Madam, believe me, how can I be a minotaur?

Section 152

Although hearing her say that she seemed to have feelings for Asano Makoto would likely make Yamada Yuta angry, he would eventually understand Miyajima Eriko's feelings and move out directly.

At that time, all problems could be easily solved, and even their relationship would deepen because of this.

But that's no longer possible now.

Because Miyajima Eriko has already made an irreparable mistake.

So, after realizing that she no longer liked Yamada Yuta, she remembered the decision she had made not long ago—to confess her mistake to Yamada Yuta.

After all, no matter what the reason, her cheating was a fact.

In her current view, a scumbag woman like herself is no longer qualified to continue being with Yamada Yuta.

Although Asano Makoto said before that she could temporarily not tell Yamada Yuta and wait until she had thought it through before telling him.

But she didn't want to do that.

She didn't want to delay any longer, and she didn't want to keep stringing Yamada Yuta along.

Because keeping someone in the dark after doing something like this is inherently cruel.

So, she had already decided to explain this matter to Yamada Yuta as soon as possible, preferably tonight.

At that time, no matter what his reaction is, whether he wants to break up, hit her, scold her, or anything else, she will bear it all.

Although Asano Makoto said before that he would face it together with Miyajima Eriko and bear Yamada Yuta's anger together, she is not planning to involve Asano Makoto now.

In her opinion, Asano Makoto has done nothing wrong in this matter, and the only one at fault has always been her, so she must bear the consequences of this matter alone.

This is also why she gave up turning back to knock on the door when she left Asano Makoto's house today.

And besides being willing to take responsibility, she has one characteristic: she cannot forgive her own mistakes.

Most people are unwilling to take responsibility and will find reasons to shirk after making mistakes, then forgive themselves and reconcile with themselves.

But Miyajima Eriko will not do this.

Although Asano Makoto's psychotherapy had temporarily buried this matter in her heart, once she remembers it again, she will once again be immersed in endless guilt.

So, after confessing her mistake, even if Yamada Yuta forgives her, she still will not forgive herself.

She feels that she is no longer worthy of being with Yamada Yuta, and she herself does not want to continue to 'harm' Yamada Yuta.

Despite lying in bed thinking about these things she had thought about countless times, and then immersing herself in guilt and pain.

But because her body was too tired, she finally fell asleep.

And when she woke up, it was already two o'clock in the afternoon.

She slept for a full five hours. When she first woke up, she was a little stunned because she didn't find Asano Makoto in bed, and she felt empty in her heart.

However, after waking up and realizing how outrageous her thoughts were, she pursed her lips and silently began her slightly late routine.

Get up to wash, make a simple brunch, clean up...

After finishing these things and sitting on the sofa to rest for a while, it was four o'clock in the afternoon. She had to go out to throw the garbage and buy the vegetables she would use for cooking dinner tonight.

And when passing by Asano Makoto's house, even though she knew that he had already gone out with Shinno Yuna, she couldn't help but slow down slightly.

Originally, if Yuna hadn't come, the person accompanying Asano-kun out now should be me...

Looking at the closed door, she subconsciously bit her lip, feeling lonely in her heart once again.

But she quickly woke up again, then lowered her head and hurried away from here to take care of her own business.

After buying the vegetables and returning home, when it was time to start preparing dinner, her heart tangled again.

In her opinion, Asano Makoto and Shinno Yuna should have already returned from outside at this point, so she was wondering whether to invite them over from next door for dinner and see what the specific situation is now.

But in the end, she still ate dinner alone.

Because Asano Makoto had told her before to rest assured and wait at home, and that nothing would go wrong.

So, she chose to believe and gave up the idea of asking them to come over.

After eating dinner, because everything that needed to be done had been done, she became idle again.

And when people have nothing to do, they are most prone to overthinking.

So, sitting on the sofa, she inevitably began to think about those things she had thought about when she woke up from her nap in the morning.

And this thinking went on for several hours.

