One will not

Chapter 44

"Ye Yichen, in fact, you have never loved me, have you?"

Song Yu's voice was hoarse, but with imperceptible tremors, he paused word by word, and slammed into Ye Yichen's ear, and hit Ye Yichen's heart.

"Ye Yichen, in fact, you never loved me!!"

Song Yu trembled even more, but he finally said it, the things that had been hidden in his heart for so many years, which made him feel panic and despair, finally came out through his mouth in full.

"You never loved me! You don't understand how to love someone!! So you don't care if I'm with someone else, and you don't care about breaking up with me at all!! Even after separation , you never feel sad, you even feel lucky and happy!! Ye Yichen, you keep saying that you love me, but you don’t love anyone at all!! You have been lying to me, and you are also Lie to yourself!!”

Ye Yichen paused.

Song Yu's voice was choked with sobs, but he continued to speak.

"Ye Yichen, you... have never loved me at all..." Song Yu covered his red eyes with his hands, "But, I fell headlong into it... I couldn't turn over at all... Heh..."

Listening to Song Yuhong's screaming condemnation, Ye Yichen was stunned, and then a slight pain emanated from the depths of his heart.

Ye Yichen clearly knew that Song Yu was right to a certain extent, and to a large extent.

Ye Yichen suddenly didn't know what to say, he looked a little dazed, which fell into Song Yu's eyes, making Song Yu feel even more desperate.

"The excuse you used to separate from me is that I cheated?" Song Yu murmured, "But you never thought that I was with Yang Qing in the first place just to make you jealous? You Never thought about it, did you?"

Ye Yichen was startled.

"That was the sixth year I was with you..." Song Yu sat decadently on the chair, "At that time you didn't care about me anymore...Although you are with me every day, I know that you think I It's boring, shallow, and pale, and you don't want to take me to heart at all."

"You are writing scripts every day, and you don't even want to look at me. I finish work every day and rush home. I just want to watch you and have a meal with you. Just like that, you just look at the tablet. Food, I ask you anything, and you are always perfunctory. Do you think I can't see it? Ye Yichen, do you really think I can't see it?"

"I want to chat with you, I want to hug you, I want you to treat me like before...but you don't love me anymore! Ye Yichen, you don't love me anymore!! You don't care about me at all!!"

Ye Yichen tilted his head and looked down at Song Yu.

"I never thought that there would be someone who could give such a clear and refined reason for cheating."

Hearing what Ye Yichen said, Song Yu smiled wryly. He looked up at Ye Yichen, feeling that Ye Yichen was really indifferent.

"What I said is true, I really thought so at the time." Song Yu smiled, but the smile was bitter, and his face became paler, "I thought, I am with Yang Qing, maybe you Will be jealous, and then I will come back to you, and we can always be together like before, just the two of us, no one else."

"But, you don't care at all...you, you don't care if I smell like someone else, and you don't care if I don't go home for dinner, Ye Yichen, you have no heart at all. .”

"Other people always feel that I am sorry for you, yes, I, Song Yu, am sorry for you, you are so kind to me, and I still mess around with others..." Song Yu shook his head, his face paler, "But, I More painful, I am more painful than you, you never cared about me, Ye Yichen!!"

Song Yu's tears fell completely, running down his cheeks and covering his face.

"You never cared about me, Ye Yichen..."

Ye Yichen frowned, looked at Song Yu, and finally sat on the chair.He pinched his fingers, and unconsciously pinched them tighter and tighter. He was a little anxious, and seeing Song Yu like this, he felt a little apologetic unconsciously.

He never thought that Song Yu could see him so thoroughly.

When he broke up with Song Yu, he was really not very sad. After all, he had been unable to seek Song Yu's love for many years at that time, and then he really didn't want to ask for it. Later, he began to feel that Song Yu was boring and began I feel that life itself is boring...

So when he found out that Song Yu cheated for the first time, he felt that this was the normal state of life, very normal.

So when Song Yu and Yang Qing were together, apart from the slight anger and embarrassment in his heart, what was left was more of a relief.

So when he broke up with Song Yu, he was able to leave without delay.And Song Yu's retention didn't make him moved or uncomfortable, but just bored and impatient.

So deep down in his heart, he felt guilty towards Song Yu... He thought Song Yu didn't know, but Song Yu knew everything, but Song Yu never told him.

"Oh..." Song Yu sneered, "I never dared to tell you how afraid I was that you would give up on me one day. In those few years, I was trembling every day... I was afraid that you would finally find out that you didn't love me at all. I……"

"Later, I finally didn't have to be afraid, because you broke up with me completely! That day you walked away very chicly, very handsome, and very straightforward. I saw you for so long, and you never even turned your head! Not even once!! "

Song Yu finally finished all he wanted to say, leaned on the back of the chair all of a sudden, as if collapsed.

