novelraw Chapter 963 - 945: Can’t Let Go of Her, So What Can I Do? (Part 4)
Chapter 963 - 945: Can’t Let Go of Her, So What Can I Do? (Part 4)
Chapter 963: Chapter 945: Can’t Let Go of Her, So What Can I Do? (Part 4)
After returning to the dormitory, Ye Xi opened the dormitory door and then turned on the light.
The moment the room lit up, the two little cats sleeping in the cat bed immediately let out a "meow~" sound.
Ye Xi pushed the suitcase and walked into the room, then turned around to close the door.
As he turned back, the two little cats had already run out of the cat bed, jumped onto his bed, and tilted their heads to look at him obediently.
Ye Xi liked this feeling of being watched and cared for...
He placed the suitcase aside, curled his lips into a smile, walked to the bed, and sat down, holding the smaller kitten in his arms.
Meanwhile, the bigger little ginger cat jumped onto Ye Xi’s chest, lowered its head, opened its big brown eyes, and suddenly let out a "meow~"...
"Did you miss me?"
Ye Xi looked at the two little cats, absent-mindedly smoothing their fur, and his lonely heart was instantly filled with these two little creatures.
"Meow~"
The two little cats consecutively let out cries, with the ginger cat getting closer and licking by Ye Xi’s nose, "meow~"
"Only you all might miss me and really need me, right?"
Ye Xi asked them, as if he were also asking himself.
"Meow~"
Who knows if animals can understand what he’s saying?
But, these repeated responses really seemed like they were replying to Ye Xi, filling his heart with warmth.
Lying on the bed, Ye Xi opened his eyes and stared at the ceiling, his gaze vast and empty, speaking weakly, "Actually, it’s not just you who cares for me... many others also care for me..."
"My mom, my sister, my uncle, my aunt, and her... Although she hasn’t contacted me, she must care for me too. But now, having strained our relationship, I can no longer maintain contact with her..."
Ye Xi seemed to be speaking to himself.
The two kittens kept lying under his arm, perched on his chest, obediently lying there, quietly watching him and listening to him speak...
Of course, who knows if they can understand?
"I’ve held back for so long, never thought of telling her about this... I lost control that day, I shouldn’t have told her... but I didn’t expect her to reject me so thoroughly... without giving me any chance, wanting so badly to marry Huo Feng... even considering me forever as her brother... even overturning the feelings she held for me when she was young..."
Ye Xi let out a long sigh, "I can’t seem to figure out whether the feelings she had for me when she was young were sincere? All these years, I always thought she was serious... I was serious about her too... If her feelings for me weren’t real, wouldn’t all these years be a joke?"
Ye Xi’s tone was a bit self-deprecating; he lowered his head to glance at the ginger cat’s eyes, also asking: "Am I a joke?"
The ginger cat naturally didn’t know what he was talking about, but cooperatively let out a "meow"...
"A joke, perhaps..."
With this sound, Ye Xi took it as a joke.
This winter break, Ye Xi wandered between fantasy and reality...
He hadn’t lived as closely with Pu Sangzhi as he had during this time, waking and sleeping together every day...
By Sangzhi’s side, there was no Huo Feng, only him.
This time brought an illusion to Ye Xi, if nothing else, he felt he had a chance.
The more he felt like this, the deeper the obsession in his heart...
Feelings that should have been let go, feelings that should have faded long ago, gradually grew stronger and were brought back up during this brief period of contact.
Ye Xi increasingly faced his own heart, understanding more the depth of his feelings for her.
He knew he couldn’t let go...
He hadn’t let go for many years...
Time hadn’t diluted these feelings.
Yet in such circumstances, that woman Xie Bing appeared.
She made Ye Xi trapped in regret and self-blame, truly unable to step out of that circle, unable to accept that a momentary lapse of judgment back then had led him to completely lose her.
Now, Ye Xi has returned.
In this quiet room, he inevitably falls back into the vortex of thoughts.
He keeps talking, keeps thinking, keeps recalling everything that happened during this time...
The longer he talks, the more distress he feels, the heavier the pressure on his chest.
The two little cats continue to accompany him quietly; although they can fill the void in his heart, they cannot distract his thoughts.
Ye Xi cannot stop thinking about her, missing her, wanting to find her...
He simply lay on the bed and thought for a long time...
Finally, he placed the kittens on the bed and suddenly sat up!
Ye Xi knows; he can’t continue thinking.
He must find some other things to divert his attention...
He must feel the cold...
He wants to seek extreme stimulation.
Ye Xi turned to look at the dark window...
Ultimately, he made a decision: run!
...
At 11:15 p.m., Ye Xi changed into sportswear, grabbed his phone and keys, ready to go running.
The temperature outside remained very low...
Coming out of the dormitory building, Ye Xi could feel a gust of cold wind blowing, bringing a piercing chill that made him shiver uncontrollably.
But he liked this feeling...
He wanted to go running.