novelraw Chapter 168 - Liar
Chapter 168 - Liar
"Alright, I promise," said Shi Enxi as she unwrapped her husband's arms around her waist. She remained still on his l.a.p and held his hands instead. This was the moment of truth between them, she knew that just by looking at him.
Lu Mello remained quiet as he stared down at their hands. He held her hands back and gave it a light squeeze. The last thing he wanted from Shi Enxi was for her to hate him. It was something he never wanted to happen. He was afraid that by telling the truth, she would look at him with eyes full of malice but he needed to take that risk. He didn't want her to hear the truth from someone else.
Something like this could be used to make a dispute between them and he was not going to allow anyone to take that chance especially when he knew that it was going to be harder for them if that became the case.
"I... really don't want you to hate me." His voice broke as he said those words.
On the other hand, Shi Enxi's heart trembled, making her feel guilty for keeping things from him. "Why will I hate someone I love?"
His head was still lowered and a bitter smile found its way on his lips, "I'm afraid that love might disappear one day." Or maybe within this day, after he told her the truth. He added in his mind.
"I should be the one saying that." Shi Enxi stated as she released one of his hands and reached out to touch his cheek instead to make him face her.
She did so many terrible things and yet, Shi Enxi kept on wondering why Lu Mello love her.
If they were living in a book, she was sure that someone like her would surely make up into a hateful villain... an antagonist who deserves nothing but all the bad things in the world after all the hateful things she did.
Even now, she was willing to use their son just for the sake of her revenge. What kind of mother was she? She was willing to put her own son at risk! No good mother would do that!
She may have told Lu Mello that she wanted to change and that she wanted to focus on becoming a good mother but that was impossible for her after what she did.
During the time when they thought that Lu Weichun died, Shi Enxi never imagined feeling such heart-wrenching pain when Lu Mello didn't believe her. His painful words were like daggers and those sharp words were the truth. It showed how bad of a person she was.
Lu Mello raised his hand, gently placing his hand on top of hers that was touching his cheek as he gazed down at her with his kind, beautiful black orbs. "I don't think there will be a day where I will stop loving you."
Liar. She thought.
"You almost did when you thought that I killed your sister, Weichun." She said without holding back as she slipped her hand from his hold and lowered it.
"No, I didn't." He replied as he continued to stare back at her.
"What if I happen to kill her? Will you still love me?" The way she scrutinized him was as if she was finding faults from him, trying to see the truth in his words.
"I will continue to love you." He honestly said. "But at the same time, I'll hate you." He added.
"Ha," she chuckled at his answer. "Is that even possible? How can you love and hate at the same time?"
For some reason, even with the topic they were currently having, the heavy atmosphere that surrounded them earlier was slowly fading out.
"You can put it this way; I won't be able to move on from you since you will be the only woman I will truly love despite the fact that I hate you."
This time, the side of her lips curled up into a smile, "Aren't you just putting yourself in despair by doing that?"
He smiled back at her. This time, he was the one who reached forward and touch her cheek, "What can I say? I really do love you that much. You are the only one for me."
"You really are hopeless aren't you?"
He leaned forward, their foreheads almost touching, "What can I say? I'm quite a hopeless romantic, aren't I?"
She chuckled lightly, "Mm, that, I agree. You are a fool for loving someone like me."
"Yes, yes, I'm a fool."
"And stupid." She added, a small giggle escaping her lips.
Lu Mello couldn't help but let out a helpless smile as he gazed into her eyes; her eyes were like two rare gems, each time more beautiful with every glance. "Am I?"
"Yes, you are." This time, she hugged him by his neck and closed in, taking in the small space between them as she placed her lips against him.
He closed his eyes and kissed her back, slowly and gently. Oh, how he wished for time to stop during sweet moments like this. He just wanted her to be in his arms and to kiss her and hold her endlessly.
They continued to share a loving kiss until the one who initiated it was also the one who ended it.
"You have my answer, Mello." She whispered after pulling back a bit from the kiss. "Just like you... I guess I'm a fool and stupid when it comes to this love."
How could she hate him when he was the only man who saw the beauty inside a dark and horrible person she was? It was as if they both came from the same puzzle box. They were like puzzle pieces who complete each other despite how imperfect they were; one holding the other's sanity. They were each other's pillars but at the same time, they were each other's worst enemy.