My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1088 - 940: The Moment of Confession

"Child, back then everything was out of necessity. I didn’t want that kind of life in my world, but I had no way to change it all."

"No matter how much is said, I will never forget...

They each returned to their rooms. Zhang Zhentian was already waiting in his dressing room for his wife’s return. At the moment he saw his wife enter the door, his mood was not good. Did he know what his father had said to his wife? They didn’t understand what his son and his wife had discussed.

He couldn’t say much now, he could only wait for his wife to tell him on her own.

At this moment, Xia Jing was also very conflicted. She knew that if she didn’t reveal the truth, her husband might live his whole life in confusion. She didn’t want her husband to spend his life feeling wronged. If she revealed the truth, it might lead to divorce, but was that what she wanted? All she wanted was for her loved ones to stay by her side forever, but her actions would eventually cause her to lose everything. Should she really tell her husband everything?

"It’s late, let’s sleep early. I won’t ask you what you talked about today because I trust you. I believe every word you say is true. I won’t delve into things you don’t want to talk about, nor will I ask. I just give you my utmost trust because I believe you won’t deceive me. You are truly devoted to me. Being together with you is enough. I desire nothing more in this life. Having you by my side is the greatest comfort!"

Hearing Zhang Zhentian speak such words, Xia Jing was moved internally, but she also understood that some things really needed to be said now. Why let these matters grow more complicated, reaching an uncontrollable point? Perhaps confessing earlier might have some advantages. Even if, after confessing, the result is still the same, she would have no regrets, at least not having disappointed the one she loves the most.

"Zhentian, I want to tell you something, but you have to promise not to be angry when you hear it, regardless of your reaction or decision afterwards. I will accept it willingly!"

"Go ahead, no matter what you tell me, I will understand."

"I want to say that, in truth, my heart does not love you. Even though we have been married for so many years, you were never in my heart. I always thought about my first love before being with you. For him, I gave so much; he gave me all his love. But, in the end, we walked a dead-end road, and I was forced to choose to be with you. In fact, I saw you as a backup. But I hope you will let me finish!"

Hearing his wife declare him as a backup, Zhang Zhentian was already flustered. More than anything, he was serious. He never thought his wife had not given her heart to him all these years and lived in a lie. He found it hard to tolerate, beginning to feel anger, but he wanted his wife to reveal all the truth before considering what response he should give.

"All these years, I never placed you deep in my heart. Everything you did for me touched me greatly. You gave up your entire family for me, disregarding your family’s century-old foundation. I saw all of this, and I truly appreciate it. However, some things I really have no way to explain. Every mistake I made, I need to bear the consequences myself. Because of a wrong step long ago, I broke up completely with my first love. To this day, my heart still aches. You should know how frightened I am to wake up from nightmares, how I dream of the day he left me. The pain is unbearable. Though I’ve been with you all these years, I appear to be bright and cheerful, but no one knows when I genuinely smile from the heart. I’ve never truly been happy. Being with you all this time, I’ve been forcing smiles because I knew people must learn to disguise themselves. If not capable of doing so, they would be doomed in others’ eyes. I don’t know how to explain it; I once loved him deeply, and only when he left did I realize how much I loved him. Yet, I had no way to bring him back!

Perhaps you feel that it’s unfair how I’ve treated you over the years. You’ve given everything for me, even putting aside your family. But my heart does not belong to you; it loves someone else. These years, I’ve lived in deep pain, restless nights and days. I have no way to forget the hurt my mistakes caused the man I loved most. I’ve reflected repeatedly on how to return everything to the beginning, to pretend it never happened. I don’t know what decision I should make, because that wrong step made me lose the man who loved me the most. You have no idea how much he loved me. He gave me all his love, all his effort, and in return, I gave him a treatment as cold as stone."

"Only after he left did I realize my heart could ache. It wasn’t for any other reason but because I lost him, and because what he did made my heart deeply fall for him. I’ve fallen too deeply to pull out. No matter what decision you make or what happens, I willingly accept. I want to reminisce our life together. Even if you choose to divorce me, I won’t give up on him. No matter what decision you make, I will forever remember him in my heart because his love is one no one else could give. He was there in my most difficult times, lending a hand when I was at rock bottom. He gave me love that no one else could. This time, I want to give my all, by all means necessary, to love him, even if ultimately all I get is his cold, indifferent treatment. I accept it willingly. I don’t care about any result anymore. All I care about is whether I can love him unreservedly and give him my whole heart. I’m sorry for hurting you!"

Zhang Zhentian was stunned. He didn’t understand what was going on?"

"When you all chose to confess everything back then, I was truly happy. I never thought my parents would have a day of confessing the truth. At that moment, I was so excited, but then I discovered it was just a temporary strategy. In your eyes, you could never get a sincere word. You always just used us. Is using us really that important in your eyes? You could become selfish and indifferent, but I can’t. I can’t harm all the family around me to achieve my own goals. I can’t be as ruthless and unfeeling as you; I’m incapable of being indifferent like you.

When I saw my family hurt, my only thought was to jump out and protect them, wanting them to stay behind me for a lifetime. But all this feels like a dream, impossible to achieve..."