My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1213 - 1043: Life

No one has ever thought about what kind of ending they really want. They always feel that giving each other the things they give is the most perfect, but they never ask the other party if they really want such a life. That kind of self is too terrifying!

It seems I really should find a time to talk things over with Zhang Yichen, otherwise, if it really ruins the relationship between the two of them, that would be really bad.

In the end, people can only choose to live...

After all, I never truly wanted the woman I love to live unhappily!

That wasn’t my original intention...

Chen Gang thought about it, now things are getting worse and worse. If I don’t step up to clarify the truth, then I will absolutely feel guilty for life, because I harmed the woman I love the most, no matter what she did wrong, or whether she ever felt moved because of me. But since my heart loves her, I should give everything for her at all costs. If I truly hurt the life she could have been happy with, wouldn’t I be the culprit? As the saying goes, better demolish ten temples than break one marriage. How can I be so cruel to hurt the woman I love the most?

Ran Zhihan doesn’t actually know Chen Gang’s real thoughts now. He only knows that he is in pain, for his actions have truly hurt a family that could have been happy. Because he was momentarily confused, he believed what he shouldn’t have believed, leading to the demise of his marriage. He has no way to return to the way he was before, and has become so numb, so unbearable. He never thought he would encounter such a thing in his life. What he truly wanted wasn’t much, just for his family to be well, but things have gotten so troublesome, and maybe in the end, he really doesn’t have the ability to protect his family.

"Zhihan, I think there are some things we still should lay bare and talk thoroughly. Why ruin our friendship over unpleasant things? Actually, you should know that when I said I truly like you, I was never deceiving you. It’s really hard for me to be moved by a girl, but you broke that for me, because my heart beats every moment I see you. Sometimes I don’t even know what’s there in me that chose to feel heartache for you. To be honest, many girls have pursued me before, but I cruelly rejected them all because I felt I should be with the girl I love no matter what. I shouldn’t betray my true feelings.

Maybe it’s because of this thought that I’ve brought so much disgrace and trouble to your family, making you never able to hold your head high in front of your husband. But I hope you understand that I did all this truly out of love for you. This heart that loves you will never change. If one day, you get wronged by your husband, or you can’t go on with him and want to leave him and fly away, then please come to me. My arms are always open for you, I am always waiting for you to live with me. I don’t care if you were once married to your husband and had children. I don’t care if you can ultimately be with me or not, whether you’ll make the right decision.

Actually, I am not that wicked. I would do anything for the woman I love, but it’s a pity that in your eyes, you can’t see my sacrifices because your heart is filled with your husband, your children, and your family, including your relatives. Except, there’s no place for me. Your heart is so full of people from all over the world, yet I find no existence there, because my existence makes you feel like a disgrace, because I’ve cast a thick layer of shame over you.

But I really hope you can give me another chance, let us truly become the best of friends. Trust me, I will do everything to be good to you, I will protect you at all costs, I won’t let you get hurt. You can see me as your brother, but I can never see you as a sister because I will always love you, no matter where or when. Whenever I think of you, even if my heart is in pain, it also brings me joy because you’re my marshmallow. It’s you who made me realize there are many things in the world I shouldn’t possess, so I shouldn’t force them. You made me understand everything. Thank you!"

Ran Zhihan suddenly faced with Chen Gang’s sudden conversation, didn’t understand what Chen Gang really meant. Was he now going to reorient himself and not pursue her relentlessly, does this mean he’s really going to let go and not disturb her happy life anymore? But what should she do? Knowing full well that his actions were all because of her, yet she ended up hurting two people, she didn’t mean to do so intentionally. But love wasn’t something she could control, what she wanted to do or not, maybe this would bring displeasure to others, but she needed to protect the man she loved most in her heart.

"Chen Gang, what do you mean?"

"Yes, just like what you’re thinking. I have now decided to let go, I won’t disturb your happy life anymore. I will also go to your husband and explain clearly that all this is nothing but a meticulous setup, and you haven’t done anything wrong. You never intended to betray your husband and be with me. Maybe as a man, because of my presence, his self-esteem got hurt, or because of my presence he felt threatened. So he tried in all ways to deal with me, but I am not afraid. Yet I am kind of glad at least I can stand upright in front of her and compete fairly, my once most beloved girl. Maybe in the end, you will still choose him without hesitation, but I won’t regret it. After all, I have been through it, and the outcome isn’t something my effort alone can obtain. I understand what this represents, but my heart no longer feels the pain as before!

But I’m still in love with you now. I’m not sure how much time I’ll need to forget you, but I can only tell you, maybe I’ll never be able to forget you in this lifetime. I will harbor you deeply in my heart forever, whether I marry or have children in the future, you always reside in my heart. This may be unfair to others, but how can I do it so easily, having waited for you all these years, ultimately not being able to have your unforgettable love, making it unforgettable for the rest of my life!"

Life is like this, which can make a person happily silly because of an event, and can affect others, making them lonely because of a thing. Who knows what kind of risks they may face in the future?