Mr. Ke's little wife

Chapter 118 Calm down

Chapter 118 Calm down

For the first time, I felt that the heartache would spread to all the limbs, the cold hands and feet, like venom, eroded my nerves, and finally became numb. I only felt that the world was black and white, and life was hopeless. .

Before I passed out from the pain, I remembered a question I saw before: Do people who commit suicide think it hard or want it...

Now that I can give an answer calmly, I must have thought about it.Those who can't think about living in this world, those who can't think about it, would rather endure the sea of ​​suffering than suffer mental torture.

I didn't go to see Ke Chen that day. When I woke up, there was a message from Ke Chen on my phone: "You missed the appointment..."

I missed my appointment...

I didn't go for chemotherapy anymore, and I still kept the old way of getting along with Lu Yao.Aunt Qiu only thinks that I have always been lethargic recently, but seeing Mr. Chen Sa coming before, relying on the cover of his doctor's identity, she didn't doubt it too much.

The pain in my body seemed to be getting worse every time.But only in this way can I feel that I am still alive.After waking up, she pretended to be fine and stayed with Aunt Qiu as usual.

"Why are you getting thinner recently?"

Only when she pushed Aunt Qiu to the clothing store that day, she reached out and pinched my long sleeves, her face full of worry.

Just one sentence, the pretense that made me so long collapsed in an instant.I squatted on the ground, covered my face and wept bitterly. I didn't say a word, only collapsed.

Aunt Qiu didn't ask any more questions, she just reached out and patted my back, saying, "Cry, cry..."

It turned out that in the end, only my former relatives were by my side...

When Ke Chen sent the invitation, I was lying on the sofa with Aunt Qiu watching a drama, with a grape in my arms and a glass of Coke on the table.

Lu Yao handed me the courier and the knife by the way: "Your courier."

"Hmm..." I reached out to take it, and squatted beside the table to open it.Halfway through the cut, seeing the names of Ke Chen and Mu Xi, I suddenly felt that it was unnecessary.He turned it over and threw it on the table, got up and then sat on the sofa to watch the drama.

"What is it?" Aunt Qiu pouted, her eyes fixed on the table.

"A... not very important thing." I chuckled, my heart was calm without the slightest wave, and even the regrets and despair I once had had really become ordinary words in my eyes.

"Go ahead and watch." I looked at the TV and only slightly hooked my lips.

Lu Yao reached out and threw it into the trash can.And I looked at the screen blankly, just feeling that his behavior was superfluous.

On the day of Ke Chen's wedding, there was even more pomp than when Qiu Wan got married.Even if you don't go out at home, just sit in the hanging chair and look out the window, on the big screen outside, his and Mu Xi's names are flashing, with a lot of love...

It's really... my heart bleeds...

I huddled in the hanging chair, holding in my hand the book that Lu Yao recommended to me.

To be honest, the books he recommends are all very good-looking, which makes people feel peaceful and free from desires.

"Can you read it?" Lu Yao came over, took out the book in my hand, and folded a corner on that page.

"Why can't you look in?" I let him go and didn't fight him.

Lu Yao sat on a stool beside him, his eyes no longer had the clarity of the past: "I thought you would care..."

"Not anymore."

After I finished speaking, I felt ridiculous. I must have said this hundreds of times.But what was the result?Isn't it still the same as before?

"That's the best." Lu Yao held the spine of the book and tapped his palms, and after a long time of deliberation, he said, "Chen Sa came to see me yesterday."

"Oh."

"He said, he hopes you can go to chemotherapy, and he will try his best to find the right bone marrow. Otherwise..." Lu Yao looked at my face and didn't say any more.

I stretched, sleepy: "No."

"If you are afraid of pain, you can take some painkillers at that time, and you can pass it." Lu Yao's eyes were erratic, his head was lowered, a little helpless.

(End of this chapter)