novelraw Chapter 1326 - 1155: Growing Mature
Chapter 1326 - 1155: Growing Mature
"Mom and Dad, I once thought about what kind of attitude made my wife so fearful, and I also thought about what kind of reason made her not want to stay by my side, wanting to escape far away from me.
I remember when that man found her, every word he said made my wife look so terrible, my wife was so scared she had no way out. In the end, I chose to conceal it. I know that during that time, there were problems in my relationship with her, but I still tried my best to make amends."
That day I heard...
"Yes, indeed you have become very mature now, and it’s because you’ve become so mature that it makes me fearful. Why, why did you have to become so mature?
If you hadn’t matured, how could I have lost all my chances? Yet there is never a place for me in your heart. I really don’t understand. Am I really so insignificant in your heart?
Why can I never reach the depths of your heart? I really want to open your heart to see if there is a place for me, but I cannot. I want you to live happily, not to have your happiness and peace ruined by my presence!
Zihan, promise me no matter what, you must live happily. No matter what troubles you encounter, at least tell me. If you consider me a friend, don’t be polite with me. If you need help, I will do my best to help you. If one day you truly live with him, don’t forget there’s always someone standing behind you, quietly waiting for you.
Although this relationship failed, I can’t immediately find another girl to live with. I’m not that kind of fickle man. I remain faithful to my feelings. Since I have chosen you, I will definitely live well with you. Please don’t despise me.
I didn’t know your relationship with your husband has always been good. Perhaps it’s because of my involvement that it has become like this. I sincerely apologize to you for this. I didn’t intend to destroy your relationship. I really couldn’t control my inner feelings. I just wanted to embrace the woman I love most dearly. But in the end, this is the result, causing so much conflict between you two. It’s my fault, and I sincerely apologize to you two and hope you can forgive me."
"Chen Gang, don’t say that. This matter is not just your fault, in fact, I have my faults. I shouldn’t have chosen to doubt you, I shouldn’t have chosen to hurt you in this way. To you, this is probably the deepest pain, right? Clearly, the girl you love is right in front of you, yet you cannot embrace her. That feeling must be very frustrating for you.
But I really can’t act against my values. I can’t go against my principles. Since I’ve chosen to live eternally with my husband, then I can only have him as my man in this life. I absolutely cannot entangle with another man.
You shouldn’t apologize to me, the person who should really apologize is me. It’s me who made you wait for so many years in vain, while I was in the dark, not knowing you were waiting for me. I’m sorry, it’s me who can’t give you a complete affection, it’s me who can’t give you a complete family. It’s my mistake, causing you to waste so many years of your youth. They say a woman’s youth is precious, but isn’t a man’s youth just as precious? Because of me, you’ve given all your youth. Don’t give up all your time waiting for me, live well!
Make good plans for your future, for your great achievements. Strive hard, find your true destiny, let her accompany you for a lifetime, and hope she can assist you in your career. Thank you..."
Zhang Yichen suddenly heard Chen Gang say to himself that he is giving up on his innermost thoughts, and why suddenly there was a bit of reluctance for him to give up like this. She always felt that having someone here to compete for being her wife seemed good, so that she could always have something to do, someone to argue with every day, just to prove who loves their wife more.
"Are you really planning to give up now? Are you really willing to exit, are you really willing to never disrupt the life between me and my wife again? Do you think you can bear it? She is such a perfect girl, you’ve known her for so many years, do you think you can let go sincerely?"
"What difference does it make if I can let go or not? I remember your wife told me a phrase - if it’s destined, it will come; if it’s not, it won’t. There are so many beauties in the world, but do not become an infatuated fool who tries to force it.
You should be very aware of the meaning of this phrase, right? Since she has spoken this way, what can I do? I am powerless.
I have never failed so terribly in this life. What I wanted I never failed to obtain, but this time I finally understand, there are things in this world that I can’t have, like your wife, the girl I love the most, even if I gave everything, she still doesn’t want to live with me. I know from this point on, I’ve lost to you because the girl I love doesn’t want to be with me. But do you know?
I wish that time could turn back, going back to a few years ago. At that time, if I had sincerely expressed my feelings to her, would today’s tragedy have been avoided?
Sometimes I don’t know whether to hate you or thank you. I always feel that because of your appearance I lost the girl I love most, but on the other hand, you took such good care of her, cared for her in every possible way, and that deeply moved me. My own heart is very conflicted. I don’t know what kind of attitude I should take towards you. I don’t know how to describe this attitude. But do you know? I just want you to treat her well, and not to hurt her kind heart, she can’t bear such hurt."
"Of course, I know how to cherish my wife, no need for you, an outsider, to teach me. Remember you’ve already admitted you’ve lost everything, lost the qualification. Even if in the future, there’s something you want, you can tell me, but you cannot come to find my wife, because I will completely cut off any tie between you and her, I won’t let you two have any opportunity to meet.
But thank you, because of your presence. Although I quarreled a lot with her, I also have to admit, because of you, I realized how much my wife cares about me and our family. Rest assured, as long as you leave here peacefully, return to where you truly belong, I will definitely treat her well and won’t let you down, no matter what her intelligence is, she is still my wife. How can I bear to see her in extreme sorrow, don’t you agree?"
Chen Gang smiled, since he has already lost, lost so thoroughly, why continue forcing himself? It’s time to leave happily, without any attachments.
"I am grateful for my wife’s loyalty to me, and I believe my wife truly loves me, loves this family, and won’t do anything to embarrass me!
The only wish I have now is for her to return to my side, let her appear before me, and don’t let me search the world for her, only to find no result at all!"