My Alleged Husband

Chapter 327 - 307: Meticulous Care_1

"Yichen, I’ve had a puzzle in my heart, hidden for three whole years, and I’ve wanted to ask you about it, but I never knew how to articulate my question. Now I feel I must ask it to avoid any barriers between us in the future!" Ran Zhihan sighed and spoke to Zhang Yichen.

Zhang Yichen was unclear about what question Ran Zhihan wanted to ask him, and he was unsure if the news was good or bad. All he could do was listen to Ran Zhihan’s question: "Just ask me directly if you have any questions. We’ve now confirmed our romantic relationship, so there shouldn’t be anything we hide from each other. We should be open and honest with each other, so whatever it is, just say it. Is there really some secret we can’t talk about between us?"

"There isn’t a secret, I just never understood why after all these years you still stood by me unwaveringly, taking care of me. Could it really be because you love me?"

Zhang Yichen thought Ran Zhihan must be brain-damaged to ask such a ridiculous question!

"Oh my god! Are you stupid or what? If I didn’t love you, how could I possibly have stood by your side, through thick and thin, for three whole years? Do you have any idea how much agony it has been for me to watch you unemployed, while the memories of our past swirl in my mind? Do you know what kind of torment I felt inside? I wasn’t able to tell you directly about all the things from our past. I could only watch helplessly as you smiled innocently in front of me. Do you know how your smile stabbed at my heart? Seeing your naive, innocent smile, while I alone had to shoulder the burden of our memories, has been excruciating. You’ve forgotten everything, but I’ve always remembered. I regained my memories much faster than you, and for that reason, I’ve endured three more years of the pain of those memories. Those three years of torture were almost unbearable! Even now, when I think of the situation three years ago, I still feel a bit scared. Whenever I think back to those three years, my heart aches indescribably! When I heard you ask that question, I actually thought you were an idiot. How could you ask me such a boring question? If I’m not with you because I love you, then why am I with you? How can a grown woman like you not consider her words before she speaks? Such a foolish question and yet you still ask it—I really do admire you!"

"What? It’s just that I’m feeling bad inside and wanted some clarity. If you weren’t with me because you love me, then I would absolutely not go on living with you. I don’t want to be with a man who doesn’t love me through marriage and having children—that would be too painful. The happiness between us should be maintained by both of us. If one of us lies to the other, then our marriage will eventually crumble. Let’s not lie to each other in this lifetime, okay? Lies really do hurt the feelings between us!"

"Fool, I would never deceive you in my life because you are the woman I love the most..." Zhang Yichen said tenderly as he stroked Ran Zhihan’s head.

"Sometimes, I wish I never regained my memories, so I wouldn’t have to make any choices. Do you know how much I fear losing you, how much I dread being separated from you? I have grown so used to the days with you by my side that I don’t know how to go on without you. And yet, time sometimes forces a person to make choices. We’ve been together for so many years, and maybe in the next three years, we will each disappoint the other. What would I do alone if that day came? I so hope to always see you by my side. I don’t want you to leave me because the pain in my heart after you’re gone is unbearable. Sometimes I fantasize about what I would do if one day the man I love suddenly left me or did not want me anymore. Whenever I think about it, tears involuntarily start streaming down my face. I’ve even thought that maybe I would choose to say goodbye to the world the day I lose you, because living without you is so hard. I’m afraid that one day you will leave me—so before you leave me, I can only harden my heart and make the decision to leave you first. I can’t bear to see you walk away from me..."

"Are you an idiot? You’re beyond curing with your stupidity! After so many years of loving each other and searching so hard for a decade to be together, how could I ever give you up that easily? My love for you won’t change even if the sky falls or the earth shatters. You should trust me more and not constantly doubt our feelings. Feelings can’t withstand any doubts or lies. We need to protect our bond together! These past days I could feel your meticulous care for me, your persistent whispers in my ear, assuring me with your promises because you’re afraid of losing me. That fear comes from your heart—it’s not something you can fake. I believe you speak honestly. So no matter what you did or said before, I won’t blame you because you are the woman I love the most."

"My dear, once you’re discharged from the hospital, let’s get married officially. I don’t want our relationship to suffer any more setbacks, and I can’t endure them anymore!"

Zhang Yichen felt sure his ears were playing tricks on him—how could his woman suddenly talk about them getting married? This had never happened before!

"I must be hearing things. You’re actually proposing to me, when before, you would have rather died than marry me. Don’t you know that hearing you say that is like a cure for my illness? I fear so much that you’ll regret and go back on your word, not wanting to be with me. Being with you has been the happiest time of my life. Hearing those words from you is an unforgettable moment in my lifetime..."

"I’m sorry, I was too headstrong before to have caused you so much pain. Please forgive me. From today on, I will never leave you again, no matter what difficulties lie ahead. I will always be there with you, never leaving you to suffer alone. As long as you treat me well and comfort me, I am willing to be with you till our hair grows white with age."

Zhang Yichen hugged Ran Zhihan excitedly, only to have his wound start bleeding again!