My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1351 - 1177: Finally Understand

In the end, I finally realized how truly fortunate it is to have someone to love, but I had given up on too many chances for happiness before, and now I don’t even know the reason behind it all.

No matter what, Zhang Yichen hears his father say these words to his mother, and he needs to prepare himself. In the depths of his heart, he still feels a bit uncomfortable. Regardless, they are still his mother, his parents. Since they now know to return to this home, why should he be as stubborn as before, insisting on driving them out of the house, preventing them from ever coming back? Does he really need to be so unfeeling? If he isn’t an ordinary person, why should he bother arguing like ordinary people?

At any time, in any place, his heart ultimately cannot remain indifferent to his parents, no matter how deeply his parents have hurt him in the past.

All she wants is to keep her parents by her side, and now that they have come back, why should she be as aggressive as before, only to push herself into a painful abyss step by step?

Don’t think that by making others follow your sincere rules, you can live happily. In fact, it is the most painful for him because you don’t know if others are truly sincere or just pretending. Sometimes you aren’t afraid of others saving you; you’re more afraid of them harming you behind your back.

"Zhentian, you don’t know how grateful you should be to heaven, and I am just as thankful to the skies for giving me such an outstanding son who allowed me to return to this home amidst such choices. I truly don’t know how to thank the heavens for their grace!

But for the mistakes I have made, I must bear them myself. No one owes me anything, and every word I’ve said, I need to apologize for my promises.

I hurt innocent people, especially my innocent child. How kind and innocent he is, yet what kind of mother have I been to him?

In this world, truly, no mother can be as heartless as I am, hurting her son without realizing it, harming him time and time again, causing them such great pain?

Perhaps this is why no matter what, I cannot obtain forgiveness from my family for the mistakes I made, hurting so many people. Why should they forgive me, and what right do I have to ask for their forgiveness?"

When Zhang Zhentian hears his wife speak like this, he feels deeply uncomfortable inside, though he understands in his heart that many things are self-inflicted by them. But who is willing to acknowledge all their mistakes?

"Don’t say any more. We are not Saints.

As long as we are not Saints, who doesn’t make mistakes sometimes? Even if we have made many mistakes before, we now fully realize our wrongs, and have sincerely corrected our mistakes, so why must we repeatedly endure the injuries our past mistakes brought upon us, just because we erred before?

I know you feel deeply uncomfortable inside, but how can I feel well inside? He is also my child, my family, and they were hurt by us to this extent. It’s still vivid in my mind, fresh in my memory. Even if I can’t forgive myself, with them, I don’t ask for more forgiveness or understanding. I only hope they let me stay here.

Perhaps staying here can’t change any outcomes. If their hearts are really as hard as stones, how can we soften their hearts or could they ever forgive us? But the mistakes we made must ultimately be borne by ourselves. That is an ironclad truth. No one can change this truth."

Xia Jing really has no other thoughts now; she doesn’t dare to have other thoughts. She just wants to calmly accompany her family, but heaven seemingly won’t give them this chance.

"Alright, I don’t want to say anything now. The outcome is already destined. Even if I give everything, I can’t change anything, but to avoid future regrets, I will still proceed regardless, even if the result isn’t what I want."

Listening to his parents’ conversation, Zhang Yichen’s heart is in turmoil. His mother is such a proud person, yet she is willing to make such sacrifices just to come back and stay by his side. Has he, as a son, really gone a bit too far? Why isn’t he sincerely pleading for his parents to come back at this moment? Just a single sentence would relieve them of so much effort and pain, bringing everything back to how it should be at home. Why is he doing nothing and not helping?

But he himself doesn’t know either. He harbors many difficulties in his heart. Right now, he’s deeply conflicted. Ultimately, his parents hurt him, abandoned him. But since he decided to have them return, shouldn’t he then genuinely forgive them, to let them stay without any further pain or suffering?

Clearly, it’s just a simple sentence, but why is it so hard for him to speak it? Is it truly so difficult to utter those words? If spoken, everything could be relieved.

"Dad, don’t say anything more. During your entire conversation, I was standing outside the door, listening. Actually, your words touched me deeply. I always thought your return was like Grandpa’s, simply to come back to the family, hence saying those words that forced us to forgive you. But in the depths of your hearts, you truly don’t grasp where you were wrong. Now, hearing your words, I genuinely understand how utterly wrong you knew yourselves to be.

Rest assured, since I chose to let you come back before, now I will absolutely not let such a situation happen again. Just stay here peacefully and never think about leaving again. If you do plan to leave, once you’re gone, never come back for a lifetime.

Returning just to leave again only inflicts harm upon us again and again. You are my parents; and since you already recognized your mistakes, you have obtained our forgiveness. We merely wished that you truly realized where you were wrong!

Perhaps you feel that this gets you hurt, but there’s really no other choice."

"Mom and Dad, I have given all my tenderness to the woman I love most. Now, as long as she comes back, I am willing to leave with her forever and never return."