My Alleged Husband

Chapter 566 - 545 Let it go_1

While the two of them were talking, Zhang Zhentian had somehow started standing outside the hospital room eavesdropping. Hearing his wife utter such heartless words, he was so angered that he pushed open the door and barged into the room. When Old Master Zhang saw his son rushing in so recklessly, he wondered when his son would grow up. Why did he always act like a child, not understanding reason, casually entering other people’s rooms? Didn’t he know this would only make others think they were rude?

Xia Jing was stunned to see Zhang Zhentian push the door open. She hadn’t expected someone to be standing outside. If she had known, she certainly wouldn’t have spoken so bluntly. This would only worsen the relationship between them, perhaps irreparably. But what was done was done, what could she do now? Admit fault for her mistakes? Did she believe that by doing so, he would trust her? She could hardly believe this was real.

"When did you start standing outside the door? Don’t you know eavesdropping on others is very impolite? Don’t you realize this only makes me feel like you don’t take me seriously? If you cared about me, you could’ve asked me directly; why would you eavesdrop? Do you understand that this really makes me look down on you?"

"Ask you directly, and you’d tell me the whole truth? You don’t need to concoct stories to deceive me. If not for eavesdropping, how could I ever know what you truly think? Your heart despises me; yet, you pretend to be indifferent in front of me. But in front of my father, you reveal all your thoughts. Am I not worthy of your trust, to the point that it’s so hard for you to speak the truth? How difficult is it for you to tell the truth in front of me? Would it kill you?"

"Since it’s come to this, now that you’ve heard so much, let me clear things up in front of dad. You must realize, what you’ve done might seem trivial to you, but it hurts me. You’ve never considered what I want, thinking whatever you can provide is what I desire. Do you understand? I don’t even know how I’ve made it through these years. I valued you greatly, yet this is how you treated me. How can I continue living with you a lifetime? I’m no saint; I too need a sincere relationship, without any ulterior motives. Can you offer that?

Deep down, ask yourself, if you can’t provide this kind of affection, on what grounds do you expect me to stay by your side? I’ve been compromising all along, thinking that someday you would see my love for you. But in the end, is it so? Did you really see my love? You hurt me over and over again. Is this how you love me?

Hearts are made of flesh. Things have already turned out this way, nothing we say can restore them to how they were before. I once thought that being with you, I could ask for nothing else. But I’ve realized I can’t do that. You may see me as vain, thinking I’m with you for money, because it’s not your first time taking medication and doubting my intentions. Without trust in one’s heart, why should we force ourselves to be together?

Do you know? Being with you, I constantly reflect on whether I’m doing right. I’m not sure if choosing to be with you was the right or wrong decision. I’m always agonizing over this, and you’ve never experienced this pain. How could you possibly know how much I’m suffering inside? If you truly love me, if you still have a sliver of guilt and love for me, then please let go..."

Zhang Zhentian hadn’t expected that all Xia Jing wanted was to give up on him. Why was he still so determined to be with her, after giving so much? To think that after all that, this painful result was what awaited him. No one had imagined an outcome so agonizing. Once he thought that to be with the one he loved, giving up everything was worth it. But now he realized all he had believed in was but a mirage.

"If you think I’ve done something wrong, please tell me plainly. Why must you treat me with such attitudes? Do you know that treating me this way only causes me deep distress? If you truly don’t want to be with me, then tell me directly. Don’t keep giving me hope, only to push me into despair. You wouldn’t want to experience this pain yourself, so why force it upon me? Are you really being fair to me? Fair to our many years of marriage? I love you so much, seeing you as my lifelong partner. Am I to be treated by someone who’s always thinking of leaving me and flying far away?

You’re so cruel; how can your heart be so malicious? I love you so much yet you hurt me like this. Our decade-long relationship means so little to you. You bury my love for you, making me feel you’re nothing but a bad woman. Despite my persistence to stay with you, this is how you choose to hurt me. Why would I continue to be devoted to someone like you? Rest assured, I won’t persist any longer!"

"I told you long ago not to be so stubborn over a girl like me. Are you not being foolish? Isn’t that the reason you keep persisting? Ah, since you hate me so much, let’s never have anything to do with each other again. Pretend we never knew each other; from now on, we’re strangers, not acquaintances! I never wanted to see you from the beginning; I never thought to continue living with you. It was you who insistently clung to me, not letting me leave. Is that also my fault? I am making it clear today; I’m severing all ties with you... no more contact ever again..."