My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1084 - 935: Torment

At that time, you were fighting like there was no tomorrow. I remember every single word you said, I’ve never forgotten them, including what my mom said to me. I will never forget that in my lifetime—it’s an everlasting memory deep inside me, a pain that can never be erased.

Do you have any idea what it felt like to hear those words from my own mother back then?

Hearing his mother speak like that, he now understood a bit more. It turned out that not everything was done by his mother alone; his father was involved too. However, his father didn’t choose to take any responsibility for the mistakes but instead put all the blame on his mother, making her bear all the negative outcomes. At this moment, Zhang Yichen understood the kind of person his father was—a cowardly and timid man, afraid of facing issues, never willing to own up to his mistakes, and always thinking of pushing his wrongdoings onto the person beside him. He really didn’t expect his father to be that kind of person.

In his heart, everyone’s father should be the greatest, someone willing to protect their wife and children at all costs. But why was his father the exact opposite of everyone’s dad? His father could choose his own interests over his own partner, his wife, and his son. Was everything about interest to him? Were those things really that important...?

Was he going to live his entire life for interests? If that’s the case, why did he choose to come back? Was it just to hurt him, to hurt him with words, to hurt the woman he loved most? No, he refused to accept that cruel fact. The truth was too much for him to bear. No matter how many hurtful things his father did, he always believed his father to be great, but that image of a great father collapsed in the tender heart of a child, dealing a severe blow.

"Mom, after hearing what you just said, I particularly want to understand one thing. In everything you’ve done to me and the woman I love, did my father participate? Yet he didn’t choose to take any responsibility at the end, pushing all the blame onto you, making you shoulder all the responsibility. Can you clearly tell me if this is the case?" Zhang Yichen hoped his mom could give him a negative response. He didn’t want his father’s image in his heart to completely collapse, but the result left him devastated.

Xia Jing never expected her son to be so clever; she had only casually mentioned a few things, but her son caught onto the key points. Now, how should she wrap this up? Should she plainly tell her son that this was indeed the case? Would Zhang Zhentian’s image in her son’s heart collapse if she did so? She didn’t want such a thing to happen, but she had no way to stop the development of events.

"Mom, please speak. Tell me if that’s really how things are. I don’t want you to lie to me at this point because it would only make me resent you more. If I am truly still your son in your heart, please be honest with me!" Zhang Yichen pleaded with Xia Jing.

Xia Jing couldn’t bear to see her son heartbroken; she ultimately chose to tell the truth.

"Child, you’re not wrong in guessing; that’s indeed how it happened. In everything I did to you and the woman you love, your father was involved. Many times, he even encouraged and supported me to do those things, but in the end, he didn’t stand with me to take the consequences, pushing all the blame onto me. I’ve covered for his mistakes again and again, but he never had my place in his heart. I used to think that if I gave selflessly for him, it would surely result in him having a heart full of me, but it wasn’t the case. You should understand why things between us reached this point; it’s not just about a simple lie. In his heart, the words I said became the biggest mistake, yet he never considered if what he did to me was wrong. To him, I, his wife, can’t compare to his interests or temporary impulses. So now I understand; no matter how he looks for me or pleads, whether he finds me or not, I will never live with him again because I feel suffocated living with him!"

"Can you tell me why you initially left me with my father to abandon me?"

This question was the biggest knot in Zhang Yichen’s heart, and he really wanted to understand it.

"Seeing as there’s nothing to hide now, I’ll tell you. Actually, when I gave birth to you, it wasn’t that I wanted to abandon you, but your father told me to leave you with your grandfather so I could pursue freedom with him just after you’d been born. I was deeply unwilling because you were my own flesh and blood after ten difficult months, and how could one heartlessly abandon them at birth? I really couldn’t do it. So, I negotiated with him to wait until you were a month old, but I didn’t realize that day would come so soon. Eventually, I left with him, which led to today’s events. Child, do you hate me?"

Zhang Yichen was completely dumbstruck. He never thought that his mother abandoned him back then not because of her reasons but because of his father’s. All these years, he’d been hating his mother, but it turned out he had been hating the wrong person. He wished time could turn back so he could keep his mother by his side and truly cherish her.

"Mom, I don’t hate you. To be honest, I used to think it was you who abandoned me, dragging Dad along during that time, and I deeply hated you for it. But today, I finally understood that it wasn’t because of you. Now I’ve decided to let go of that hatred and live on with you, with love. You are my mother, and I will place you in my heart for the rest of my life. I love you, Mom!"

Xia Jing waited for over ten years, to finally hear her own son say, "I love you." She was truly overwhelmed with emotions. She never expected the misunderstanding to be resolved so easily. She no longer had to worry about her son discovering any secrets. At this moment, Xia Jing suddenly realized that living transparently is really easy; not having to care about others finding you out because at your core, you’re already transparent, showing others your true self, they won’t bother guessing what you’re thinking, nor will they ponder over your next move. Such a life is truly wonderful, yet why did she only come to understand this so late? If she had realized this earlier, would events not have spiraled to this point today?

"My dear son, mom, thank you, I’ve waited so many years to hear these words ’I love you’ from you. Make sure to listen to your grandfather, don’t let him worry. Mom will visit when she has time. I have to go now, goodbye!"

After Xia Jing finished, she quickly hung up the phone and squatted down to cry alone.