novelraw Chapter 1018: The Man I Love
Chapter 1018: The Man I Love
"If it’s really the unchangeable will of destiny, then there’s no need to forcibly go against it; it’s better to let nature take its course. To reduce the bumps along the way, he also taught me a strange technique, which can easily return this Demon Eyes Power to Zirong.However, in doing so, Zirong ultimately still cannot escape death. Within a decade or so, that Demon Eyes will turn pure white like a full moon, and Zirong will die from that pure Yang Demon Eyes Power.
The only one who can save him is you, the Mu Family, Han Yan!" Yu Qingwan’s expression became more and more solemn and sorrowful as she spoke.
"Me, how could it be me?" Everything Yu Qingwan said was as shocking as shattering the sky; Han Yan was so stunned she was almost numb.
"I also don’t know why it’s you." Yu Qingwan shook her head and said, "Anyway, Senior Lu said so, word for word. When Zirong went to the Mu Residence, it was actually under my repeated suggestion that he finally made up his mind. Otherwise, with his pride and ability, he could have found other ways to make money to cure me. How could he possibly have gone to work at the Mu Residence?"
Hearing Yu Qingwan’s words, a spirit light suddenly flashed in Han Yan’s mind. She recalled what Yue Ji had said before she died, pondering the meaning of those words. It seemed that Hua Guanyu betrayed the temple and came to the Holy Court Continent because of her.
And Zirong coming to the Mu Residence was also not a coincidence; it was because of her.
As if everything had been arranged in the dark, bringing Huayue and Zirong together by her side.
Then, what about Jiang Yuzhe? Did he follow me by coincidence as well? Jiang Yuzhe wasn’t by her side, and she couldn’t ask, but Han Yan still kept this in mind, intending to find an opportunity to get clear answers.
"Did Senior Lu say how to save Zirong?" Han Yan set aside the matter of Jiang Yuzhe and continued to ask.
"He didn’t say that, but he did mention another thing to me," Yu Qingwan said.
"What did he say?" Han Yan asked.
"Senior Lu said, destiny is unpredictable and the world is volatile. Even he cannot truly understand the Heavenly Secret. Perhaps everything he said won’t happen; maybe Zirong and I will have no disaster in our lifetimes, and all will be well," Yu Qingwan said.
"Yes, Senior Lu is absolutely right. As long as you don’t return the Demon Eyes Power to him, isn’t everything fine?" Hearing this, Han Yan couldn’t help but say. Knowing what will happen if the Demon Eyes Power is returned to Zirong, insisting on doing so sounds unnecessary, doesn’t it?
Of course, this thought was just that—a thought—and Han Yan was too embarrassed to say it out loud.
"Of course, I understand what Lady Mu is saying. In fact, when I initially persuaded Zirong to go to the Mu Residence, I was thinking of having a backup plan, fearing the unexpected. But I had already resolved that no matter what calamity we might encounter in the future, I would never return the Demon Eyes Power to Zirong, even if it cost my life. Still, in the end, things did not go as planned," Yu Qingwan said with some helplessness, but her gaze at Han Yan was filled with admiration.
"Why?" Seeing Yu Qingwan’s helplessness, Han Yan was even more puzzled.
Even though Zirong was afflicted with the Thousand Poison Corrosive Powder, with Ye Lanfeng’s seal suppressing it, he wasn’t in immediate danger. If luck were on his side, he could live for several decades or even to an old age. Besides, even though Doctor Sun said this poison is incurable, the world is vast and full of wonders. Who can say for sure that he’s absolutely correct? As long as the seal by Ye Lanfeng remains intact, there’s always hope to detoxify it.
But reawakening the Demon Eyes would mean Zirong only has over a decade left to live. From a fiancée’s perspective, there really is no reason to make such a choice.
"The matters of the Guiyu Clan started all because of me, Uncle Yun and another were trapped in the Soul-breaking Valley because of me too. How could Zirong possibly watch you all risk your lives while he stays out of it?
Even if you all return safely, this will become an unresolved knot in his heart for life. If anything were to happen to you, he would blame himself with guilt for the rest of his life.
Perhaps you don’t fully understand him, but I do. Although he seems carefree and unruly on the surface, he values friendship more than life itself. I used to be curious, with his pride, why would he be so devoted to Heishi City’s most notorious playboy? Why would he become best friends with Huayue, Jiang Yuzhe, and others? But after you all did whatever it took to save me, I understood." As she mentioned Heishi City’s most notorious playboy, Yu Qingwan revealed a sarcastic smile, not directed at Han Yan, but at the mundane and myopic fools.
After pausing a moment, Yu Qingwan continued, "In this world, the only things worth Zirong’s life, besides me, are you all.
So, I also know that even if I try to stop him with all my might, he would still go to the Soul-breaking Valley.
However, because he weakened significantly from saving me, his already not-so-strong strength declined further. What help could he possibly offer if he goes? If something unexpected happens, I might not even have a chance to regret it.
And even if in the end, you all are safe and sound, with his declining abilities, the gap between him and Huayue, Jiang Yuzhe will only widen, and he will no longer be able to follow you by your side, only able to retreat into the mountains with me.
If he were to spend his life this way, I wouldn’t mind, and he wouldn’t have any grievances. But with his proud nature, it would eventually become a regret for him his entire life.
As a woman, who doesn’t wish for their beloved man to stand tall and proud, who doesn’t wish for him to live valiantly and without regrets throughout life? Thinking carefully, an ordinary life farming in peace is not the Zirong I want. The Zirong who values loyalty, who is free-spirited, and who can smile upon all beings, that’s the Zirong I desire.
Thus, I don’t want my affection to ruin his life.
Even if there were really only over ten years left for him, I’d want him to live those years brightly, to make a name for himself in the world, to become a revered cultivator, even if it means we can’t grow old together!" At this point, Yu Qingwan clenched her fists, her expression resolute and determined.
"Of course, I also don’t want to see Zirong die young. If Senior Lu hadn’t mentioned that you could save him, I think I wouldn’t have dared to take such a risk." In the end, Yu Qingwan seemed to be reassuring herself.
Looking at Yu Qingwan’s steadfast face and the slightly effortless comforting smile at the corner of her mouth, Han Yan’s emotions surged, unable to calm for a long time.
Zirong’s friendship with them undoubtedly moved her, but Yu Qingwan’s affection for Zirong touched her even more deeply.