He looked at Ye Yichen, trying to see a hole in Ye Yichen's face.

Ye Yichen just pinched his fingers nervously, until the fingertips turned red and blue.

"But, you are still with Yang Qing in the end." Ye Yichen finally opened his mouth, even though Song Yu kept saying that he loved him, and kept saying that it was to make him jealous, but he was still with Yang Qing.

"Yes! I am with Yang Qing!! Looking at you like that, I feel hopeless! I am also a person, Ye Yichen, and I need others to love me." Song Yu's voice became weaker and weaker, "And Yang Qing happens to be such a person, although he is not as good as you, but he loves me, he loves me, that's enough."

Ye Yichen tapped his fingers on the table in a daze.

He felt that what Song Yu said was wrong, very wrong.

It is not love at all that supports two people being together for a long time.It's a habit, a contract, and a mutual agreement to give up other people in the world for each other, to tolerate each other's shortcomings, and to support each other through the rest of life.

What is love?

Is it a spirit?Or a belief?

No, Ye Yichen thinks that love is just an illusion of dopamine secretion.

But he also knew that what Song Yu said was not a lie.

Based on Ye Yichen's understanding of Song Yu, he fully knows that Song Yu is indeed a proud person. Song Yu's pride caused him to not bow his head to beg when he found out that he no longer loves him, and would only use other methods. Methods.

but……

"But Song Yu," Ye Yichen looked at Song Yu's face, "I remember this topic, we talked about it before, didn't we?"

"As I said, I am indeed a person who gets bored easily. This is my problem, but I really can't change it. I try my best, I really try my best." Ye Yichen held his fingers halfway and looked at the pale man. Fingertips, "I didn't lie to you when I said that I wanted to start again with you. I was also working hard to be with you, and even fall in love with you again..."

"But, you saw what happened later," Ye Yichen closed his eyes fiercely, and then opened them again suddenly, "At least I tried, how about you?"

"You always think that my kindness to you and my love for you are superficial things. You always think that people like me never know what love is, never know how to love someone... you always I feel that my personality is indifferent, I treat you well when I want to treat you well, and leave you immediately when I want to leave you... You always feel that I don't really love you."

"But Song Yu, have you ever thought about it?" Ye Yichen looked embarrassed and painful, his eyebrows were furrowed together, and his face was pale, "What is the so-called love in your mouth?"

"Have you ever thought about it seriously, what is the so-called love in your mouth? Love is an abstract thing. You always feel that love in the world is the same. It is possessiveness, jealousy, and the whole heart. Dedicate it." Ye Yichen even sighed a little, "Song Yu, the reality is not like this."

"The reality is even more cruel... No one is inseparable from anyone. The kind of love you call doesn't exist at all. You always feel that I don't love you, you think I'm too indifferent, but you never think about it. , The feeling that will eventually disappear, is also love? Even if it disappears in the end, there is no trace left, but you can’t deny that when I was chasing you, when I was with you... I really loved you of."

Song Yu wanted to speak, but Ye Yichen interrupted him.

"Song Yu, I'm the kind of person who finds everything boring. If I don't really love someone, I won't even look at him," Ye Yichen looked up at this point. Song Yu, "But I really used all my strength to chase you back then. If this doesn't count as I love you, I can't think of any other reasons for me to persist for so many years."

Song Yu's expression has changed from the previous pain, entanglement, and surprise to the current mixed flavor.

"But, Ah Chen, you don't love me later...you don't love me anymore Ye Yichen, I didn't do anything, you don't love me anymore."

Ye Yichen finally closed his eyes, hiding the disappointment and sarcasm in his eyes, "Yes, I don't love you, didn't you just say the reason, because you didn't do anything, you didn't even respond , making me feel that my efforts have never been worth it.”

"Loving someone is so difficult, but for me, giving up someone is so easy." Ye Yichen opened his eyes and looked at Song Yu, "Song Yu, today is the day to make it clear, right?"

Song Yu looked at him, his eyes were red and bloodshot inside... Ye Yichen also looked at Song Yu, and at this moment he realized that Song Yu had really had a hard time during this period.

He was thinner and looked depressed. Although the stubble on his chin had been hung recently, it still couldn't cover up Song Yu's lifeless feeling.

"Song Yu, let it be like this, let it be like this." Ye Yichen looked at him and persuaded him, using the old words he had said countless times before, "Song Yu, go forward, don't look back, and you can't go back head."

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#Sister, you boldly go forward#

#Don't look back#