My Alleged Husband

Chapter 331 - 311 Trust Between Husband and Wife (Part 1)_1

"I must admit that what you’ve said to me really touched me. I hurt you so much in the past, did so many bad things to you, yet you still sincerely share your feelings with me. This is truly unexpected, thank you. Having someone like you, who loves my son, I can die without regrets. I have wronged my son in this lifetime because I abandoned him, which made him go so many years without a mother’s love. It’s also why he chooses to shut me out, and I can understand that. But I wrongly blamed all the hate he felt for me on you, thinking you brainwashed him into such hatred. Only today do I realize you are a genuinely kind girl, capable of nothing that would violate your conscience. I want to sincerely apologize for what I have done to you in the past and hope you can forgive me!" Xia Jing said to Ran Zhihan.

"Auntie, please don’t say that. Everyone makes small mistakes while living in this world. The key is not to blame society for being unfair to us. The heavens treat everyone equally, showing no special favor, even to their own children. Sometimes I truly can’t understand why everyone, with the same sky above and the same ground below, fights over things. What good does it do? In the end, it only hurts the ones we cherish the most! Maybe it was my attitude towards you that caused so many misunderstandings in the past. But I hope that we can get along peacefully now, because if we continue to be at odds, it will only put your son, who loves us both dearly, in a difficult position..."

Xia Jing smiled happily and said to Ran Zhihan, "People say the mother-in-law and daughter-in-law relationship is the hardest to manage, but I’ve realized you’re truly a good daughter-in-law. Any man who marries you is fortunate indeed. I’m thrilled you’ve joined our family. But now I can’t continue living with his father. Child, you must believe me, Auntie has really come to an understanding. The thing about a relationship is, no matter how wonderful it starts out, it eventually fades over time due to certain issues. Do you know? Time is a deceiver, turning vows into lies; time is also a killer, turning true love into mere perfunctory feelings. Can one really find happiness in a lifetime of perfunctory living when his heart no longer has me in it? To be honest, deep down, I am reluctant for you to leave him. After all, we share over a decade of marital affinity, and I can’t just forget about it. Initially, I held onto a sliver of hope, believing that no matter how great my mistakes, he would never push me away. But now I realize that in his world, with or without me, it’s all the same. For him, I changed a lot, like my fiery temper is gone. Back in the day, to be with him and to gain approval from his father, I spent all my savings to rescue his company. And it all led to this. Do you know? Love is the most fragile thing. It dulls with time and a small conflict or a careless mistake can end a couple’s love as it once was..."

"Auntie, don’t be too pessimistic. I believe Uncle still has you in his heart. Maybe when he proposed divorce, it was just a moment of anger. He didn’t expect you would really leave him. He has always felt that no matter how hard he pushes you away, you would never leave because he trusts those lifetime vows for him alone!"

"Indeed, in my life, he’s been the only man in my heart, but that doesn’t mean I have to cling to him every time he pushes me away. Such a life is meaningless. In a marriage, what matters is trust in each other, not suspicion. Deep down, you understand that even couples with the strongest feelings for one another, if they lack trust and have only doubts, won’t make it to the end. Now I see things clearly. If he can treat me as if I don’t matter, then I have no reason to care about his feelings anymore. It does me no good and only adds to my sadness. I placed him at the center of my heart, but he so easily pushed me away. I truly don’t know how much I weigh in his heart anymore. I never wanted his money or for him to spend extravagantly on me. What I wanted was a bit more trust from him, not constant doubt. I gave him all my trust, but what about him? Do you know the saddest thing? When you give all your trust to the person you love the most, no matter how much they err or treat you, and your trust doesn’t diminish. But the person you love most doesn’t trust you at all, and in their eyes, if you make one mistake, you can never be a good person again. After I made a mistake and he stopped trusting me, I went out of my way to please him, to earn a bit more trust and end his doubts, but it didn’t happen. His distrust grew beyond my wildest imagination, more than I could believe from the man I loved the most. Child, remember that in a marriage, nothing is more important than trust, mutual understanding, and support. Without trust, it’s better not to live together because a marriage lacking trust won’t be happy. Now I regret it—how could I have been so foolish to give up so much for him, only for him to kick me to the curb, never wanting to see me again!"

"Auntie, Uncle does love you. Maybe you could reconsider?" Ran Zhihan said to Xia Jing.