My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1374 - 1197: First Encounter with Snow

I worked hard with my wife, we understood dreams, and we are actually both dream chasers with the same thoughts.

After Zhang Yichen thought about this, he realized the person he felt most sorry for was his father, for he had forcibly taken away the love his father should have received over the years. It turned out all of this was his own doing. He never considered how much loss his actions brought to his father. That love was never his; grandpa gave it all to him just because he forcibly kept his father from returning home. Grandpa mercilessly shut him out solely because Yichen disagreed. He made the home what it is now. Now, with what qualification or reason can he force them out again? Is this really the result a son should achieve? Having done all this, will he not have any recollection deep inside himself? What he seeks can’t be found, yet he repeatedly hurts those who love him most.

Zhang Zhentian didn’t understand what reason could cause his son to be lost in thought for so long. His son lived a hard life, never lamenting to others about what he desired most. He believed simply being alive was the greatest joy. He wanted to achieve everything he wished, regardless of means, even if it meant obtaining something through any means or destroying it so that no one else could have it. Yet seeing him now like this, it pained Zhentian’s heart as a father.

"Son, no matter what you’ve done, I’m your father, and I will forgive you, as long as you stop misunderstanding me repeatedly. You should trust me. Regardless, I’m a son too; I cannot bear to harm my own father. Even if over the years I haven’t been by his side and our relationship has grown distant, he is still my father. This is something I can’t change just by wanting to. I can’t abandon you again and again, and thus I will never harm him. You should have a bit of trust in your father when necessary, even if only a little, so this house doesn’t end up like this.

Child, deep inside, you know well that over the years we never intended to hurt you. You all seem paranoid, thinking we are scheming while living in this house, wondering who might harm you. But we are part of this family, your relatives. How could we bear to harm you? What benefit would it bring us to harm you? You never considered what loss or harm all of this would bring us. You should think about how we, as parents, feel. We are your parents, no matter what you say to us. We may not mind, but that doesn’t mean it won’t hurt us. I’m not a Saint; I have blood, flesh, and a soul. Facing doubt from my relatives time and again makes me feel sad inside."

Zhang Yichen understood that his father’s words were reasonable, but he couldn’t fully trust his parents. After all, everything they’ve done over the years is vivid in his memory, and he has no way to forget. If he could ever forget all the mistakes, perhaps he could truly accept them. Now allowing them to return to this home is already good enough, so why are they greedy for more of him and want him to continue accepting them? Isn’t that being forceful? Everything accepted needs an adaptation period. Without even the basic period of adaptation, how can he accept them, tell right from wrong, and know if they truly regret?

"Dad, I know, no matter what mistakes we’ve made, in your eyes, we are your children, and you won’t question us, but that doesn’t mean those things you did can be treated as if they never happened. Some things are painful and unforgettable. You never thought about how much harm you brought to us. I can’t easily forget this pain. Now grandpa is crying because of your words; that’s why I angrily came here to hold you accountable. I wasn’t doing it on purpose, but if you saw grandpa so sad now, could you bear it?

Everyone’s experiences are different, and the outcomes they face are different, too, but why does each time have to end this way? I know over the years the person I owe the most is not grandpa but myself. Because of me, grandpa concentrated all the love meant for you onto me, as if treating me well equates to treating you well because he believed I am your son and should bear the love meant for you. He sees me as you, but deep inside, the person who he truly needs isn’t me but you. No matter how many good words he says about me to outsiders or thinks highly of me, deep down, the person he needs and loves most is always you. That’s something no one can change.

The bond between father and son cannot be replaced by anyone.

If you feel deep inside you truly owe grandpa an apology, please go and apologize to him properly. As time passes, we will forget the past unhappiness and discomfort, but that doesn’t mean grandpa can. The pain he endures is more than anyone’s. What he desires is less than anyone’s. But what have we given him these years? He faces blows from everyone repeatedly and stays silent, bearing all the pain alone because he knows only by being strong can he protect those he wishes to protect.

I took away the love you should have received for so many years. It was my fault. I sincerely apologize to you. I never intended to harm any of you by what I did. I only hope for my grandpa to be happy and smiling at all times, which is the happiest thing for me because he gave me a second life. You should also understand this feeling; I’m repaying kindness. Anytime, anywhere, no one’s status can surpass the place he holds in my heart, for he is my grandpa, the master of my second life!"

I never blame anyone. I know what the most beautiful scenery truly is. In my eyes, the most beautiful scenery between my wife and me is an embrace.