Obsidian Alpha

Chapter 56

Leander’s P O V

She was finally talking to me. It was nothing but mean remarks and hateful words but it was progress none the less. Last week she pretended like I did not even exist. I knew I had a lot to make up for but maybe having her back in the room might help smooth things over a bit. I could use any thing I could get. It’s a start and it’s way better than nothing at all. SHe would flatly refuse. I had a feeling she would reject breathing if was the one offering it to her.

I watch her as she slowly eats. She was eating so slow and she was clearly struggling to hold her spoon. I was half tempted to offer her my assistance but I already knew what her answer to that would be. She would flatly refuse and it would get her stressed out. It is exactly what the doctor told me to avoid. I already had her worked earlier to get her to get back to bed.

“Do you want me to order you something else?” I ask and she looks up to me confusedly. “ You seem like you are not enjoying your food. You are eating with the speed of a snail. I can get you something to your liking.” I explain.

“I am still having some trouble swallowing. The IV has been helping the past month so I did not eat much.” She coldly replies. Every word she says whether she intends it or not is harmful. They keep reminding me of my sins. I keep looking at her. She was not shutting me out anymore. She was still rejecting my presence around her. But that empty look that was in her eyes before is now replaced by a look of pure hatred. It gutted me to it but it was a start. I was terrified when she regarded me like I was nothing back in the hospital. It felt like she gave up completely on me and I wanted to stab myself in the chest with a silver dagger right then and there. But hate? Hate was something I could work on. It meant there were still some emotions in her towards me. But I needed to tread carefully. She was very fragile. The whole thing about us is very fragile. It could get fucked up even more with just one wrong move and we could go back to the starting point. SHe had little to no trust in me right now and I had to keep in mind that she would read any move I make with an ill intention. I did nothing to prove her wrong since the day she arrived. I still have a lot of shit to sort myself. I have a lot to work on and I did not even get the chance to get to tha. I have been a total mess the past month. It’s like I ceased to function with Morena being hurt and bed ridden.

“The food is fine. I just prefer to eat slowly so that it won’t hurt.” She says cutting my train of thought. Great! I probably freaked her out now. She must be thinking something weird because my gaze lingered on her.

“Finish your food then. And I will help you get cleaned up after that.” I say. “You will be helping me?” She asks as she stares at me as if I was ridiculous.

“Yes, I am. Who else did you expect would help you?” I breathed out surprising even myself at how calm my voice came considering how pissed of I felt at the idea of someone else seeing her naked flesh.

“I thought a maid would help or something. Or you might help me into the bathroom and leave me there to take care of myself.” She replies, nibbling at her barely touched salad.

“The help of a maid is not required when you have me. And I will not leave you alone in the bathroom when you are barely able to stand straight on your own two feet.” I say.

“I can manage.” She mumbles but I ignore her.

“Just finish your food, Morena.” I curtly say standing up to get changed. I was in a pair of jeans and a shirt and they were starting to get uncomfortable. I prefer to be in short , sweatpants or plain naked while in my room but I do not think Morena would appreciate the last option. I almost killed the girl, I probably should not be flashing her as soon as she is released from the hospital.

“I do not need your help.” I hear her say to my back.

“You do. There is no need for you to deny it.” I curtly reply.

“I might require help but I do not want it to be coming from you.” She bites back.

“Well you have no choice. It’s either me or no one. I will not have anyone whether male or female see your naked body or even a part of it.” I explain my point of view hoping she gets it because I was starting to grow pissed and I did not want to scare her again.

“I vividly remember waking up all cleaned up back in the hospital. Someone was giving me sponge baths. You could ask that same person to help me out again.” She replies aloofly and I fight hard to hide my smile.

“THe person that was giving you sponge baths was me, Morena.” I say.

“What?” she shrieks looking mortified.

“What? It’s not like I have not seen it all before.” I say and from the look she had on her face I knew that was probably not the best thing to say to her. “The only people who knew about the whole situation were me, Asmund, Asher and the doctor and I was not about to let any of them clean up my mate.” I explain and I hear her scoff at the last word. I sigh in defeat. there was no point of this at the moment.

