novelraw Chapter 1215 - 1045: Speed
Chapter 1215 - 1045: Speed
"Sometimes I can clearly understand that some love comes quickly and goes quickly. Maybe deep in your heart you’ve invested all your emotions in him, but in the end, you lose that feeling of gain and loss. Sometimes that feeling can drive a person crazy!"
Zhang Yichen knew that for his son to make such concessions was already not easy. After all, his son had never compromised before. Perhaps this time, his son was genuinely anxious, afraid that something might happen to his mother.
Anyone would not want their family to suffer any accidents, even if their family is not on good terms, or continually hurts them without patience. But you still hope they can be happy, that they can find happiness. After all, family happiness is true happiness. If family members can’t be happy, what is the point? What is everything you do for? Sometimes, I can’t even figure out whether every decision I make is right or wrong.
"Son, actually, Dad knows that when you say these words today, deep down inside you’re not feeling good. I also know you’re blaming me, blaming me for not taking good care of your mom. But some accidents aren’t something Dad wanted to happen. Do you think Dad doesn’t want your mom to live peacefully? Do you think I don’t want her to smile happily every day? Just seeing her bright smile makes me feel at ease deep down. I’m proud because I can make my wife happy with what I do."
"Each of us has walked our own path, filled with thorns, yet we continue walking, never thinking of giving up."
But who would have thought things would turn into what they are now? This result has already gone far beyond our control, and I have no way to let this continue happening. What I want is very little; as long as I can have it, as long as my family can be happy and content, I can smile even if I have to work a bit harder. How hard my days are, who among you has ever felt my feelings?
What is everything I’m doing for? Have any of you ever thought about it? You always think your ideas are right, but you ignore everything else. You think everything you want is the most perfect, but where have you put me? What do you take me for? I’m not a money-making tool.
Although I care about money, my desire for money is only to make my family’s life better and easier. If you think my intention to make money has ulterior motives, then you’re completely wrong. I’m not that kind of person. I just want to live more peacefully, to live without guilt. I just want every family member not to struggle so hard. I’m willing to bear all the pain and sweat on my own, to endure all the suffering, so my family can live securely. None of you have ever truly understood my pain and intentions; what should this make me feel deep inside?
A child has said many times that things require empathy, and I hope you can consider things from my perspective as a father. I also have my difficulties and unspeakable struggles. Do you really think I want to live like this? I’m just forced with no way out!
Step by step, I’ve been pushed to where I am today, not a result anyone wanted to see. Ask yourself honestly, is this really the outcome you wanted? How exhausted I am now, does any of you understand what it’s like? Every day, I deal with company matters, worry about your feelings, and think about how to care for my wife and family. I’ve already stretched myself thin, yet none of you have ever considered things from my perspective. How tired and painful I truly am!"
Zhang Ni knew that his father had been living very painfully and tiredly during this time. But as a younger generation, there are indeed some things he couldn’t help with. He couldn’t bear seeing his mother struggle so much. He just wished for his mother to regain her past laughter, even if just to have a normal chat with him. To him, that would be the warmest and happiest thing. In the past, his mother always nagged at him. Back then, he didn’t understand the need to consider his mother’s feelings. Now, seeing his mother in this state, he couldn’t possibly be unaffected. He deeply regrets everything he did and said to his mother, not considering her feelings, and always opposing her, leading to this regretful state. Everything seems to be a vicious cycle of cause and effect.
"Dad, I know what you’re doing is for the family. I also know you’ve sacrificed a lot, but some matters I hope you could consider from different perspectives. Do you think what you’ve done today is really good? Do you think doing these things today is truly beneficial for everyone in the family? Now that Mom is lying here, lost and unrecognizable, can you still mind your company’s affairs? You earn money so that everyone in the family can live happily, easily, and freely. Yet in doing so, you’ve neglected the most loyal companionship to your family. If a family doesn’t even have basic companionship, is it still a family?"
I know you’ve wished for years for Grandpa and Grandma to return home. You’ve hoped year after year, often muttering to yourself, wanting them back despite the hurt they brought you. You still hope they’ll return, even if they would eventually leave you again. You’re willing to pay any price because you know you need a family, a bit of affection from your parents. But knowing this, why can’t you be considerate of my mom’s feelings? Doesn’t she need affection from her husband? Her parents moved abroad after your marriage, what more do you want from her? She can’t even meet her parents now, and it’s all for your parents. Do you think you’re being fair to my maternal grandparents?
Perhaps today, saying all this to you, you’ll think I’m being disrespectful. But what else can I do? Some things have been pent up in my heart for so long. I’ve never intended to speak out like this, especially not in this situation. But today, I’ve truly reached my breaking point!"
Perhaps everyone has a different way of choosing paths, and the outcomes are different too. Now, who truly understands how rapidly their past love came and how swiftly it went?