexplicable bitterness slowly mixed with the night and surrounded him.

Yes, there is nothing else he can do.He just kept silent.

Ling Yiming'an was quite absent-minded after returning, but fortunately, Yuan Shan and Ye Ye took him to tell the elders that it was getting late and some two needed a date, please let them go, and I will be more grateful in the future.

Ling Yimingan felt quite beautiful when he heard these words, although he knew very well that she was just acting.

Ling Yimingan sighed silently in his heart.To be honest, he didn't know whether he should be secretly happy or complaining now.Well, Toyama and Ye said that she really loved Hattori Heiji to death, and the reason she rejected herself was that she was still waiting for him.

But... this...

Ling Yiming'an was very depressed, but he couldn't express his suffering.So Ling Yiming was hurt internally.

Of course Yuan Shan and Ye are not in a good mood either.Ever since she realized that she seemed to like Ling Yi Mingan in an instant in the afternoon, she began to feel extremely anxious.Yes, she can't like him, how can she like him?She is still waiting for an equal time.

The two had their own concerns and remained silent along the way.God poked his head from above the cloud, and obviously felt the low air pressure blowing towards his face.God was frightened, stuck out his tongue, and retracted his head.

Of course, God also did a good thing by the way. The originally clear night sky suddenly became overcast with dark clouds, and there was a slight drizzle of rain, which made the already low-pressure atmosphere even colder.

Ling Yimingan intentionally accompanied Yuan Shan and Ye for a walk, instead of driving.But luckily, the two of them walked back downstairs to Ye's house not long after the light rain fell.

Both of them stopped and looked at each other silently.In the end, Yuan Shan and Ye Zhang couldn't hold back and spoke first.

"Ling Yi, I think we need to talk."

Ling Yimingan turned sideways and nodded seriously.There were little drops of water on the ends of his hair, and concentration seemed to be written on the ends of his brows.There was a steadfast yet slightly joyful gleam in his eyes, which made Yuan Shan and Ye's hearts flutter.

She was once again strongly aware that things couldn't go on.

"Ling Yi, um, first of all, thank you for helping me so much during this period of time, and I didn't repay you anything, I'm really sorry. But, Ling Yi." Yuan Shan and Ye paused, there was a lot in their eyes Serious color. "I don't think we can go on like this anymore, and I think it's better for us not to see each other again."

Ling Yiming was startled, and frowned at Yuan Shan and Ye, his eyes became fierce for a moment, Yuan Shan and Ye almost felt that they could not resist.

"He Ye," he tried hard to control his voice, Yuan Shan and Ye sounded very calm. "You mean, don't you want me to be a stranger with you?"

"Well," Yuan Shan and Ye lowered their heads, feeling a little uneasy. "That's what I mean."

Ling Yiming'an's eyes became sharp at the beginning, and Yuan Shan and Ye felt that they were about to be defeated.But soon, Ling Yimingan brushed the water droplets from the tip of his hair, and there was a smile on his lips.

"He Ye," he looked at her with deep eyes. "You don't like me, do you?"

The raindrops gradually became heavier, hitting the road with a very crisp sound.Yuan Shan and Ye only felt that the water drops penetrated the skin and hit her heart drop by drop, making her tremble all over.

She felt that her emotions were a little out of control, and the panic in his words made her breathe rough.She closed her eyes, pretended to be calm, and silently turned around to go upstairs.

Ling Yimingan grabbed her tightly.

"He Ye, I know you're running away. What do you think?" He had a confident expression on his face, and his eyes were full of indescribable radiance. "You can't escape Kazuha, I will wait for you, always by your side. You just try to forget, forget Hattori Heiji. Really, you just..."

"I can not do it."

Yuan Shan and Ye's voices were as cold as ice, typing each word clearly, leaving Ling Yiming stunned for a moment, not knowing what to say.

She suddenly turned around and stared at him, her eyes were so firm that he almost dared not look directly at him.He took a deep breath silently, waiting for her next words.

"Ling Yi, I can't do it, how could I forget Hattori Heiji? If possible, I would like to forget him like this, but I can't." The broken hair on her forehead was hit by the raindrops that gradually grew Wet, hanging limply, dripping with water.

