My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1796 - 1590: Mind

I have never needed any reason, nor have I needed anyone to tell me what I should do. I have my own mind and thoughts; I know what I should do to make everything the way I want it the most.

Zhang Yichen genuinely doesn’t know what’s so good about his own mother. Why does his father love her so blindly, even knowing that the person his wife loves isn’t him? But she’s still willing to give everything for this person. What is all this for? He doesn’t even love his wife that much.

Zhang Zhentian doesn’t know what his son is thinking. He just knows that the only thing he can do now is to love his wife sincerely to move her, letting her know that actually he’s the man who loves her the most in the world, understanding that everything can change, and it’s not only by accepting the status quo that one finds harmony.

"I really don’t understand, what’s so good about that mother of mine? Why are you worthlessly in love with her? How has she treated you over the years? Do you really not know in your heart?

You have always been deceiving yourself, and yet you have successfully deceived yourself time and time again, living a life of self-deception for decades. Do you think your life is worthwhile?

You’re willing to give up everything for her, even the entire family, willing to discard the century-old reputation grandpa worked hard to build, even willing to give up your father’s century-old establishment for her.

In your eyes, besides her, what else is worth keeping? What do your actions make of all your relatives?

In your eyes, are we really so insignificant now?

Now you casually bring harm? Hurting your own relatives, what good does it do for you? In the end, you only push your loved ones further away, and those relatives who love you feel disappointed again and again because of your actions, eventually choosing to let you go. Your actions make every person who loves you very sad; why should they continue to love you unconditionally?

You’ve never thought about the consequences of your actions. You only know what kind of life you want, but do you know if the person you love doesn’t love you?"

"Child, you don’t understand, some things aren’t as simple as you think. I’ve shared decades of marriage with him, knowing much more than you do about what kind of person he is. You cannot make such judgments based only on her side of the story.

I thought, even if one day he truly doesn’t want to stay by my side and leaves to be with someone else, I would still happily bless her.

When the day comes that she wants to come back to me, I will still welcome her with open arms because she is the one I love the most. I can abandon all my boundaries for him because I love him; therefore, I can give up all my dignity. That is true love!

A person can give up all their principles, all their dignity, and let go of the most important things. If they don’t love that person, then why give up so much for them?"

Zhang Yichen feels his father’s love is too humble. For his mother, he’s willing to even give up his life. But why, in his mother’s eyes, is all of this merely a mistake? Why isn’t she willing to love his father a little more?

Having grown up so much, over the years, they haven’t paid any expenses for him, nor have they worried about him. Yet, in his mother’s eyes, why is it still not enough?

Are human hearts truly so hard to predict? Back then, he abandoned me for his so-called freedom, and now for his so-called love, he abandons the entire family. Time and time again, does he consider me his son?

The more Zhang Yichen thinks, the more upset he becomes. He simply cannot imagine what his mother truly considers him to be deep down. Throughout his life, he can accomplish so much, hoping only to stay by his parents’ side, but the outcome time and again leaves him too passively distraught.

"Do you know you love him so much, but he doesn’t love you? I’ve never seen anyone like you, loving others so humbly. Your love is too humble; in her eyes, she doesn’t feel your love for him.

In his eyes, there’s only her love. Back then, she chose to abandon me for her so-called freedom, and now she wants to abandon the whole family for her love. To him, all of this can be discarded; he simply cannot forget that person.

In his heart, all else is just a backdrop; he can disregard us all because in his eyes, we are not his family!

I truly don’t understand, why does he act so decisively, yet you choose to love him unconditionally? What reason can justify such reckless love for him, leading you to disregard us?

We are people too; we have souls. Time and again, we are hurt, enduring the heart-wrenching pain you’ve brought us, all for what? Just because you are my parents?

Does this mean you can recklessly hurt my sincere heart for you?

Enough is enough, why do you repeatedly test my patience? Is this truly beneficial for you? Do you genuinely want to push me to a dead end?"

Zhang Zhentian also knows that his love is too humble, and maybe it is precisely because his love is too humble that his wife remains indifferent, blind to his efforts, deaf to his words, making everything as awkward as it is now. If not for this, if he had a little masculinity, would everything not have happened, and would his wife’s view of him be different? Was it all because I was too weak?

"No matter if I’m humble, the heart with which I love him will never be humbled. My love is strong and steadfast, unshaken by anything. I believe one day he will appreciate my unwavering love for him..."

Whatever he gives me, whether good or bad, I am willing to accept it all.