My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1114 - 964 Protection

Actually, deep down inside, you still care about my father. When I, along with my son, went to confront your husband at that moment, you chose to speak on his behalf. From that point, I could see clearly. You truly want to live with him, but how can you continue when there have already been too many ups and downs between you two? You should be happier and more joyful. Why let past unhappiness dictate your future life? Xia Jing saw his son and grandson attacking his husband, and deep down, it was hard for him.

"How can you act like this? No matter what, she is your elder. Is it appropriate for you two, father and son, to speak like this to your elder? I don’t care what your intentions or reasons are; you cannot speak such cruel and heartless words to my husband. When I see my husband like this, deep down inside, I am actually hurt. No matter what, she has been with me all these years, and what do your actions really mean?

Actually, I know that everything you are doing is for our good. But, every time you choose to act toward us in this way, my heart is already in despair. I have no way to accept a life like this. I have no way to accept my family doubting me over and over again.

You should admit when you are wrong. Everyone understands the deep helplessness one feels in the face of family suspicion. No matter what you do, your family won’t believe you, because in their eyes, you deceived them. Do you know that? Yet as I watch you speak those words to me and do those things repeatedly, deep down, I’m really heartbroken, but I choose to say nothing. I cannot let anything affect my thoughts or disrupt my path. I want to progress step by step on my own. I want everyone to know that I’m not just a woman who cries in someone else’s arms. I can also rely on my own efforts to reach my life’s peak, even if success comes late. I’m still happy and joyful, because that is an outcome I have created with my own hands. I don’t want to rely on anyone, and that’s what true success is!

I don’t understand what you have been confused about these days, nor can I understand what you have discussed or what kind of agreement you have reached. You agreed to let me stay in this home, but honestly, deep down, I’m only anxious. I don’t understand what reason could lead you to make such a large concession toward me. Each step I’ve taken to get here wasn’t easy at all, but I never gave up. I know every effort I make must be borne by myself. Others won’t see my efforts as their motivation to advance. At each moment of watching others succeed more or be happier, deep down, I am more anxious and more broken than anyone else. Why are others able to reach their peak while I can’t? Why can others stand on their careers happily and joyfully while I can only hide and cry quietly alone? Why is that?

When I see so many women who only cry sadly in their husband’s arms, unwilling to pull themselves together, unwilling to aspire for a better tomorrow, I actually fear such a life. I don’t want to become such a person.

If one day I become that person, I would resent myself, and you all would likely resent me too. In this family, no one respects such a life or such a woman. Everyone in this family respects those who strive to reach their goals rather than those who hide behind others, only crying and being spoiled, using others as shields. You know better than anyone else; that’s not the life I want. I’ve lived my life proudly, and that’s why I’m arrogant. I can’t let such things happen to me. If one day those things were about to happen to me, I would stop them, and if they could not be avoided, I would face them calmly. But if that day truly arrives, maybe I would be defeated by it and become a broken person."

Zhang Zhentian suddenly realized his wife’s emotions were not quite right. How could she suddenly know so much? Did she really know everything about these matters? Or did she have someone spying on them? Or perhaps it was their son or grandson who told her.

"Don’t look at me; I didn’t tell my mom or dad about these matters. You know that I’ve been staying here these days to guard my wife. We’ve been discussing things together, and you are here too. You haven’t seen me leave. Please don’t blame me. Perhaps my mom was by your side all along and heard every word we said?"

"Zhang Zhentian, do you know the happiest thing in my life was meeting a man like you, who truly loved me for so long? You never despised my origins; you always stepped forward to protect me. Do you know how grateful I am? But gratitude is not love. No matter how much you do for me, I can’t let go of my previous prejudices against you. I kept telling myself that as long as I’m happy and you can be happy, I can compromise and stay by your side for life. But now, I truly can’t do it anymore. I’m on the verge of breaking down. No matter what I do, nothing matters in your eyes. Everything I give and do seems meaningless, and in the end, I’m just a naive girl willing to sacrifice everything and get only hurt.

Listening to what you said, I’m about to go crazy. Do you understand? Time and again, I consider things from your perspective. Why do you use such an attitude to doubt me? Why do you talk behind my back with such words? If you are unsatisfied, why not tell me directly? You can tell me, and I can correct myself. But I don’t want you to discuss me behind my back. Talking behind my back is something a petty person does. When you talk behind my back, have you ever considered that deep inside, I am also in pain, sadness, and distress? We’re all adults now; it’s time to take responsibility for our actions and pay the price!"

"You can all remember the events of this day clearly. You can’t forget or pretend they never happened. Yet, you say nothing because you don’t know how to speak about it. Today, I’ll say these words. I only hope you can really think about whether what you have is more than what others have. Should you cherish what you have now and stop comparing it to others’ things you don’t possess?"