My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1358 - 1182: Reluctance in the Heart

When leaves cover the ground, when the wind scatters everything, and all reluctance in the heart is extinguished, but all of this is too difficult.

Zhang Zhentian really doesn’t know how to tell his father, clearly these things aren’t that serious, but his father chose to complicate everything so much. If things could be simpler, wouldn’t it be different now? I really don’t understand, a simple matter, why it leads to disputes time and time again, each dispute only causes more severe harm to each other. Why doesn’t his father understand this logic yet?

"Big Denture, how many times do I have to explain to you? How many times do I have to say, I didn’t mean that at all, but you put all the blame on me again and again. Have you ever considered my feelings? What do you take me for? Am I really not capable of being soft-hearted or feeling pain?

I admit that I never considered your feelings when I did everything. But was I wrong for doing so? I just hope that we can be happy with each other, even just a little bit. But you blame all the wrong things on me, thinking it’s because I returned that brought so much trouble to the family, thinking it’s my appearance that turned my daughter-in-law into this state, thinking everything happened after I appeared. But have you ever considered how much my son longs for me as a father to return to his side? You are his grandfather; how could you not wish for me as a son to return? You repeatedly hide your thoughts, not letting anyone see what’s in your heart because you are afraid of losing me again one day; how could you bear it?

If you choose to evade me because of this reason and choose to drag me down, what am I supposed to do? No matter what I say or do, in your eyes, I won’t receive a good outcome. Everything I do is in the hope that everyone can live happily and joyfully, but you never thought about how difficult it is for me as a son.

Every mistake and decision my father made would make you hold a grudge against me, but do you understand? Everything I did wasn’t intentional; I just hope everyone at home can be nice to me, look at me as a member of the family. Was I wrong for doing this? Why has no one ever been willing to consider things from my perspective, how difficult things were for me at that time?"

"You say you were in a difficult position, but have you ever thought about where your decisions placed me? I am your father; I never hold grudges against what you say or do because I am an elder. I have no reason to hold grudges, and you were raised by me. If you can become the person you are now, it’s all due to my inadequate guidance; how can I blame others? But now, time and again, you use your so-called good intentions to hurt the people around you, hurt the relatives I care about the most. Do you think this is the right way to do things? Don’t you know you can’t hurt relatives randomly? How do you treat everyone at home as your true loved ones? You always think your decisions are correct, and you treat every word I say as a whisper in the wind, like you hear nothing. But you can’t do that!

Now your daughter-in-law is still lying in the hospital. Have you considered how tangled your son’s heart is? He longs for his family to return to his side, treating his family as the most important people time and time again. But you, what do you think you’re doing? You treat everyone at home as an object for use repeatedly, and you treat those who are sincerely to you as people you can hurt casually again and again. Do you think that by doing this, everyone will really treat you as family? By doing this, you only make everyone despise you more, dislike your actions even more.

My son, can you think things through a bit more when you do things? Consider everyone at home as more important, think about every family member’s feelings. We are not saints; after being hurt by you time and time again, we still choose to forgive you, just hoping you can be at peace. But you, what have you done? You treat everyone in the family as your object to hurt repeatedly, using everyone fully, ignoring your family repeatedly. Do your actions live up to the love every family member has given you?"

Xia Jing never expected that father and son would start arguing again over this matter. Is it really because of her presence that everything turned out this way? If she could really change from before, if she could really stay at this home forever, she would laugh even if she closed her eyes. But is this outcome really what you want now? Her husband and father-in-law argue again and again, and she can only watch helplessly from the side. How much of a failure does this feeling make her feel? Who can understand her sense of failure at this moment?

For her, she doesn’t ask for much now, just that family members stop arguing repeatedly over these things, this makes her feel too embarrassed. Everything she’s done, who is it really for? Isn’t it about hoping to stay safely at this home, but why must all the pain be piled on her? She just wants everyone to get along peacefully, why is it so difficult? Everything she does, is the decision wrong again?

"Zhentian, can’t you speak to dad in a more gentle tone? Why do you always have to shout loudly here? Does shouting mean you are justified? Why don’t you think about whether your decision will make your father embarrassed when you do things? Talking like you do now simply shows you don’t respect dad. Can we not argue anymore, please? Everyone came to this home just hoping to live peacefully, right?"

"You’re overthinking it; it’s not that serious!"

Zhang Yichen is hiding in the room, praying to the heavens, hoping his wife can return safely, but how difficult all this is.