My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1245 - 1074: Whereabouts

I have been afraid of losing the people I care about the most, and I have also lost those I least wanted to lose because of my own actions.

Zhang Yichen searched the world over for traces of Ran Zhihan, but even though he combed the entire world, it was as if she had vanished into thin air and never appeared in his life again. Now, he is terribly afraid. He fears even the slightest hint of surprise, unable to bear the pain of losing her. Having been abandoned time and again before, must he face such a decision once more now? Why is it always so difficult for him? Why must his life always be filled with thorns?

All he ever wanted was to live a happy life, but why has everything he longed for ultimately deceived him, the path he most desired? What exactly did he do wrong?

"Mom, tell me, what did I ever do wrong in this lifetime? Why, after you all hurt me, does my wife also strike me this way? Now, I don’t want my career, nor the happiness I used to desire the most. I only wish for her to come back to my side because I know she is the woman destined to be my greatest love in life. I can no longer abandon her without hesitation like I did before. I made so many mistakes, just like you and Dad, but now I know I was wrong. Why is it that when I finally realize my mistakes, there is no way to make amends?

Look at us now—what have we become? Her heart has no place for me anymore, and I no longer know how to find her. In this vast sea of people, I have no idea where she could be. All I can do is foolishly hope to meet her again one day. Regardless of what she is like at that moment, whether she still remembers me, I will have no regrets, as long as I can see her safe and sound.

She is now the most important person to me in this lifetime. She endured excruciating pain that no one else might bear, just to give us our child. How could I be so heartless and cruel, leaving her to suffer all alone, while I remain unnoticed here?

Grandfather, do you think it’s because I hurt her that she doesn’t want to come back to me anymore? Is it for this reason that she chose to treat me this way? I regret it. I regret that I didn’t keep her by my side then. I regret giving her the pain she never wanted to bear. Why was I so ruthless? Why did I never consider her feelings, how difficult her life was in her eyes, how every step she took to reach today was so not easy? All the while she sacrificed everything for me, I ignored all her efforts. I am the biggest fool in this world, the most heartless man, for hurting a wife who gave everything for me.

Time can never turn back. I wish time could, but is that even possible? Even if I had the power to reshape worlds, I wouldn’t make time rewind!"

Old Master Zhang could see how regretful Zhang Yichen was. In his heart, what he wants most now is the safety of his family. But all that is too difficult for him, as his family has long departed. This once complete family has already fallen apart, and now everything is merely an inner fantasy. He wishes deeply that it were just a dream, never to wake up so he wouldn’t have to live such a hard life or step by step make it to such a difficult place. If time could turn back, how could he have made such impetuous decisions, making his life so weary?

On the nights when I think of you, I cried helplessly, feeling so lonely waiting alone at our agreed-upon place.

In his eyes, everything he does now isn’t wrong, but the biggest mistake is losing the woman he should have cherished the most. Perhaps, to him, that’s the biggest loss of his life. If he could choose again, he would give up everything to stay by her side and never leave her, believing she left using such a way because she really couldn’t stay with him anymore. If responsibility could be assigned for each decision he makes, what kind of responsibility must he bear to compensate for everything he’s lost? Every step he takes now is like walking on thin ice.

How deeply he wishes time could turn back, so he wouldn’t live in such anxiety and wouldn’t have to constantly worry about losing something, unable to withstand experiencing the agony of losing and regaining again.

"Child, you must understand that wherever and whenever you are, you’re not alone; you have us, your family. No matter where, as long as you need us, as long as you say the word, we as family would go through fire and water for you, without hesitation. You should know that in your eyes, all family members are the same because, in your view, everyone’s equal. But do you know? In my eyes, you’re more important than anyone else because you’re the child I painstakingly raised. I put all my love into you and won’t watch anyone ruin you, nor will I watch you fall into despair step by step, turning everything into this mess.

Can time really turn back? If somehow it could, you wouldn’t be in pain now, right? I also hope time could turn back, so that back then, I wouldn’t choose to send you down this path of no return, nor would I make you endure pain, nor would I let you undergo training like golden devils.

Even if you don’t resent everyone in the world, you should resent me, your grandfather. It’s my fault you became this way. Your heart and ruthlessness now are all due to my training. As you know, I passed all my skills onto you, and you don’t want anyone in our home to get hurt, which is why you’ve become so numb. It all started because of me and should end because of me."

"Grandfather, no matter what, I won’t give up searching for her, nor will I give up on anyone in this family. Trust me, I believe I can do it..."

Trust is the most important thing between two people!