novelraw Chapter 154 - It's okay to stop
Chapter 154 - It's okay to stop
"Yu'er, welcome to your room!" Shi Enxi happily said as she entered the baby's room while carrying him in her arms. "Well... You will use it once you grow but for now, you will sleep in mommy and daddy's room, okay?
The room was big, it was filled with toys on one side and children's books on the bookshelves. The color of pastel mint green had a cooling and pleasing effect in the eyes. The room was perfectly planned and designed for boys.
The infant only snuggled against her warmth like a kitten which made her heart melt. His black, round eyes were looking at her innocently.
"I guess you love mommy more than your room, huh?" She giggled. "But you should at least appreciate mommy and daddy's effort for making your room, baby."
She sat on the sofa and watched him play with her shirt.
From the door, Lu Mello was quietly staring at the scene before him with mixed feelings. His eyes were filled with emotions one cannot tell.
The pain inside him only made him quieter, there was no joy in him. He only felt relieved that his wife was happy and alright.
Shi Enxi noticed how quiet Lu Mello was so she called him, "Mello."
"Hm?"
"Come here."
Lu Mello obediently went and sat beside her. "What is it?"
"I've been thinking..." She moved her gaze back to the child in her arms. "I want to be a full-time mom."
Her gaze was soft and gentle as she enjoyed watching her 'son' drink from her b.r.e.a.s.t.
"I don't know if I'm going to be a good mother but... I want to be one for our Yu'er."
When she first held him in her arms in the hospital, she felt a tug in her heart. She wanted to protect him at all costs, she wanted to be good for him.
"I want to focus on our family." In other words, she wanted to let go of her plans for revenge. "I know I shouldn't be saying this... I know that I should be bringing justice to my parent's death but..." She paused and turned her gaze to him, "After having Yu'er... I want to put our family first."
"Are you going to let go of Shi Anhao?"
She lowered her head at her husband's question. She still hated her when she thought of that woman but whenever she looked at their son, those feelings of hate would just fade. Shi Enxi didn't want to be a person who was filled with hate. She wanted to let go of her past.
"No... We already have Chen Gao, my brother will know what to do." She looked at him. "But I want to stop getting involved with her anymore."
It was as if she turned into a whole different person. Shi Enxi only wanted to be a loving mom to her son and let go of the burdens she was carrying.
Lu Mello was quietly looking at her. In his mind, he wondered if Shi Enxi would say the same if she learned the truth but... He preferred this type of her. It reminded him of their peaceful relationship in the past. The time where he didn't know that she has actually done many evil deeds.
"I want to be a good mom for Yu'er..." She said softly as she leaned and placed a soft kiss on the infant's forehead. "I want to be a... good person for him."
Having him was like having a new life. She wanted to be peaceful this time. She didn't want her child to experience what she had. She wanted him to have a family full of smiles just like how her family was when her parents were alive.
Seeing her this way made it even harder for Lu Mello.
If she finds out what happened... Will she hate him? Will she go back to her usual self? He wondered.
This side of Shi Enxi was so familiar... It was just like in his past where she was a gentle mother and loving wife.
Back then, he had always wondered if that was all an act but this time he knew that it wasn't. Shi Enxi always had this side of her.
Being with him, having a family, acting like a good wife and a good mother, it was all a part of her. This side was only seen when they had the child. The child was Shi Enxi's turning point, even in the past.
If Huang Li only didn't bother her about her revenge for Shi Anhao, maybe her dream of this happy family would continue.
Lu Mello was not going to allow anyone to break this family in this life. This time, he was going to properly do his job as a pillar of this family.
"You've been so quiet lately, Mello."
He was brought back from his thoughts by his wife's voice. He noticed that she was now staring at him, giving a worried look.
He chuckled a bit and lied, "I guess I'm just tired. Work has been piling up lately in the company."
"I'm sorry... I've been giving you work too... especially with Chen Gao and Shi Anhao..."
"It's fine. Don't worry, all you have to do now is focus on our son. As for Shi Anhao, she has committed a crime to your family, you can just leave her with your brother, Shi Yi, and your sister Bingbing. I will work together with them in catching her."
"They won't blame me if I didn't help them, right?"
"What are you saying? You have already done your part. You caught Chen Gao and now, let them do the rest. I'm sure that your siblings will also want to take care of her."
Lu Mello is right... Shi Enxi thought as she turned her gaze back to her Little Jade.
"You are a mother now, they'll understand." He wrapped an arm around her shoulders before he leaned and kissed her temple. "My wife, it's okay to stop."