My Alleged Husband

Chapter 654 - 633 New Year’s Gift_1

"Old Master Zhang, another New Year has arrived, and I don’t know what kind of New Year’s gift you might want. But I understand now, perhaps the best New Year’s gift would be for my mom and dad to return home hand in hand, peacefully, to spend the holiday with you. For everyone, that would be the most perfect gift, and no one could imagine anything better. Every person harbors a kind of pain, a kind of torment, and this pain and torment will not change just because you beg for mercy over and over again.

Every person in the world must pay for their deeds, and everyone grows from their actions. With different experiences, their wisdom differs. I don’t know where my mom and dad are right now, and I can’t guarantee they will return to spend this New Year with us. I also wish for my mom and dad to come home and joyfully celebrate the New Year with me. That would be the greatest comfort to me!

For over two decades, for twenty years, my mom and dad have never spent a single New Year with me. Again and again, I’ve hoped they would return on that day. Time and again, I’ve stood at the doorstep, craning my neck, waiting for their return. But in the end, what I faced was the cold wind on my cheeks; I didn’t get to see my mom and dad!"

Old Master Zhang knew because he had seen the letter his grandson had written to Zhang Zhentian and Xia Jing.

I must admit, when he read that moving letter from his grandson, he was torn inside.

The letter read: Mom and Dad, the New Year has come again. This is the twenty-something New Year I am spending, and I’ve been waiting all this time for my mom and dad to come home and celebrate with me. I hope my mom and dad can return and spend time with me, not because I want New Year’s gifts from them, but because I truly, dearly miss them. I crave a warm hug from them, I want to act like a child in their arms, to tell them how hard these years have been for me, and to share my deepest feelings with them.

Mom and Dad, do you know that I miss you? Every time I stand at the doorway, looking out at the distant horizon, how I wish you could appear before me. Yet, I return disappointed, time after time. I have waited there for days on end, only to be greeted by the cold wind, again and again, against my cheeks, without my mom and dad returning, without them by my side. Again and again, I face mockery from others; other families have their parents, but all I have is grandfather.

Though I was furious with you for cold-heartedly leaving me behind and choosing to leave, I have now chosen to forgive you. Because I know what I long for the most. All I want is a warm hug from my mom and dad. Why must fate be so cruel to me? Why can I give up all other New Year’s gifts, if only to have my mom and dad by my side? Even a distant glance from them would satisfy me.

But why do I end up heartbroken, suffering over and over again from the results? I have waited so long, more than three hundred days in a year, year after year. Day after day, year after year, and still, I cannot bring my parents back. Perhaps you have long forgotten me, but I am your own flesh and blood. What reason could justify you neglecting and abandoning your own son so? What calamity could lead you to forsake even your own child? What kind of freedom is so enticing that you ignore even your family?

Do my mom and dad understand the pain in their son’s heart? My demands are truly minimal, as low as they could possibly be. I don’t desire much – I can forego any New Year’s gifts. I just want my mom and dad by my side, to peacefully spend a New Year together. Is it really that difficult? I am a child too; I need my parents’ company. I also yearn for my parents’ most sincere love. For many years, my mom and dad have not chosen to be with me, but I still choose to love them. Because they gave me life, and no matter what role they played in my growth, my life is a gift from them. I know I should learn to be grateful, but I am also human, with flesh and blood, with desires for the life that can bring me the greatest joy and comfort.

Every time I see my grandfather hiding in the corner, secretly wiping away tears, as his grandchild, it breaks my heart at that moment. I was so angry at my parents, why did they have to hurt the Old Master Zhang who loved me the most? If my mom and dad knew how good grandfather has been to me, that he would give me the whole world, including his life, I wonder what they would feel. Would they be moved? Would they be grateful to grandfather? Everyone takes different paths, but in the end, I chose to forgive my parents. Because I understand that only by letting go of the past, can our family find happiness in our lives together. If I dwell on everything, how could my mom and dad live happily? Where would my happiness be? I don’t want an unstable life; all I want is a peaceful home, a New Year with my parents beside me. I’ve given up all the gifts, but the absence of my parents... that is what truly makes me suffer...

When Old Master Zhang finished reading the letter, his heart ached terribly. He had never considered that his grandson would be so thoughtful, bending over backward, repeatedly compromising, all to have a steady reunion with his mom and dad. But in the end, fate let him down; his parents did not choose to come home. Instead, they continued to roam, aimlessly wandering the world, with no one understanding what was in the couple’s hearts. Would his grandson’s wish for a New Year’s gift be fulfilled?