My Alleged Husband

Chapter 440 - 419 I Should Go Home _1

"Grandma, I can’t talk to you right now. I need to hurry back home, or my dad and mom will worry. My dad and mom love me so much; I can’t let them worry about me. They should live happily without having to fret over me every day. If they do, I’d be really distressed!"

"You are such a thoughtful child. I believe to your dad and mom, you are their greatest pride. You must be the person they care about most, right? Kid, you still haven’t told me your name, nor the names of your dad and mom?"

"I’m sorry, grandma, but I can’t just tell a stranger my parents’ names. That’s my family’s privacy. I can’t reveal such personal details to someone outside our family, so please don’t be upset with me. I just can’t tell you that so easily. After all, we’ve just met. If I were to tell you all about my family right away, what would I do if you turned out to be a bad person? My parents could get hurt, and I can’t take that risk. I need to ensure they live safely and aren’t harmed because of my careless words. That would cause me so much pain and sorrow. I can’t let such a risk happen to me!"

Xia Jing hadn’t expected that this little boy, at such a young age, would be so cautious and consider all these dangers, taking such good care of his parents. How wonderful it would be if she could have such a sweet grandson herself.

But Xia Jing didn’t know that the person before her was indeed her own grandson. What she hadn’t anticipated was that this person was the precious grandchild she longed for most. But by the time she learned the whole truth, it was too late for forgiveness from anyone. Everyone knew that when she decided to abandon, she did so against her family’s wishes. The choice left everyone unable to accept such a thing happening to them. Only when everyone had left did they realize what they truly missed and lost. But by the end, was there any use? By then, had not everything and everyone changed?

"Child, aren’t you willing to chat with grandma for a little longer? I really enjoy talking to you. If you go home alone, how lonely would I be left here by myself? Why don’t you stay with grandma a little longer? I really hope for your company. Hearing you talk about your dad and mom moves me deeply. I didn’t expect you to be such a sensible child. Your parents are truly fortunate to have you!" Xia Jing said to Zhang Ni.

"I really can’t, grandma. I have to go home now. If I keep chatting with you here, my mom will be really worried when I don’t return home. I can’t let my mom worry about me. She has already given me so much. I want her to live the life she desires happily, not frightened because of me, her son. Can you understand, grandma, how much I care about my mom? Actually, I don’t ask for much. I just want my mom to be happy and to be by my side, watching me grow up. That’s enough for me. I know that in life one shouldn’t have too many desires, because then they become aimless. I’m not that greedy. To have my dad and mom with me for life is more than enough. Why long for things that were never mine and that I cannot have? Sometimes even I don’t understand why some people are so greedy. At first, I was very greedy too. Not only did I want my parents’ love, I wanted my grandparents’ love too. But in the end, I realized sheer greediness could result in losing everything. Perhaps being ungreedy leads to the best outcome, being able to see the ones you care about happy by your side is the happiest thing in life. Grandma, I believe one day you too will enjoy the joy of family. For my great-grandmother, her joy comes from having me by her side. She is so good to me; I can’t let her be saddened by any distress I cause. She’s old and can’t take even the slightest shock. I’m afraid if she were startled because of something I did, she might suddenly pass away. Then I would carry a lifetime of guilt and never forgive myself for hurting the person who loves me most. That would be my greatest sin."

Xia Jing hadn’t expected this young boy to be so full of wisdom, speaking truths that left her feeling inferior. Why hadn’t she grasped such profound truths in her life, and why could she never understand these feelings? How wonderful it would be if she could think as clearly as this child someday. If she had not done those things, would the outcome be different today?

"All right, then you go home. If I force you to stay, you won’t be happy or joyful, and making your mom worry about you isn’t right. You really are a very filial child. Everything you do is for your family’s best interest. There aren’t many good children like you in the world. Your parents must be so proud to have a son like you. Actually, I understand the worst pain a mother can feel. When I abandoned my own son, I, as your grandmother, was just like your natural grandmother – so aimless and abandoning my own child for the sake of my freedom. You know how difficult that is for a mother, right?"

"I don’t care why she chose to abandon our family. I just want to know why she made such a decision to leave us all behind. Were we so insignificant in her heart that we didn’t matter at all? Why was my grandmother so selfish? I just want to clearly understand why my grandmother made that decision, so that I can come to terms with it for the rest of my life. Maybe it’s my own excessive expectations that keep me from settling my thoughts for life. But I believe that one day I will understand it all. Well, I must go home now..."