“Finish eating. I will be right back.” I say before heading into the closet.

Chapter 59 Morena’s P O V

I sigh in relief as I lay my head back on the comfortable pillow. It was so refreshing to finally get a shower. I was so stubborn last night and refused to let Leander help me get cleaned up. I slept very uncomfortably and woke up feeling even more ill and sweaty. I finally forfeited and accepted his help. I expected him to make some snarky remark about me caving in but surprisingly he said nothing. He just got up and carried me toward the bathroom. He placed me gently and started the water. He then took off my clothes and started cleaning me up slowly. He was so gentle it took me by surprise. He never treated me that way. he was probably being civil because the guilt was eating him up. There was no way he just accepted that I was his fated mate just like that. I might have not known him for long but I know enough to be sure that he will not believe anything unless he looks into it himself or is presented with evidence. I still do not know why he came to get me out of the pit. The circumstances of what happened after I lost consciousness were still a mystery to me.

The whole time he was cleaning me up, he was looking directly at my face. He did not look at my body at all unless he absolutely had to. I would not blame him. I saw my reflection in the mirror. I looked a fucking mess. My skin was all cuts and bruises and I resembled an abandoned puppy more than I resembled a person. He was probably disgusted by my mere sight. Yet he was feeling guilty and as if it was his responsibility to take care of me since he was the one who got me here. He did not want to delegate that duty to anybody else. He was extremely patient. Cleaning me with a delicate touch, careful not to press too hard on my wounds and bruises which were practically covering my whole body. He then brought a stool and sat me on it and proceeded to wash my hair. He was very gentle and he patiently brushed every strand of my hair. Who was a mess. It was all tangled. Even when he washed it before in the hospital he did not brush it. I was sleeping in a hospital bed. getting me cleaned up was probably a huge inconvenience. Yet, everytime I tried to cover myself up he would take my hand away saying that it was not something he had not seen before. That might be true but that did not mean I was open to the idea of him seeing it now. I had about a thousand snarky remarks to say but decided against it because the man literally had my head between the palms of his hands and I had no doubt he would not hesitate for a second in splitting my neck if I pushed a tad bit too far.

I was now fully dressed in a comfortable nightgown with clean under wear on. My hair was dried and brushed and I was laying on the comfy mattress in bliss. It was nothing to compare to the hard hospital mattress or the hard muddy ground in the pit. I do not even know how long I remained there. I should probably ask Leander or Asher about the details. The whole past month has been a foggy mess. I still have not heard from Osk. I still call for her all the time but to no avail. Her spot is still empty and I do not feel her no matter how hard I try to focus. I sat for a long time on that hospital bed trying to drown out my surroundings in hope that I might detect even the faintest trace of her but it was no use. However, I felt a strange sense of calm. Long gone was that panic I felt after I discovered her absence when I woke up in the hospital. After I talked to ASher, I was strangely convinced that she would be coming back to me. OSk was strong. She and I went through a lot together and she has always been the positive one. There was no way she would give up one herself or on me that easily. I just needed to be patient and wait. She will come here.

Leander has gone off a while ago to get Rena. I had no idea what I was going to say to her. i was still debating whether to tell her the whole truth or not. For starters, she was still young. And then there was the fact that she was still in contact with members from our old pack. She might tell one of them the events that took place last month and word would get to alpha Luke. I did not want to be the cause of a war. Alpha Luke has already lost so much because of the attack. Our pack never fully recovered from it and I did not want to be the cause of throwing them in shambles all over again. But then it was the fact THat I never lied to Rena. Even though we are only four years apart, she was my confidant and she knew every single detail about me. There was even the possibility that she might not believe me when I lie.

The door slowly opens and I spot Rena with Leander and Asher standing right behind her. She looks so grown up . She changed a lot in a month.And it dawned on me that I even missed her fifteenth birthday because I was in the hospital.Poor baby. She must have been very lonely. She lunges at me as soon as she spots me on the bed and bursts out crying and screaming incoherent words. I hugged her back as every bone in my body screamed in pain.