My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1385 - 1207: Having Someone Who Loves You Isn’t Easy

It’s not easy to have someone in this world who genuinely loves you. How could you hurt her like this?

Old Master Zhang now knows the household is in turmoil. He’s aware he hasn’t managed his family affairs well or brought peace to everyone at home. He truly feels embarrassed, yet there are some matters he has no way to resolve. All he can do is repeatedly make his son bow his head and admit wrongdoings. But even if his son does bow his head and admit faults, would that restore the harmony of this broken family relationship?

She used to naively believe that as long as her son and daughter-in-law returned to this house, it would not break. But now, she realizes it was all an illusion. In reality, everything is not that simple. Since they returned home, everything has changed. The house has become stormy, and she has no way to pretend these things haven’t happened or to disconnect them from her son.

She initially thought that as long as her son could return home and start anew, she wouldn’t mind anything. But is the current result truly a sincere attempt to correct all their mistakes? They never truly reflected on where they went wrong. Now, the family has become like this, and her son increasingly unpredictable. She herself has made the family turbulent. Sometimes, she doesn’t even know whether bringing them back was right or wrong. Is it wrong for her to hope for her kin’s return to the family fold? Why has everything turned abnormal since the family has come back together, with some falling ill and others hospitalized?

Zhang Zhentian understands what his father is thinking deep down, but some things he can’t say to his father. He knows he’s pushed his father’s limits again and again. Doing anything more or saying anything else might only increase his father’s resentment towards him.

"Dad, even if you don’t say it, I know what you are thinking. You place all the blame on me because you believe all of this is the result of my actions. But have you ever thought that the repeated outcomes might not be solely my doing? Have you ever considered what consequences your repeated actions have brought to the family?"

"You always think everything I do is wrong, and you think everything you do is right. Have you ever considered what your decisions have brought to the family? Is it just hurt again and again? Or do you feel that hurting every family member is a trivial matter and anyone can be hurt, believing the family won’t blame you. But what about us? Do you treat me as just a pawn? A pawn for hurting someone else’s wife, or to demonstrate your own benevolence?"

"From the moment you agreed to let us come back home, I knew things wouldn’t be that simple."

"How could a father who has always been rebellious change his mind, simply because of a few pleas from his son, and allow us back home, especially after we made so many mistakes? But now I realize, in your eyes, even if we’ve given everything, it’s insignificant. You don’t care about our deepest feelings. You just want to achieve your goals by any means, believing that your goals are more important than anyone’s happiness. Once your goals are met, even if you’ve hurt your kin, what does it matter? As if just an apology could erase every wrongdoing!"

"Look at what you’re saying. Do you even resemble my son anymore?"

"As a junior, is this how you speak to your father? Do you think your attitude is correct? Why do you never reflect on yourself? If it weren’t for your return, how would my grandson repeatedly interact with you and end up neglecting his wife, ultimately leading to the state she is in now? All the faults, you’ve chosen to dump on me."

"Am I, as the head of the household, just someone to take the blame and clean up the mess for you?"

"Everything should be based on evidence. With you treating me like this, I don’t know what I should do to make you understand everything I’ve done. No matter what I do, in your eyes, I’m always wrong as a father. But think back to when you confidently declared you would never step into the Zhang Family’s door again, even if you roamed or died outside. Why have you changed so much now? If you had the ability to wander outside all your life, why choose to come back?"

"If you think returning home means enduring my temper and find living here is so aggrieved, you can leave, I won’t stop you, because by keeping you here, I repeatedly hurt those I care about the most. I don’t have much time left."

"I don’t care how I die. I only care whether I can protect the peace of this family before I die, if I can make my grandson happy, or if I can return my granddaughter-in-law to her original self. It’s all my fault. Maybe I shouldn’t have allowed you to come back from the start. I’ve lowered my head to let you back, going along with what your son asked. But now? How have you repaid us all?"

"You hurt us again and again, claiming you’ll work tirelessly for the family, but have you really done that? No, because deep down, you can’t let go of your pride."

"Everyone has their pride. You’re a man, I understand your iron pride. But why do your actions contradict the responsibilities a man should bear?"

"You only chose the outcome of your actions at the time, but never thought about what the final result would mean for others. You’re always living so selfishly. Such a son, I might as well not have..."

Don’t expect forgiveness from others if you don’t cherish them.