My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1323 - 1152: If It Were You, What Would You Choose?

Old Master Zhang knew that in his grandson’s eyes, no matter how big a mistake he made, as long as he was willing to turn back, ultimately they would still wait for him. But was this really what he wanted?

In fact, this wasn’t the kind of life he wanted. The life he longed for should have been richer, more vibrant. Brain vitality, losing everything that was so-called, in their eyes, what kind of ending is this after all?

"Dad, since you’ve said it to this extent, I want to ask you, if the one who was kicked out of the house was you, if the person who has been rejected all these years was you, do you think you would still come back to this family now?

Is it just because you repented a few words to me, just because you didn’t understand at the time and didn’t grasp my inner thoughts, that I must listen to all your arrangements?

I’m also human, I have my own thoughts, my own soul, I know what I’m doing, I don’t need to follow the life path arranged by others step by step. Wouldn’t that make me a puppet of others? I don’t want to be a puppet, do you understand?

If it hadn’t been for your desire to control my life and arrange everything for me, how could I have resisted you in this way? If I hadn’t chosen this way to resist you, how could I have been kicked out of the house, left out in the cold for so many years? Do you understand how much I’ve longed to return home?

You never knew what I wanted, because you never figured out what you want. All these years, no matter how much I missed you, even when I shamelessly came back home begging you to let me stay, but you, how did you respond to me? Heartlessly turning me away, with words that pierced my soul?

Just like you said yourself, if a human heart is hurt for too long, then it dies. Without a heart, do you think it will still be moved or beat for someone else?

Actually, it won’t. Just like I am now, my heart has died after you turned me away time and time again. I won’t be moved by any changes you make, nor will I feel comfort or happiness from any warm words you say. My life’s path to this point is all thanks to you. You’ve never thought about what I wanted; you’ve always imposed everything you want onto others. You always think that everything you desire is what others want too. But have you ever truly understood others?

Do you know what others are thinking inside?

In fact, you haven’t tried to understand what others want. You’re always so presumptuous, wanting to control others’ lives. Because of this, I’m now so disheartened that I won’t return to this home. I’m afraid that if I come back, you’ll find a way to control my life again. I don’t know if you’ve really figured it out, or if you’re just trying to get me home to continue manipulating my life with other means. Do you understand?"

Old Master Zhang really didn’t expect to hear these words from his son. He truly felt the words pierced his heart!

This was his own flesh and blood son. How could he say such heartless things to him? Did his own biological father really mean so little to him?

Is what he wanted so driven by greed in his son’s eyes?

In truth, he wasn’t that kind of person. He just wanted her to live a carefree life, so that his son would never lack the Cross Halberds. He had built his fortune from scratch, enduring hardship step by step until he had a rich life. He was afraid his son would experience the same hardships he had, which was why he made such decisions. But it seemed, in his family’s eyes, those decisions would never be forgiven.

Because he had no way to share those hardships with them. He had to bear them alone. How could he ask his beloved family to shoulder these burdens with him?

"Zhentian, do you know? The things you said to your father today, every word pierced my heart!

Saying such things today proves that you no longer see me as your father in your heart. I know in the past it was my fault. I shouldn’t have presumptuously tried to control your life. But so many years have passed. I truly understand now, it’s not a ploy to trick you back into letting me control your life again. Can’t you trust your father just this once?

I’ve said you can bring your wife home. If I still wanted to control your life, how could I let you bring your wife home? Wouldn’t I have just urged you to cut off ties cleanly?

I hope you won’t judge every decision I make now by the mistakes I made before. I know perhaps in your eyes, those mistakes can never be forgiven. But can’t you forgive your father for being confused at the time?

Now I understand, you always wanted not power or desire. You just wanted your own freedom. You only wanted the rights you should have. Because you didn’t want me to block your life, I hope you can come back to me, to stop saying such piercing words to your father!"

Old Master Zhang was now speaking to his son with a pleading tone. He truly had no other way. He couldn’t make his son let go of his prejudices. He just wanted his son to understand that things weren’t as he thought they were. His heart wasn’t so malicious; it was just that he hadn’t understood the relationship clearly back then. Now that he did understand, couldn’t he ask him to return to him?

How could a descendant let an elder plead with them? But Old Master Zhang was truly using a pleading tone with his son. He knew the harm he caused to his own son might be indescribable with words. He couldn’t truly feel what kind of harm it was, but he understood he had truly hurt his son’s heart. Maybe only letting him accomplish his own things would let him understand that his father truly understood and wouldn’t interfere with his life anymore. But when will that day come?

Old Master Zhang at times doubted himself, wondering if he would still have the chance to wait for that day, the day his son would return home, the day his family would reunite, the day he could have a great-grandson.

"Sometimes I really want to ask you all, if it were you, what choice would you make? Why do you treat me this way?"