My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1404 - 1210: I Don’t Hate You (5)

Sure, here is the translated text:

"Is it true that my sincere heart is not worth a glance in your eyes, Xia Jing? Sometimes I really don’t understand what kind of heart I need to give you for you to believe that I truly love you. Do I need to carve out my heart and show it to you?"

"For you, I am willing to pay any price, as long as you are happy. Did you know that once, just to make you smile, I paid a heavy price? To ensure you live a joyful life, I joined your Mercenary Group, gave up all my dad’s expectations of me, and even abandoned my family for you. But you, in the end, you treated me with lies time and time again, completely wounding me!"

Xia Jing was rendered speechless by Zhang Zhentian’s words; she knew every word he spoke was true. She had indeed been so selfish and self-centered. Given this, what right did she have, what qualification did she have to speak ill of him? Was she speaking as his wife, or from some other position? Xia Jing herself didn’t even know.

Always, Xia Jing felt that no matter what she did, in her husband’s eyes, she was perfect. Her husband wouldn’t abandon her because of the mistakes she made.

However, the final result was deeply disappointing to Xia Jing; her husband not only abandoned her because of his lies but also refused to reconcile with her. It was not until her desperate pleas were continuously rejected that she realized there was indeed no chance left between her and the man she loved the most.

Just when Xia Jing felt hopeless about her marriage, her husband came back to reconcile, leaving her heart a mix of sadness and joy. She didn’t know what to do. Gradually, she lost herself internally, uncertain about what decision was correct. She didn’t want to hurt the man she once loved dearly again. She knew how deeply her husband loved her, a love so profound that he couldn’t bear to see her suffer even the slightest. Yet she had hurt him repeatedly with lies.

"I am without argument against your words today, for every word is truth. I am indeed selfish, my selfishness far surpasses yours. It is my selfishness that has led us to where we are today!"

"Many things have passed. Can’t we let the past turn to dust and drift away with the wind? Why keep bringing them up? Does that really bring happiness for either of us? Is that really the joy we seek? Each of us has internal pursuits, doesn’t we?"

"I know my actions today were impulsive. I shouldn’t have come here in a rush to scold you. I shouldn’t have belittled you. Not rarely, I feel I’m not as good as you. I am not as considerate as you. I never think about the consequences of my actions. But you always care for me, and I never appreciate it, never understand it, rejecting your kindness again and again. I know you are hurt deeply inside. But sometimes, I have no choice; I am just such a person. You loving me was the biggest mistake of your life. You should not have loved me; you should not have married me or abandoned your family for someone like me. Perhaps this is what you regret the most?"

"No matter what you did or said, this lifetime I, Zhang Zhentian, have never regretted loving you. Whether I gave up my family for you or defied my parents for you, you are the best in my eyes, and I will never regret it. Marrying you is the greatest blessing of my life..."

"At that time, even your grandfather couldn’t foresee my mom getting involved; the matter concerning your grandmother became huge, but we couldn’t care for it in the end. Many times, we had missed the best opportunity to ask for each other’s forgiveness. We always force what others don’t want onto them, only to realize how absurdly wrong we were."