My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1331 - 1160: Who Isn’t Tired?

If one truly doesn’t love another, then they absolutely shouldn’t be together, because that would make everyone very tired.

When I was in my happiest, most blissful times, I missed out on everything I had. I truly want to ask my parents if they seriously felt my love for them. Why did they let the scenery of the past become burdens?

Loneliness is a dispersion in the mundane world, but no matter how beautiful a memory is, it can’t withstand sorrow!

Zhang Zhentian, though he felt living like this was somewhat tiring, sometimes felt he too had no way to make any choices. This was the path he resolutely chose back then. Now that he has chosen to walk this road, what right does he have, what reason, to resent others for the harm brought upon him?

"Dad, no matter how tiring it is, this was once my decision. Since I chose this path, I will walk it step by step, no matter how arduous the path ahead is. I will rely on my own efforts to eventually reach the end. Don’t think I can’t continue living; you should believe in me. I can do it, I will make it to the end, and I won’t give up lightly."

Old Master Zhang knew from the beginning that his son was stubborn, but he never imagined that his son could be so obstinate in the decisions he made.

If it were a few years ago, he might have felt proud of his son’s decisions, but now, time has passed, and many things couldn’t end as he once wanted. He had no way to let everything develop as he imagined. Now, maybe the only thing he could do was keep his child safe and sound by his side. But as a father, how could he let his child for a lifetime have only this family in his heart, without any other aspirations?

He also knew the thoughts deep in his heart weren’t an easy matter. The mistakes he made in the past must bear the consequences. No one could shield him from the wind and rain indefinitely. He had made too many mistakes to be understood or forgiven by anyone.

He didn’t want much, just that his family could live peacefully, hoping for a safe and sound happy life.

The family ultimately experienced too much pain and tears. He had no way to pretend all the past mistakes hadn’t happened. He had been punished, but why was he still worrying for his child as a father? Could it be that parents eternally only worry for their children, giving up their own happiness?

"Child, I know what you did in the past might seem painful and unpleasant to you, but to me as a father, no matter how many mistakes I let you see, I will forgive you unconditionally because you are my son. I’ve told you this not just once, but many times, yet you never took it seriously!

Just how bad a father must I be for you, as my son, to take everything on yourself time and again?

Do you actually believe deep down that I’m an irresponsible father? I’ve thought about it and found it very painful. I just want you to come back to me, but these years, you haven’t been with me. As a father, I shouldn’t resent you, but I’m really unwilling. Why should my child, whom I raised with difficulty, treat me like this? Was I not good to you? Or did I not fulfill my responsibilities as a father?

Perhaps you feel you’ve already obtained what you want, living satisfied and happy, but I can’t forget the pain you brought every member of this family.

That pain can’t be forgotten. Only I know how much hurt everyone felt, how many tears flowed, how many times they cried in secret. You’ve never experienced those feelings, so you can’t comprehend the piercing pain.

I know you genuinely want to return to this home, but the past mistakes can’t just dissipate. I can’t do that.

Child, your return is already a joyful thing for me. I’m not that greedy. Whatever you feel, I hope you remember, I’m your father!"

Zhang Zhentian never thought his father would view him like this. Just how bad a son was he for his father to think of him this way? The mistakes he made have cost him repeatedly. He is now trying his best to make up for his past mistakes, but why is his father still reluctant to face him directly, always suspecting his return has ulterior motives?

Only then did he realize how terrible it feels to be unjustly doubted. He had suspected others before and wondered how painful it was for that person. When he suspected his wife, how despairing must she have felt? He began to think about the hurt he caused others in the past. Can these hurts be obliterated just by his return and promises of compensation?

"Dad, it doesn’t matter if you think I have ulterior motives coming back, but I have no regrets. The mistakes I’ve made, I have to take responsibility for. What I’m doing at home might look tiring to you, but so what? I must see through the path I chose. If I quit halfway, would I still be your son? You once dedicated everything to your company, even risking everything to leave me a way out, but I wasted it, cutting off all the roads you kept open for me. I walked a dead-end myself, choosing to come home only when there was no way back.

I know I’m not a good son. I know I hurt and upset you, but I can promise this time I’m genuinely intent on living in this family. I have no other motives, no other ideas; living here is my happiness. Unfortunately, I realized it too late, regretting my past choices!"

But so what if I regret it? Who can I blame for the mistakes I’ve made? No one denied me chances; it was me who gave up everything!

At that moment, I finally realized I became the loneliest person in this world, but the longing took root in my heart, and no amount of deep affection could stop me from being cruel to myself. Yet my love could never make him turn back.