Chapter 49
Chapter 49
Song Xici stared at Tang You'an before her, suddenly at a loss for words.
Tang You'an still held her cool hand and lowered her head: "I'm sorry. Even if you're unwilling, please don't reject me right now, okay?"
Fireworks continued to burst in the sky, a beautiful sight. Occasional passersby who saw them pulled out their phones, chatting and laughing as they captured the beautiful scene in the night sky.
Song Xici looked at Tang You'an for a while, then suddenly withdrew her hand, clenched it into a fist, and expressionlessly punched Tang You'an's shoulder.
"Xici?" Tang You'an was momentarily flustered by this action.
But Song Xici didn't respond, instead raising her fist to punch Tang You'an's shoulder again.
"Xici..." Tang You'an suddenly became anxious.
This shouldn't be happening. She had observed for so long, thought it through for so long, making sure Song Xici had feelings for her before... speaking up.
"You bastard turtle..." After a while, Song Xici suddenly looked at her and cursed softly, "What if I reject you? What do you plan to do?"
Tang You'an was stunned for a moment before speaking: "I don't know. I only know that for some things, if I want them, I must fight for them. If I don't fight and regret it later, I'll surely regret it for life. Rather than letting myself regret it later, I'd rather eliminate the chance for regret beforehand."
Hearing these words, Song Xici's eyes reddened, so she lowered her head and pressed her index finger against her eyelid.
"I know you're afraid of many things, like love suddenly disappearing..." Tang You'an rubbed her hand. "Overall, I respect your decision. Whether you accept or reject, I can't control that. But these are separate issues. Whether you accept is one thing, whether I confess is another. Anyway, I want you to know that I've fallen in love with you and want to spend my life with you, but if you're afraid..."
Before Tang You'an could finish, Song Xici suddenly hugged her tightly.
This sudden embrace instantly pushed Tang You'an back two steps until she leaned against the railing.
"Xici?" Tang You'an raised one hand, anxiously pressing it against her back.
Song Xici gripped the clothes on her back, slightly parting her lips as unsteady breaths escaped her chest: "What am I afraid of?"
"Just what you said before..."
"Yes, I was afraid," Song Xici choked up a bit. "I was afraid that love would suddenly disappear, afraid that you'd say you love me today but be fooling around with some woman tomorrow, also afraid that you'd suddenly be gone, leaving me alone here. But so what?!"
"Xici?" Tang You'an stroked the back of her head, her pupils unconsciously constricting.
"Does that stop me from liking you? Does telling myself not to like you make me feel any better? It doesn't..." Song Xici sniffled, her nose stiff from the cold. "So, I'm willing."
Hearing these words, for a moment, Tang You'an doubted if she was hearing things, her whole body tensing up.
"No matter what the future holds, please make sure to live well with me while you can be with me," Song Xici raised her hand to wipe away tears. "Otherwise, you're dead..."
Tang You'an let out a breath after hearing this and stroked the back of her head again: "I understand. Don't worry."
At this moment, Tang You'an heard a rumbling sound from Song Xici's stomach.
"Hungry?" Tang You'an released her and took out a tissue, offering it to Song Xici.
"Mm, hungry." Song Xici nodded, sniffling.
"Then let's go eat. I've made a reservation at a restaurant." Tang You'an said.
"Oh... okay," Song Xici nodded again, then put on her mask and followed Tang You'an forward, cursing along the way, "Damn, you made me curse myself the whole way. People like you should be locked up and beaten!"
Tang You'an smiled and shook her head upon hearing this.
The restaurant was on the 23rd floor of a building in the plaza. When the elevator doors opened, they entered along with others.
It was a bit crowded, and Song Xici frowned slightly at being squeezed. So Tang You'an reached out and pulled her into her arms, gently encircling her waist.
As the elevator ascended, a feeling of weightlessness came over them. Song Xici inhaled Tang You'an's scent, lowered her head, and inexplicably started smiling.
This meal ended around 9 PM, when the cold was at its peak.
"It's too cold out here, let's go back," Tang You'an said, turning her head to see Song Xici standing there shivering with her arms crossed.
At the same time, Tang You'an placed her hand on her shoulder.
"Oh, okay..." Song Xici's shoulder trembled slightly as she glanced at her and nodded.
After speaking, the two headed back the way they came.
Their steps were unsteady, and their hands occasionally brushed against each other.
Along the way, a couple walked by hand in hand.
