My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1169 - 1027: A Life of Regret (Part 2)

Xia Jing could see the thoughtful but hesitant look on his son’s face. He knew that the gap between him and his son was still very deep, no matter what he had done for him in the past, perhaps in his son’s eyes, he would never gain that moment of true sincerity. The damage he once caused was too intense. There were things he could not say to his mother, but he could share everything with others.

Sometimes he really felt like a failure as a mother. Why did his son choose to distance himself in such a way? Why did he choose to hurt his family over and over again? As he kept turning everything into something far from what he deeply desired, he forgot why he took that first step and why everyone in the family grew to hate him so deeply. Gradually, he realized he had no way to return to the path he most wanted to take. Everyone was moving further apart, and he forgot what he truly wanted. For him, a family could no longer satisfy his vanity. In his world, all he wanted now was for his family to stay by his side and for him to become the wife of a wealthy man.

He was afraid of his growing vanity, afraid that his desires repeatedly occupied his heart. He couldn’t undo all that had happened. He was always fearful, afraid of getting hurt. He didn’t know why he did all of this, or what his past efforts amounted to here. His sincerity and passion were met with cold indifference from others. It was all self-inflicted, so who could he blame? He would never blame anyone because he knew all of this was his own doing, and the consequences were not anyone else’s fault. Gradually, he found himself going further astray with no way to return. Yet, he still hoped to turn back, believing that moment would be the happiest of his life.

"Mom, there’s no need to look at me like that. I just want to ask you one thing. When you were with Dad, did you agree right from the start?"

"Child, perhaps you shouldn’t be asking me this question. You should ask your dad. He knew everything back then. He knew how he was drenched with cold water and how it took him step by step to finally stand with me. You know how difficult it was for him. Every step he took was guided by his heart. He never took shortcuts. He always stood at life’s peak, looking to everyone. In his eyes, nothing seemed like a problem, but all he wanted was the simplest and sincerest affection. That emotion may seem simple to you, but to him, an adult, it was incredibly challenging. Time and again, he stood against his father because of me. Do you know how touched I was? I had thought of many ways to retaliate, but I never considered how I should act. Every path I considered had to align with my life’s goals. I never thought about what the consequences would be, until I finally realized I’d made a terrible mistake."

"It’s these things that only my dad and grandfather truly understand. Only they know how they treated you back then. Some things are pointless to ask you. It would be like asking you an infinite number of questions, and you never cared about others. You never considered why they agreed or what sacrifices they made. Every path you thought of was so arbitrary. You wanted only to live happily, but you never considered others’ feelings. I should have long been accustomed to having such a mother beside me.