My Alleged Husband

Chapter 681 - 651 Describing the State of Mind_1

"Grandpa and Grandma, I actually understand now why my dad and mom hate you so much, and I understand why you made his grandfather so sad. Sometimes, I see his grandfather hiding in a corner, secretly wiping away tears. I feel really disappointed watching him cry time and time again, while I just stand by helplessly, unable to do anything for him. I can’t bear to see such things. I desperately wish that heaven would allow him to live happily. When he was hospitalized, I was so desperate; the person who loved me the most was in the hospital, and I might never again receive his affection."

"Perhaps you think I’m greedy. I already have the love of my own parents, far happier than my biological father was; he never received his parents’ love from childhood. Yet my mom and dad have been by my side since I was born, never leaving me. I should be content with this, as people should be happy with what they have. But I can’t help myself, because other children have their grandparents around, and I don’t. It’s natural to compare. And when I see others who are more fortunate, it only highlights what I lack."

"Every decision I make is related to whether my dad and mom can continue to live happily. All I want is for my family to be happy. I could care for nothing else, give up everything, live a lifetime through devilish training, but I couldn’t bear to see my mom and dad unhappy."

"Child, perhaps the decisions we made in the past hurt you deeply, but I hope you can forgive us. I know I was wrong. In the years since I left, I have never lived happily, enduring pain and guilt every day. I have become numb, not knowing what I really want from life, until I met you. Only then did I realize what I had lost when I saw you playing happily."

"You are my grandson, the next heir to the Zhang Family. No matter what, we hope that you can live happily. A life with you is the happiest and most joyous. If life didn’t include you, what meaning would your mom and dad have to live? All they want is for their child to grow up safely, and for their family to stay happy alongside them. Regardless of the harm it might cause each other, whatever pain it might inflict, as long as there is true belief in each other’s hearts and eventually coming together, then what problem could there be?"

"In your eyes, making a mistake seems to mean that you can simply expect others to forgive you easily. But why are you entitled to unconditional forgiveness? Why should others pay for the mistakes you made? Why should others bear the consequences for the wrongdoings you committed? You don’t want to take responsibility for your own errors, only to find ways to escape them over and over again. Is that really the right thing to do? You never think about how much pain we might feel inside. All you care about is being happy and free to wander the world. Why must you be so selfish?"

"Living selfishly is truly exhausting; I could never be as selfish as you. To abandon your own child, I know you may have had your reasons over these years. But do you know? Although my dad never speaks of it, he suffers and blames himself inside too. He’s like me, feeling the pain of your absence, wondering if you didn’t like me because I wasn’t cute or obedient enough. In my dad’s heart, he wonders why his parents chose to leave him, why they weren’t willing to spend more time with him. Maybe he wasn’t cute enough, or maybe he simply wasn’t worth the care in your eyes."

"Perhaps you never thought that my dad would feel this way. Honestly, I was shocked when I realized he had these thoughts."

"My father appears so strong, cheerful, and happy, but no one knows the pain he hides inside. He buries all his anguish deep within, never sharing it with anyone."

"Often, many issues could be resolved with a bit more understanding, care, and greeting from each other. But between you, there has never been any communication, just like with me. You abandoned me for so long, and I know deep down you still care about me; you just don’t know how to express it. I chose to believe in you in my own way, but you don’t realize how much pain and disappointment this has caused my parents. Most importantly, my great-grandfather, who has sacrificed so much for our family’s happiness, is still concerned about us in the hospital. And you? You have never been by our side, not knowing how to communicate with us. Maybe when we talk, there’s a generation gap, but you know? Everyone wishes for their parents to be with them, and all parents hope their children and their spouses will be there to care for them, even if it’s just simple companionship. Yet you have missed out on all the essential care, heartlessly casting it aside. Nothing in your heart seems precious enough to earn your attention. All you want is the happiness and freedom you see through your own eyes, but do you realize? All that can’t replace the everlasting love of relatives, the eternal love of your own family!"

"When even your friends are disappointed in you, you’ll realize that everything you did was wrong, and why you selfishly left without considering your family’s happiness..."