My Alleged Husband

Chapter 596 - 575 What Will It Take?_1

"Ran Zhihan, have you really thought this through? Do you truly believe that you will be better off without me? You are gravely mistaken. Even if you could do without anyone else in your lifetime, you genuinely cannot leave my side. I can give you all the riches and glory, just as long as you stay by my side, unwavering and never committing any act of betrayal again. I can pretend as if nothing happened. Why are you so obstinate, fully aware that some things will never yield good results, yet you still choose to hurt me in this manner?"

"You always claim that you truly love me, is this your love for me? Repeatedly hurting me, never truly placing me in your heart—do you understand that when you say you don’t ask for much, does it make what I desire too excessive? I too want a stable life, which might not mean much to you, but it’s very important to me. I’m a father now; I have my own family; I should take on all the responsibilities that a man must bear. But you? Why do you always treat me like this? Why do you choose to flee every time you make a mistake instead of facing it properly?"

"Facing one’s mistakes properly, you make it sound so easy. Can you really confess and face every single mistake you’ve made with such ease? Don’t you feel any pain when you see those who were hurt in the past, the things that broke your heart? You never considered what I’ve been through. You think that my life before I was with you was tough, but at least I was happy.

"You don’t understand the pain I’ve been through. What I’ve desired is forever out of reach, while what I don’t want always appears before me. Do you know how torturous that kind of pain is? You’ve never experienced that pain, so you don’t understand how miserable I am inside. I will never forget every word you’ve said, but I can forgive the hurt you’ve caused because of the love I have for you from the bottom of my heart. I don’t mind if you hurt me over and over again, but I can’t forgive myself. I can’t forgive how I’ve treated you, when in fact, I love you just as much, if not more, than you love me!"

"If that’s the case, why are you leaving me? What do you want from me for you to be willing to stay by my side? Is it that in your eyes, nothing I do is right? Am I really that useless in your heart? As a man, do I really lack the ability to protect my own wife? Have you ever trusted me at all? All I want is your trust. Is it really so hard for you to give me that?"

Ran Zhihan couldn’t help but laugh.

"What’s the use of saying these things to me now? Ask yourself, is it that you were unwilling to trust me, or that I was unwilling to trust you? Did you ever truly trust me? If you had, how could we be in this situation now? Deep down, you don’t trust me at all, so why pretend to be so trusting? Doesn’t that make both of us feel terrible inside?

"From the day Chen Gang appeared, you started suspecting me. You never believed there was nothing between him and me. You always thought everything I did was to protect him. But you didn’t realize that all that I did was to protect you—because if you spared his life, you could continue living carefree in this world. But if something really happened to him, did you think you could escape legal punishment? We live in a society ruled by law; it’s not like the past when you could casually dispose of lives with a few words.

"I really didn’t want anything to happen to you. I couldn’t bear to see you thrown into jail while I stood by, helpless. As a man so successful in business, how could you face the death penalty over such a petty matter? I couldn’t let that happen. But to tell the truth, when I saw how you tormented him, when I saw her in unbearable pain, my heart did ache with sympathy. After all, he was once my best friend. That I wept for him wasn’t because I was defending him, but because I was considering your welfare. Yet you chose to doubt rather than trust me."

Only now did Zhang Yichen finally understand that he had been wronging his wife from the very beginning and never had beaten her, so why had he hurt her like this? What could have been resolved easily, he had made into a complete mess. How could he end this now? His wife surely would not forgive him easily.

Yet, he found it impossible to bow his head and apologize; after all, he was a man—how could he simply apologize to his wife?

"I know what you’re thinking. As a man, indeed, you shouldn’t have to apologize to me, a woman. But I also hope you understand that an apology won’t easily put this matter to rest. Once the seed of doubt is sown, it will inevitably sprout and grow. From then on, no matter what I do, you’ll never trust me. So why should I force myself to stay by your side, making us both so miserable? Why not give each other a way out, some peace and quiet to cool down?

"It’s also a good time for me to think about what I can do to free your heart from doubt, to make you truly trust me, and to have you regard me as your most trusted woman, rather than always suspecting that I’m with you only for your wealth and status!

"I don’t want to say too much, but I hope you remember this one thing: in this world, not everything can be accomplished with money. Money isn’t omnipotent; there are many things it can’t buy. Maybe one day you’ll realize that the person who loves you the most is still me. The one willing to pay any price for you is also me. Perhaps you don’t see it now, but one day you’ll understand what’s most important!"