My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1164 - 1023: Once Wished to Give Her a Home

Zhang Zhentian felt that his son had no reason to be heartbroken over these matters. Thinking about everything he had done to his wife, wasn’t each action excessive? Yet, they never chose to treat him this way. In that moment, perhaps he was truly selfish, living only for himself, never thinking that his family also wanted the best care.

"Child, you may think this way now, but one day when you stand in your mother’s position, you won’t think like this. Did you ever know? Back then, your father agreed to let me leave alone. At that moment, even I didn’t expect it. But later, I gradually realized it wasn’t for any other reason but to give me a home."

At that moment, I didn’t expect my husband would so calmly choose to let me leave. He knew as well as anyone that every request I had made seemed like climbing a mountain for him. Though he said he no longer wanted any association with this man, she secretly hoped to meet the man she once loved again. Her heart could never forget this man. He said he had long forgotten her, but in truth, she just didn’t want to face her own feelings. How could inner pain allow others to salt the wound repeatedly?

Zhang Zhentian forced a smile to his wife. He knew that this might be the last time in his life he saw his wife. Yet, he didn’t regret it; instead, he felt it was a good outcome. Everything from the past became like this because of his own doing, and now this will end for the same reason.

Xia Jing saw the forced smile on her husband’s face. Her heart ached nonetheless. Regardless, he was the man she once loved the most, but today it all turned out this way. How could her heart not feel pain? Although everything ultimately had little to do with her, she couldn’t completely avoid blame.

"You really don’t need to waste all your time on me. You can seek a woman more worthy of your love. She would be better than me, unlike me who only makes you sad with every action, making you unhappy for so long. You should live your own life happily and blissfully. Don’t waste your time on me; I’m not worth it."

Everyone has made mistakes they deeply regret, but I never gave up on hope. As long as I hold onto hope, there will be a day I succeed. Even if that day comes late, for me, I have a clear conscience.

"Do you still care about me in your heart? You just don’t know how to talk to me or live with me anymore. It’s because I hurt you before, so you feel we are not suitable together no matter what. But I want to ask if I still have a place in your heart. Just one sincere answer, stop making it difficult for me, alright? I beg of you!"

"Yes, truly, how could I forget about you? You were the one I lived with for over ten years. The love for you was often like spilled water, never to be regained, an irreversible truth everyone understands. We have become this current situation; let’s not make it harder for each other. You should have your happy life, and I should wander the world I want on my own. Though it may be hard and painful, I still want to challenge it. I don’t want to waste my entire life here."

"Regardless of what you did or said, I forgave you long ago, though I didn’t know how to tell you. If I had said these words sooner, I thought I would lose my dignity. I’ve always been a woman so concerned about face that I could even hurt the one I love most. You’ve always been in my heart, never left, but I just don’t know how to face you anymore."

"Hearing these sincere words from you touches my heart. Thank you for telling me. Be careful when you’re out there alone. Don’t easily trust the words of strangers. You’re so naive, always believing what others say and easily being tricked. Always be on guard and trust no one but me. I’m afraid you’ll be deceived, and by then, I won’t be able to be there for you."

"These situations arose because of me, and I have to take full responsibility no matter what. Letting you leave now means I hope you understand; I still love you, no less than before. I love you even more because you’ve given me such a perfect life, even though you won’t be by my side anymore. I am still grateful to you for all the happy times you’ve given me over the years."

"I’ll repeat, whenever you get tired out there, remember home is where I am. My place will always be your home. I’ll wait patiently for you to return to my side; I won’t force or trouble you again. I’ll quietly support your every decision. I’ll watch you strive to achieve what you want on your own, and when you succeed, I’ll silently be proud of you because you’re my wife, my lifelong wife - an unchangeable fact. Maybe sometimes I am really stubborn, but please believe my love for you is genuine..."

Xia Jing knew it was hard for Zhang Zhentian to say these words, and today he willingly said them, proving he really came to terms with it. He is willing to give her a way out and let her explore her desired world alone. Shouldn’t she be happy? Why does she feel a bit upset instead? Is it because she still can’t forget him?

"Since you’ve said this, I won’t say anything else. I only hope you live the life you want happily during this time. Remember to live well. You never know; someday, I might not want to play outside anymore and then want to return to your side. I just hope you won’t turn me away..."

The two people once deeply in love ultimately walked this path; no one expected it to end like this. True love ended in mistrust, leading to the marriage’s demise. If they’d loved each other more back then, would the reality be less vexing now? Though they could have stayed together, they eventually chose distance. So, go live your life, a life without the other.

Elder Zhang also heard the conversation between the two and finally felt a sense of relief. The outcome, neither good nor bad, might ultimately benefit their trust in each other, which maybe, in the end, was a good thing. Finally, he could be at ease.

"Did you ever think your mother was a heinous villain back then? She hurt so many people, letting their deep-set emotions bring repeated harm while she stood indifferently by, watching with a smile. Didn’t you think about how cold-hearted I was at that moment? Didn’t you hate me even a little?"

Zhang Zhentian remembered, making such a decision back then was just to give his wife a complete home.