My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1090 - 942 Persuasion

"Now you’re talking to me about the past. Do you know how much I used to care about this family? I didn’t do all those things just to make myself happy; I wanted everyone in the family to have a happy life. That’s why I made those decisions. But why, in the end, did I find out it was all my fault? Who ever considered the harm I suffered from my perspective?"

Zhang Yichen couldn’t help but let out a laugh. He felt that his mom’s worldview was completely different from his. Whatever mom did was right, but whatever he did was wrong. Had anyone ever considered what he really wanted? In the end, what was everything he sacrificed worth? No one ever considered things from his point of view, and life remained tough for him.

Maybe he should have forgiven them from the start and not held these thoughts. Would forgiving them bring about the outcome he desired most? Would they start thinking about his life from his perspective? But no, his parents would always be selfish, never understanding him.

Perhaps he had hoped for too much.

"Mom, hearing what you said today, I feel deeply hurt inside. I never imagined you would speak to me like this. I just wanted everyone to live happily, but in the end, you treated me like this. Am I really your son in your eyes? If you truly considered me your biological son, you wouldn’t have used such words to threaten and hurt me today. Every word you speak feels like a knife piercing my heart. Have you thought about how strong my heart needs to be to endure this?

Honestly, I can’t believe my heart can withstand so much. Despite all the hurt you’ve caused me, I never give up. I keep pushing myself to make bigger decisions.

You think you were doing everything for my own good back then, but have you ever considered if that’s what I truly wanted? It hasn’t been easy to get to where I am today, doing everything just to ensure everyone could live a happy life. I wanted a simple life, but why, in your eyes, does it count for nothing? I get nothing in your world; you never thought about the result I should have had. Your internal world is all about you, no room for anyone else. Maybe we’ll always be like this, but there’s no way to live happily like we used to. Every incident proves it.

Do you think I’m easy to bully? Though I might leave without saying a word, do you think I’ll just forgive you easily if you talk nicely when I return? Have you ever thought, there’s a limit to how many times someone can forgive? After getting hurt again and again, who would be willing to forgive without limits? Why would anyone put up with endless harm?

I really don’t understand people like you who can forgive so easily after being hurt constantly. Can you really pretend it never happened? It’s impossible because deep down you know it’s irreversible harm. No one will give you everything you want without reason. People give what they do to hope you find your desired ending. Do you really wish for us to live happily? You repeatedly make us feel embarrassed and rob me of my dignity in front of others. I don’t blame you for hurting me repeatedly because you’re my family; you’re my mother who gave birth to me. I can overlook all for you, but to be used and still say everything’s fine? I can’t do that. I just want to live comfortably and happily. Even if that’s not what I desire most, at least it wouldn’t be this exhausting and painful. I’ve lived too tiredly, without ever figuring out how to achieve all this, not like now.

I was planning to forgive you, but after hearing what you said, I suddenly changed my mind. Why should I forgive you? Your words were so hurtful, and if I keep forgiving you, won’t you just hurt me more? I can’t bear such harm anymore. I just wish for a peaceful, easy, and joyful life without being disturbed by anyone.

If you truly want us to live happily, please stop hurting me with your words. Hurting me benefits neither you nor me. You hurt me once; what do you gain? Only a growing distance between us that becomes unchangeable. How should we get along in the future then?

I hope you can spare me, let me live without being hurt again and again in this way. It yields no good result for you.

Xia Jing was silent. He never expected his son would say such words to him today. He couldn’t believe it, but he also knew all this was the result of his past mistakes, the responsibility he had to bear...