My Alleged Husband

Chapter 406 - 385 Entanglement_1

Time really flies; it’s already been three years. In these three years, Zhang Zhentian persistently entangled Xia Jing, who simply had no way out. Again and again, she filed lawsuits against Zhang Zhentian, but in the end, Zhang Sheng Tian always managed to intercept those petitions and get them back.

Today, Zhang Sheng Tian once again came to Xia Jing’s residence. He knocked on the door, and immediately upon opening it and seeing it was Zhang Zhentian, his heart sank even more. How could this man in front of him be so unrelentingly present? And what could he possibly say to make him let go? Always hovering around her, how could she ever go out in the future?

"How many times do I have to tell you? What exactly do you want from me? I just want to understand, what do I have to say for you to let me go? I’ve said it countless times—there is no chance for us anymore. Why can’t you understand human language?" Xia Jing was too tired to speak softly and gently to Zhang Zhentian; she felt that it was only adding to her inner burden, so she shouted loudly at Zhang Zhentian.

"I’ve told you, in this lifetime, don’t even think of getting rid of me. I’m begging you, just come back to my side. Is that really so hard for you? Is our decade-long marriage really that easy for you to forget? You’ve been away from me for far too long—do you understand how empty and lonely I’ve been all these years? I just want someone by my side, even if they have no feelings for me. That would be good enough for me. I don’t ask for much; I just hope you can come back and be with me, even if it’s only for a year—I would be so happy!"

"Even if you speak eloquently, there’s no chance between us anymore. Could you please stop pestering me? Do you understand? Doing this only makes me despise you more. I find you utterly frustrating. Do you realize, every single time, over and over, when you pester me, what does it mean? I haven’t provoked you. Isn’t it good to live our own lives peacefully? Why must you stir things up so that no one can find peace? You now feel that every single thing I do is unacceptable to you, but have you ever thought about how what you have done has made me feel? You never consider these things. Do you really want to live your life however you wish? I don’t have the right or the obligation to indulge your whims time and again. We’re middle-aged now; we both have grandchildren. Do you think there’s any point in persistently bothering me like this? Let go. Letting go is also a form of love, you know? If you let go, I’d be grateful to you, and I’d think even more highly of you as a decent man. But your insistence on clinging to an unwanted love—do you find that meaningful? It only makes me resent you more, making me see you as nothing but a pest..."

"Whether you think of me as a pest or whatever, I just don’t want to separate from you. What about it? I want to keep clinging to you. I’ve already told you: You’ll never shake me off in this lifetime, no matter what. You want to live a simple life, right? That’s fine by me. If I’m with you like this every day, we’re indeed living a plain and ordinary life. Just being able to see you every day is more than enough for me. Can’t you see how deeply I care?"

"Your care? Zhentian, we have both made too many mistakes. Let’s not continue down this wrong path. Dragging this on any further benefits neither you nor me. You saw it—as a result of an unintended mistake from us both, we ended up with this outcome. Do you still want to keep making one mistake after another? Life is like a game of chess; one false move, and all subsequent moves will be wrong. In the end, you’ll lose everything. We’ve made too many mistakes already; I don’t want to end up in a completely humiliating situation. Can I just concede to you now? I don’t want to have anything more to do with you. I just want to live a quiet life that I desire for myself. That, to me, would be the greatest blessing. I don’t expect anything from you, nor do I have any such hopes. I only wish you’d give me a chance to live the life I want. Being with you has been very exhausting; I always have to consider your feelings. Whenever I do something, I have to think about whether you can accept the outcome. But you have never considered this. You think you live carefree and easy because you’ve never had any burdens on your conscience. But I’m different. Every day, I worry about different issues. Every day with you, I’m afraid I won’t do well enough and I’ll disappoint you. But you have never thought about how helpless I feel inside. What I want isn’t much; I just hope to live a peaceful life with the person I love. Yet in the end, you heartlessly shoved me aside. Now do you think we have any chance left? There’s no way back to the past. Time has passed, and there’s no turning back..."

"There is a way—if you agree to start over with me, we can return to our old days. This time, I promise you won’t have to live so weary-hearted. I will take good care of you, considering your emotions. Can’t you give me one more chance? Even if you consent to comfort me, I would be overjoyed. I just hope to relive marital life with you once more!"

"It’s impossible. No matter what, I’m not going to turn back and be with you again. It’s just too tiring. Do you understand? It’s not even physical tiredness—it’s mental exhaustion. However, I’m still very grateful to you for adding color to my life. To be with you, I’ve sustained too much pressure and public scrutiny. But in the end, I couldn’t move your resolute heart. You decisively cast me aside. Since things have come to this, let’s not talk about going back. Time doesn’t flow backward, and there’s no remedy for regret. What has happened, has happened."

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