My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1210 - 1040: Sorry for Hurting You, Sorry for Letting You Down

"Mom and Dad, some things, no matter how much time has passed, remain an unfading pain deep inside of me. I may never forget them, even until the day I die. You might think it’s insignificant and trivial, but in my heart, it’s not."

"Yichen, deep down I know I was wrong too, and it did indeed bring you a significant blow. But do you know how much guilt and regret I felt after this happened? I regretted believing him and drinking with him, thinking he was a decent man who wouldn’t overstep boundaries. But I didn’t control the situation well enough, and he took advantage of it. It’s my mistake. If you blame me, I have nothing to say, but please understand my position. Consider my perspective. If it were you, how could you be indifferent? If you watched your husband mock you coldly, without even a glance, would your heart be at ease?

You said you’ve been living in pain, but what about me? Am I not also living in pain? In fact, my pain is no less than yours. On the contrary, I suffer more. I have to face my guilt, self-blame, face you, the man I love most, and yet I can’t say anything, because if I explain, things will only get worse. I don’t want such things to happen. All I want is to be with you. Why don’t you understand my sincere intentions?"

No matter whether you believe what I say today, at least trust that I truly love you. I don’t know how to express this to you, but do you understand how much it matters to me to spend a lifetime with you? I’m a woman, not a saint. I can’t sever all emotions and desires. I can only move step by step towards my inner feelings because I believe in my heart I’ve made the right choice. I believe I won’t love the wrong person. You’re the most worthy person in my life."

Everyone has their own path, and who can continue smoothly without caring about the past experiences? I can never forgive them."

Zhang Yichen didn’t know what to say. Was it really that he was being too petty and suspicious? Was it true that he had no fault at all? But why does his heart still feel so uncomfortable? What’s all this for? Should all love be lost over such a small matter? He couldn’t do it, but could he forgive her so easily? His heart couldn’t forgive.

His heart is so conflicted, with his most beloved wife on one side, and morality and logic on the other. Which should he choose, dignity and pride? Ultimately, he chose family honor without hesitation. He knew his grandfather cherished reputation and couldn’t let this incident ruin the family’s name. He understood the challenges of a family’s hundred-year prosperity, but how could he selfishly ruin it over family issues?

"Wake up; don’t say anything anymore. Some things worsen the more you talk about them. But I hope you understand; I don’t know how to say it or whether to forgive you. But you must understand, for family and dignity, I choose the family. The family’s reputation is difficult, and I can’t let grandfather lose face, nor let his hard work be destroyed. I believe you understand how important the Hundred-year-old family name is. My decision now is just to give us a way out; I can’t be indifferent."

You say it was unintentional, that you shouldn’t have believed him. But reflecting on it, if you truly didn’t have the slightest intention of being with him, why would you listen to his sweet talk and drink with him? Your heart initially had a small desire, wanting to experience what it felt like. But you didn’t expect my power to be so great, easily discovering everything you did. Sorry, maybe my power makes you insecure."

Ran Zhihan realized Zhang Yichen chose to forgive her, but the hurdle in his heart hasn’t been overcome, and she shouldn’t rush him.

Everything needs to progress slowly. If she’s overly eager, it might complicate things further. He cannot afford any risks, perhaps not knowing what to do internally. But facing the person he loves, he occasionally lowers his stance, pleading again and again. Perhaps she won’t get what she wants, but at least she has earnestly given without regret.

"Let’s leave it at this; let’s let it fade away with time, without mentioning it again. However, my heart certainly won’t forgive you easily. As for what to do, that’s for you to decide. The old rule: don’t let grandfather know. I don’t want his heart burdened; he’s worried enough for us. He’s given all his time for me; I can’t cause him more worry or toil. I hope you understand my sincere intentions!"

"I know; don’t worry. I won’t tell grandfather. I will serve you well, take care of grandfather, and care for this family. I won’t run around anymore. A setback is a gain in wisdom. I’ve understood life’s lessons. I won’t naively believe everyone wishes me well or sincerely wants to be friends. I won’t foolishly believe the world won’t betray me. The fact is some people act horribly for money. I’ve realized peace at home is best, nurturing children is enough. I lack skills and knowledge, but at least I know what should and shouldn’t be done. Nothing like this will happen again. You can fully believe, or choose not to, but I will prove it through action. Thank you for letting this end quietly!"

"Everyone’s past experiences are different, and I may not seem perfect now. But who knows the hardships I endured?

My family faced major challenges repeatedly, but I never gave up.

I understand the impact on you, and the hurt it caused. I can only say sorry..."