My Alleged Husband

Chapter 623 - 602 I’m Not Rare_1

It seems that even now, at this moment, the man before my eyes still thinks that I chose to be with him for money. Why do people in this world refuse to believe in each other? If there were just more trust between us, how could the world have become what it is now? How could my own marriage have become so irreparably shattered? It’s not because of someone else interfering, nor because of someone else’s scheming, but because of the lack of trust between a husband and wife.

At this moment, Ran Zhihan realized how tired her heart had been living her life. No matter what she did, no matter what she said, her husband would never treat her well. She didn’t ask for much—just to live the peaceful life she wanted, but in the end, it had led to this result. Why does everything never go as one imagines?

"Yichen, this may be the last time I call you this in my lifetime. I know that perhaps in your heart, I don’t deserve to address you so intimately. I understand that over the years, your love for me was sincere. Yet your love for me vanished entirely because of Chen Gang’s appearance, as if it had turned to naught. I cannot believe that all the love we shared over the years could just be fleeting, just a mirage. No matter how I try to salvage it, it’s beyond saving. Your heart doesn’t love me anymore. Perhaps you think that leaving me is the best punishment for me, but do you know? The real punishment isn’t cutting off all my financial avenues; it’s losing the happiest marriage I had.

I might be without money, but I can earn it bit by bit with my own abilities. I can rely on my own hands to live unworried about food and clothing. But I can’t be without my happy marriage, and the situation I’m in today is entirely the consequence of my own making. I don’t blame anyone and hope you won’t blame anyone for intervening either.

Everything between us shouldn’t be seen as a mistake. Maybe from the beginning, I shouldn’t have held the hope of coming to you. If I hadn’t insisted on finding you, if I hadn’t found you, then none of this would have become so complicated, and you wouldn’t be living in such pain. Because of me, you’ve led a life mixed with happiness and sadness. I know that perhaps all these years I’ve never given you happiness, and maybe being with me has always been seen as pain. But I’ve been the happiest person because I had you. You’ve held me, shielded me from the wind and rain with your strong arms. Thank you for all you have given me these years!"

Zhang Yichen didn’t say anything, and Ran Zhihan turned and left.

Watching his wife’s departing figure, Zhang Yichen couldn’t name the taste in his heart. In the end, he had still ended up on this path!

Ran Zhihan returned to the bedroom and lay on the bed crying for a long time.

After crying enough, she left Zhang Yichen a letter, "My dear husband, please don’t be angry with me anymore. Getting angry over a woman like me is pointless, especially since I’m not a good wife nor a good mother. My actions have deeply hurt you.

But do you know? My feelings for you over these years have been genuine. I’ve never thought of betraying you, betraying our family, nor of betraying the vows we made to each other.

Man proposes, but heaven disposes. I never imagined that Chen Gang would come back here one day, enter my life, and bring such a turmoil to us. I can’t explain all of this, nor can I prove what really happened. I know no matter what I say now, you won’t believe me. But at least please believe me one last time when I say that every word I tell you is true. Many times I chose to hide things, but only because I considered our relationship. I didn’t want to complicate things between us, and I couldn’t bear to see you hurt so deeply by my secrecy that you would give up on me. I can’t do it.

A woman’s most important possession in a lifetime is her family. After having children, what she cares about most is her son. Did you know? I don’t regret these years of being busy for you. I know you gave me a carefree life, but that’s not what I wanted. All I wanted was to have you by my side. Even if we lived on simple meals every day, that would be enough for me because my beloved man was with me. I don’t regret all the foolish things I’ve done in my life, nor do I regret having been so determined to be with you. You’ve given me the best life, we’ve had such a lovely son together, how could I not be grateful?

Please believe me, from the beginning of our relationship, what mattered to me wasn’t the wealth of the Zhang family. I didn’t care about that at all. Maybe you think I’m a gold-digger, or maybe the whole world sees me as a woman who chose you for the Zhang family’s money and status, but I never thought so.

I know that if I talk to you about divorce now, you will never agree. So, I can only choose to leave for a while on my own. Let’s both cool down. After we’ve thought things through, let’s meet again. Honestly, I don’t care at all for any of this. What I want is a stable life, a stable marriage, and that most basic trust between husband and wife. But since I can’t have any of that, what’s the point of staying here? It only adds to the sorrow. For now, please care for our child. When I come back one day, I hope to see him grow up happy and healthy, not living forever in hatred and pain, nor undergoing any more harsh training. He is my flesh and blood. Watching him repeatedly come home injured from training, how could my heart as a mother not ache? He is my son; please treat him well and make sure that the changes in our relationship don’t affect your judgment towards him. Nor should the changes in our marital relationship affect grandfather’s health. The issues between us can wait for some time before we settle them. In the end, we’ll have to face them. I know I can’t escape, so I can only choose to temporarily avoid them."

Upon reading, Zhang Yichen felt an aching squeeze in his heart...