My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1790 - 1584: True Heart

If there ever comes a day, I hope God can in His own way tell the woman I love the most that it’s not that I don’t love her; it’s that I love her so deeply, yet I still managed to lose her and let her leave my side.

"Grandpa, despite everything, no matter how many hurtful things my parents have done to you, you still have me. I’ve always stayed by your side and never given up on you. You’ve raised me; I won’t be ungrateful like my father. He’s my father, and I have no right to criticize him, but I often can’t stand what he does. Why does he hurt the family he loves so deeply? Why does he keep those who treat him poorly? I know things aren’t as simple as I imagine, but I still feel injustice for you. You gave up so much for him, and yet he treats you like this. I know you feel uneasy and imbalanced inside, but sometimes reality is just that cruel. Even though I know these things have nothing to do with me and there’s nothing I can do to change them, we must face them. Everyone goes through difficulties in life. They’ve gone through so much, but still haven’t figured out what truly matters. What right do they have to stay at home? Such parents mean nothing to me—they who can so easily discard me. Why should I care so much about them? I’m their biological son, and they can discard me at will. When I run, I shouldn’t care about their possessions or actions, even if it pains me and makes me tired!"

"You know that everything you say is for one reason, but many things aren’t forgotten by simply saying so. I raised him all these years. How could I just forget him, forget this bond? He’s my son, my family. How could I abandon him just because of what he’s done or said, or the hurt he’s caused? In my heart, he’ll always be my son, my child whom I painstakingly raised. His mother died giving birth to him; how could I just abandon him? You’re still young; there are many things you don’t understand. You don’t know the pain and torment in your grandpa’s heart. Many times, I don’t want to think about these things because they make me conflicted and pained. But what can I do? He’s my biological son, and I won’t abandon him. I want to bring him home, let him grow happily in my heart. So much time has passed, and perhaps he really hates me. I’ve repeatedly driven him from our home, and when he insists on coming back with a thick skin, I’ve repeatedly turned him away. For any child, it’s unimaginable pain when their own father won’t let them come home. What path is left for him?"

"But Grandpa, it’s his own doing, his own fault. He’s done countless wrongs in this lifetime, not just to you, but to my wife and son. Yet I’ve never spoken of it because he’s my father. I shouldn’t look at them this way. But have they thought that we’re a family? Do they think about how their actions devastate us? They’ve never thought about it. So why should we treat them as family? Isn’t that just making trouble for ourselves? In their eyes, our family may not matter. How many in the world act as selfishly as they do as parents? You know how deeply I’ve missed them all these years. For them, I’ve cried under the covers time and again. But while I cry and miss them at night, during the day, I face the world as if nothing’s wrong. They can easily live the life they want, running around for their freedom, happy with no thoughts about how worried or sad we are at home. Their reckless actions leave us nothing to consider. Let them face the consequences of what they insist on doing. No one can escape consequences forever; shouldn’t they learn to bear the outcomes? Not every mistake should be blamed on others while they make their escape. Surely, they know everyone must bear the consequences of their actions? Not everyone will protect them as you do, Grandpa, constantly loving and forgiving. No one will repeatedly forgive them for the same mistakes without remorse. They must bear responsibility for their errors. They can’t escape it! One escapes nothing by always dodging responsibility. If someone makes mistakes and only seeks to flee rather than courageously take responsibility, they’re only a coward. I refuse to regard such cowards as my parents. I can forgive any mistake, but not when they hurt the ones I love most. They’ve hurt those I love, and I can’t forgive them, especially you, Grandpa—how you’ve cared for me, sacrificed for me. How can I stand by while my parents hurt you over and over without being moved?"

"You know you’re Grandpa’s greatest pride, and I hope you understand never to let me down, no matter what happens. You’re the one I cherish the most. Your father has been so ungrateful that I can’t take more of it. I hope you’ll manage the family affairs well. Grandpa’s company was built with my sweat and toil. It’s my heart’s blood, and I hope you’ll manage it well. Never disappoint Grandpa!"

"I understand, Grandpa. I won’t let you down. I’m doing all this to prove to my parents that I’m the strongest person in the world. I’ll never let them look down on me. I want the world to know that I am the master of my destiny, the ruler of this world! I will never forgive those who look down on me, especially my grandfather’s parents who have hurt him..."

Perhaps he doesn’t even know that I’m still foolishly thinking of him, and perhaps in his eyes, he has already forgotten all of this.