"Ling Yiming'an," she seriously called his full name, frowned tightly, and pointed to her chest. "His imprint has already been branded on my place. I only have one heart, and I can't like you anymore. So Ling Yi," she lowered her head, staring at the rippling puddle, her voice was weak but firm. "sorry."

Ling Yimingan involuntarily let go of his hand, Yuan Shan and Ye didn't look at him again, and strode upstairs resolutely.Ling Yimingan clearly felt her exhaustion and determination in the last glance he saw her.

He had never hated himself so much at a certain moment as now.He owed her that once, and he took their time together for granted.He used all his energy to turn himself into a towering tree for her to rely on, but he never thought that she could also live independently.

She is not a vine, she never needs to depend on a man.She was just willing to be his pet, longing for his attention and caress, eager to curl up in his arms, smiling proudly and brightly.

He had always been alone, but he had lost himself.

The heavy rain began to pour down unscrupulously, and at some point under Ling Yimingan's feet a small river had gathered and flowed into the distance.He was completely soaked, the light-colored plaid shirt was pressed against his chest, and the totem-like scar on his back was looming.

It was left three years ago, and the one who fell into the building was the gangster whose clothes he had changed.He rushed out of the flames in torn clothes, the gash on his back disintegrating, spreading along his neck to his eyebrows.

Because of that time, he could without hesitation believe that the young man a few days ago was lying, because the gangster had already died in his own hands.

It was also at that time that he knew the key that the organization had been looking for, and he resolutely decided to pretend to be the gangster who fell into the flames and sneak in to explore the truth.

Perhaps because he had never been separated before, it wasn't that he didn't feel how important she was at that time, but he just felt that it was inevitable to leave her for such a short time.There were too many reasons why he couldn't tell her, but to put it bluntly, he still felt from the bottom of his heart that he could wait and fight, and he could live without her.

But later he found out that he couldn't do it.

Her smile has always been the source of his motivation, and his life without her seems to have fallen into a deep valley.She is his sunshine at his fingertips, and the warmth without dead ends is his bottom foundation.

Only then did he finally understand that it was him who had been relying on her all along.

The heavy rain hit him crazily, and the color of the water dyed the dim street lights.The night was so dark that he couldn't see the distance, so those days when he was Hattori Heiji came back to his eyes.The lights in Yuan Shan and Ye's house went out not long after, and he suddenly felt a little cold in his heart.

It seems that from the beginning to the end, it was me who bothered her and disrupted her life, no matter whether this person was called Hattori Heiji or Ling Yimingan.

He stood all night in the heavy rain.

When Yuan Shan and Ye went downstairs to work the next morning, they saw Ling Yi Mingan, who was soaked in rags and dressed in rags. While her eyes widened in surprise, her heart twitched violently.

The rain didn't stop until early in the morning, Ling Yiming'an's face was abnormally pale, and there were clotted blood stains on his lips.He looked up to see her, with bloodshot eyes.

Yuan Shan and Ye didn't expect him to stand like this all night at all, they panicked for a moment, faltered and fumbled without saying anything, but Ling Yimingan's voice was hoarse, weak and distressed.

"He Ye, I've thought about it. You've always made it very clear that I'm the one who keeps bothering you. So He Ye, if you really want me to disappear, then I'm willing to leave your life." He lifted He raised his eyes, and the broken hair on his forehead was still dripping with water. "Kazuha, are you sure you won't forget Hattori Heiji?"

Yuan Shan and Ye nodded unconsciously.

"okay, I get it."

Ling Yimingan's face was unusually calm, but his lips were frighteningly white.Yuan Shan and Ye watched him turn and leave without saying a word, feeling an inexplicable feeling in their hearts.

It's like, like a piece of my heart has been hollowed out.

Persevering people have their advantages, they will not give up lightly, but when they do give up, they are often very straightforward.For example, Ling Yiming'an, when he said he knew, he would definitely not show up again.

Yuan Shan and Ye felt that the past few days without Ling Yi Ming'an were rather muddled.In view of the extremely abnormal state of Yuanshan baker who can always mistook coffee powder for chocolate foam, Mimi and Yingzi had no choice but to take over a large number of jobs with a grin.

There is no way, people who are broken in love need to be taken care of.

Yes, Yuan Shan and Ye are broken in love.

To be continued.

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