novelraw Chapter 408 - 387: Farewell_1
Chapter 408 - 387: Farewell_1
"Since you have made your words clear up to this point, there’s little left for me to hold on to. You have chosen to leave, so what use is there in anything I say now? Your heart is no longer with me; it long ago departed from my side. Knowing this, why should I keep you forcibly by my side, only to make you live in greater pain? I’m not that selfish. All I want is for the one I love to feel happy and blessed because of me. Now I understand that being with me will not bring you happiness. I cannot allow my most beloved to be unhappy on my account—that would be too selfish of me. So, you should leave cheerfully. You’ll realize once you’re gone that I was the one who loved you most. I’ll make you see that having me in your life is your greatest fortune. In this lifetime, I’ve asked for little, only to be by your side, to accompany you, to love you forever and always. But now, even this simplest wish can’t be fulfilled. Perhaps one day, you will realize that I am the one who loves you the most."
Xia Jing said nothing. She didn’t give Zhentian a chance to speak and turned around to leave the place. She continued on to the Zhang Family’s house to bid farewell to her father, her son, her daughter-in-law, and her grandson. Yes, she was leaving this place. She felt that continuing to live here held no meaning, and she wanted to find somewhere else to live for a while.
Old Master Zhang saw his daughter-in-law coming into the house and felt a bit baffled. Hadn’t she just left? Why had she suddenly come back? Could it be that she had come to a realization and decided to return to the family? Yet even if she had come to realize something, there was no need to rush at this very moment. She could have moved all her things back tomorrow and lived with the family. But why choose this time?
"Xia Jing, is there something you want to say to me? Why did you leave only to return now?" Old Master Zhang asked Xia Jing.
"Dad, I have made a comeback because there’s something I need to tell you. I’ve made up my mind; I’m leaving this place to live in another city for a while. There are too many people and things here that trigger my emotions. Surely you can understand what I am feeling right now; the pain that makes it hurt even to breathe. Can you comprehend how unbearable that feeling is? Having experienced everything here, I’ve realized that the path I’ve been on isn’t the one for me. I should embark on my own journey in life; I should not forsake my own goals for anyone else. I’m going abroad. In this time, I want to thank you for raising my son, and thank you for finding such a good wife for him. My son and daughter-in-law now have their own child, and I trust that they will take good care of their own, being responsible parents, unlike me...who abandoned my own child for selfish reasons..."
"I know that no one can change any decision you make, but dad hopes you could stay, stay with us and accompany us, alright? I’ve always treated you as my own daughter and never thought things would turn out like this between us. I am aware of what happened between you and Zhentian, but shouldn’t you two try to sort it out properly? After living together for over a decade, you at least understand everything there is to understand about each other, don’t you? Since that’s the case, why must you do this? This will only lead to unbearable pain for both of you!"
"Dad, I have to admit, the years I’ve spent with him were the happiest in my life. Despite all the trials and tribulations we went through, we faced them together. But now he has abandoned me. What messages should I give him? Should I give him another chance to desert me once more? I am no saint; I can’t just stand by while my husband abandons me again and again. His abandonment has truly hurt me; I never thought he would treat me this way. All I wanted was for him to accompany me through a simple, ordinary life. But instead, he shifted all the blame for his faults onto me, making me his scapegoat. I bore so many problems for him, and yet he never appreciated it! I understand why he did it—people are selfish and want to present their best selves to those they care about. But he neglected to realize that in trying to be perfect in the eyes of his father and son, he showed his ugliest side to his wife. That’s when I saw his true face—he isn’t the one for me. Throughout the years together, I’ve come to see that no matter how sincerely I treated him, he never felt the same towards me. Once a relationship fails, it’s over. There’s no turning back. Our relationship has come to this point; there are no more possibilities between us. Rather than living in such misery, it’s better for us to go our separate ways, isn’t it? Perhaps my leaving is the best blessing for him. Once I’m out of his heart, he can lead the life he wants, undisturbed, in peace. I accidentally disrupted his original life plan, imposing so many mistakes upon him. Now I should step back, giving us both an out, so he doesn’t continue to err. We are truly incompatible. The moment he cruelly abandoned me, I realized that no matter what, we could never live together again. What he gave me was only pain, but the time he gave me was also joyful. So, Dad, I hope you will take good care of my son, my grandson, and my wonderful daughter-in-law while I’m away."
"Sigh, alright then! Since you’ve made your decision, we’ll do as you say. After you leave, remember to call me, to let me know you’re safe—don’t forget, your son and I will always worry about you..."