My Alleged Husband

Chapter 507 - 486: Master of Fate_1

Zhang Yichen looked at Old Master Zhang with his soul-lost expression, he knew he had ultimately still hurt the grandfather who loved him the most. But if he didn’t speak these words now, then his grandfather might never understand what it was that completely drove his son away from him. Perhaps he thought the entire fault lay with his father, but was that truly the case? Could it be that he bore no responsibility at all?

"Could it be that the love I had for him over these years was truly a mistake? I only thought about arranging the best life for him, finding him the most suitable wife, leading him to the peak of his career, yet I never considered what he really wanted. I never asked him what he liked, I always imposed what I wanted onto him, making him fulfill the goals I couldn’t achieve. Is it because of this that he left me for good? Did I really do everything wrong? Is all this really solely the cause of my own wrongdoing?"

"Grandpa, I know that every path you arranged for my father was for his benefit, to ensure his smooth sailing in his career. But back then, did you ever consider what my father wanted, what he liked, what interested him, or what he found repugnant? You always felt as a businessman, you wanted my dad to be one too, but is that truly possible? Everyone’s ideals are different. Perhaps you were suited to be an entrepreneur, but that doesn’t necessarily mean your son was. Maybe he was only suited for the life he desired, living an ordinary existence, his life unremarkable. Every decision you made came from a place of kindness, but your kindness hurt every person who loved and cared for you the most, Grandpa. I only understand now that when my father left, it wasn’t because he wanted to oppose you, he was just protesting in his own way. He couldn’t accept, time and again, the life you planned for him. When he was young, you could dictate everything for him, inculcate him with your ideas; he could let you control his life. But now that he was an adult, from the day he became one, from the day his heart fluttered for my mom, he knew he could no longer follow your arrangements as before. He couldn’t be like before, letting you do whatever you wanted with him. And he would no longer walk the path you laid out for him as if nothing had changed. Everyone’s thoughts are different, Grandpa. Surely your knowledge is far deeper than mine, isn’t it? You should also understand what "Do not do unto others what you do not want done unto yourself", means, right? Maybe you’ve even forgotten the meaning of these eight characters. Well, I’m taking the risk of causing offense to tell you, Grandpa, these eight characters mean: What you do not wish for yourself, do not impose on others. My dad may have taken the wrong path in your eyes, but to himself, he feels that every decision he has made is the right one because he is living the life he wants. He gave up his family, his career, and his future for his love, but he is happy and joyful his whole life through! Even now, with the trouble between him and my mom, he still believes he is fortunate, because all of his choices were his own desires. Grandpa, if one day your life, your destiny, were to be controlled by your father, would you still feel happy, feel fortunate? Unable to do what you truly wished, unable to obtain the love you desired at all costs—ultimately everything resulting from your own father’s doing—would your heart accept it? This is why my father left this home, because he couldn’t accept your repeated opposition. When he was with my mom, what he wanted wasn’t much—he just hoped to live happily, he just hoped his family could be peaceful. He just wanted to live the life he desired. But to you, that was just too extravagant. For himself, the life he wanted wasn’t like this, and so everything turned into what it is now! Grandpa, I know that there are many things I can’t explain to you, but I hope you can remember these words, can’t you? Let me try living the life that is truly my own. I know this request may seem too much to you, but I really want to have a hold on my own fate. In the past, to prove to my parents that abandoning me was wrong, I became a puppet, completely numb, unable to think about why I had to turn into that. But now I realize how important it is to be the master of my own destiny. If a person can’t control their own fate, then what’s the meaning of their existence in this world? I don’t want to be someone’s puppet. I just want to genuinely do what I wish, I believe I can control my own destiny, I can make my life colorful and not mundane throughout my life; I can turn everything into reality with my own efforts, into something no one else can touch, but I refuse to be a puppet, because being one, not only would I feel exhausted, the one pulling the strings would feel the same. Grandpa, truly, you understand a lot, but you still refuse to face these things. If anything I said today is disrespectful, I hope you can be a bit more forgiving and forgive the young man before you for speaking so bluntly, but these words are from my heart. I don’t regret saying them, and if there’s anything in your heart that needs to be vented, you can scold me, I won’t resent you. But Grandpa, I hope you can truly consider why my father chose to leave our family, why he would choose to be rejected by us rather than return home again, why everything has become the way it is now, why the things we want always remain elusive, why? Why do we lose everything we have, time and time again—what is it all for? What has led to this situation?"