Seeing this, Song Xici secretly turned her head to look at Tang You'an's hand hanging by her side, then up to her profile.
After a while, Tang You'an noticed and turned to look at Song Xici: "What's wrong? You keep looking at me..."
"I'm not looking at you..." Song Xici, caught in the act, quickly turned her head away. "I was just looking at that lamp on your side. It's really pretty. We should install one in our yard too."
Hearing this, Tang You'an turned her head away, smiling and shaking her head.
After a while, Song Xici secretly turned her head again to glance at Tang You'an.
"What are you looking at this time?" Tang You'an asked, staring at the ground and walking lazily.
"Nothing, I'm not looking at anything!" Song Xici hurriedly turned her head away again.
Amused by her behavior, Tang You'an didn't say much, but slowly reached out to touch Song Xici's hand. Then, Tang You'an firmly grasped that cool, soft hand in her own.
Although she hadn't felt much before, simply thinking this place was remote and cold, now Tang You'an felt it was quite beautiful. Even though it felt a bit chilly, her heart inexplicably warmed up.
This feeling was wonderful.
Song Xici glanced at her, then turned her head back, secretly smiling.
After returning home and going to their respective rooms, Song Xici removed her makeup, showered, then flopped onto the bed, grinning like a fool for a long time before eagerly opening WeChat to share her joy with Meng Meng.
But as they chatted, she frowned again.
Wait, they were together now, and married too, right? So... should they still sleep in separate beds?
And... when dating, shouldn't there be some differences in how they interact compared to when they weren't dating?
At least, they could kiss and hug and stuff, right...
After thinking for a while, Song Xici opened her door and walked to Tang You'an's door, knocking gently.
Hearing the knock, Tang You'an walked to the door with her phone and opened it.
She saw Song Xici wearing loose pajamas, her hair half-dry, with a strange expression on her face.
Tang You'an looked at her and thought for a while: "What's wrong?"
"I..."
"I'm hungry." Song Xici didn't know how she managed to say these words.
Tang You'an couldn't help but look at the time. Hadn't they just eaten not long ago?
"Is that so... Then I'll go cook something for you." Although puzzled, Tang You'an ran a hand through her hair and walked out of the room towards the kitchen.
Song Xici stood there, running her hands through her hair, wanting to slap herself. Hungry my ass!
A while later, a steaming bowl of noodles was ready.
"Here you go." Tang You'an said, handing the chopsticks to Song Xici.
Song Xici stared at the large bowl of noodles for a long time, feeling desperate. Then, pretending nothing was wrong, she smiled and nodded, picking up a bundle of noodles to eat.
However, since she had eaten not long ago, and quite a lot at that, Song Xici was still full. She could only force herself to eat.
"Has your appetite improved recently?" Tang You'an tilted her head, watching Song Xici eat. She found Song Xici's eating quite adorable, like a little mouse, puffing out her cheeks to blow on the hot food, then crunching on the vegetables in the noodles.
"Yes, yes it has..." Song Xici nodded.
"That's good, being able to eat is a blessing. But be careful not to eat too much, it can burden your body," Tang You'an said.
"I understand..." Song Xici nodded.
After finishing this late-night meal, they both returned to their rooms.
Still, nothing happened.
Song Xici played on her phone for a while, experiencing two quick deaths in PUBG. After thinking for a bit, she opened WeChat and sent Tang You'an a message: "Come over, I have something I want to tell you."
Tang You'an had been sitting cross-legged at the foot of her bed, chatting with Zhao Zixi. But upon receiving Song Xici's message, she immediately sent Zhao Zixi a "talk later" and tossed aside the pajamas next to her leg, getting up to open the door and walk to Song Xici's room.
Standing at the door, Tang You'an knocked. After hearing "come in," she turned the lock with a click and entered.
Inside, she saw Song Xici standing on the balcony, pulling the curtains closed.
"What's wrong?" Tang You'an closed the door and walked towards her.
"Oh, I just... We've already, you know, become a couple..." Song Xici turned to look at her. "So, shouldn't we make some changes in certain things?"
Hearing this, Tang You'an walked behind her, reached out to gently encircle her waist, and whispered in her ear: "Dating and being married should indeed be different from before. So, what would you like me to do..."
Although her question had been quite serious, that warm breath made Song Xici's ears instantly turn red. Her body nearly melted, and her mind was suddenly filled with inappropriate thoughts.
"I'll go take a shower first," Tang You'an then said softly in her ear.
Author's Note: _(:зゝ∠)_
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