When she came back to her senses from her daze, it was already past ten o'clock in the evening.

She first hurriedly turned on the water heater in the bathroom, and then somewhat flusteredly heated up the dinner she had prepared for Yamada Yuta in advance while cooking.

After she had done all of this, a few more minutes passed, and the sound of the door opening and that long-lost voice finally rang out again.

"Eriko, I'm back."

Yamada Yuta is back from overtime.

Because he had been working overtime for three or four days in a row and had slept directly at the company last night, his spirit was visibly sluggish.

Seeing his tired face, Miyajima Eriko was stunned for a moment before she came back to her senses and said hello: "Yeah, Yuta, welcome home."

Saying that, she lowered her head and quickly walked to the entrance, bent down to take out indoor shoes from the shoe cabinet for Yamada Yuta, and then put the shoes he took off back into the shoe cabinet.

After she had done all of this, Yamada Yuta had already changed his shoes and walked into the living room, lying directly on the sofa.

Miyajima Eriko walked to the sofa and asked in a low voice: "You must be tired, do you want to eat?"

Yamada Yuta closed his eyes and said in a weak voice: "Let me rest for a while."

Miyajima Eriko was silent for a short while, then nodded and said: "...Okay."

After lazing on the sofa like this for about twenty minutes, Yamada Yuta slowly got up and sat at the dining table.

Miyajima Eriko walked over with the reheated food and sat down opposite him.

Perhaps because she was feeling a little nervous about what was about to happen, she was sitting very upright in her seat, looking even a little restrained.

Because this change was too obvious, even Yamada Yuta could see at a glance that something seemed to be wrong with her.

So, Yamada Yuta put the rice he had already picked up into his mouth, and then asked with some doubt: "What's wrong? Eriko."

Hearing his voice, Miyajima Eriko's body trembled visibly, as if she had been frightened. She subconsciously opened her mouth and said: "Yuta, I..."

Because she was too nervous, she even cracked her voice.

But even so, she still couldn't say those words.

She didn't know what to say.

Although she knew that keeping Yamada Yuta in the dark was a very cruel thing, when she thought of his tired appearance when he came home, Miyajima Eriko felt a little unable to speak again.

After all, isn't this also a kind of cruelty?

He was already very tired from being devastated by work. If he heard that news at this time, it would be too painful...

In any case, the two had been lovers for a long time. Although she no longer loved him now, Miyajima Eriko had indeed liked Yamada Yuta before.

So, seeing him looking so tired now, Miyajima Eriko couldn't help but feel a little heartache, thinking about whether to wait a little longer, until Yamada Yuta's work wasn't so hard, before mentioning this matter.

But she finally gave up on this plan.

Knowing that a long pain is worse than a short one, she finally decided not to delay any longer, but to say this tonight.

But even after making a decision, the guilt in her heart still made her unable to speak for a while.

Just as she was feeling troubled by this, and at the same time feeling more and more nervous because of Yamada Yuta's increasingly suspicious gaze, she suddenly had a flash of inspiration and remembered a sentence that Asano Makoto had casually said when he was chatting with her when they went out to play that day.

It was a Chinese saying called "Liquor emboldens the coward."

Although she didn't know why Asano Makoto knew so much, that wasn't important. What was important was that she could understand the meaning of this sentence, and it just so happened to fit her current needs.

So, taking advantage of the last moment before Yamada Yuta completely suspected her, she quickly opened her mouth and said: "Um, I mean, do you want to drink? Yuta, I want to drink some shochu, do you want to drink some together?"

Yamada Yuta was stunned, as if he didn't expect Miyajima Eriko to have held back for so long, only to say such a small thing.

But since his girlfriend had rarely made a request, he naturally wouldn't refuse.

And because he had been under a lot of pressure at work recently, he really wanted to get drunk.

So, he nodded and said: "Okay, let's have a drink then... Thinking about it, it seems like I haven't had a drink with you, Eriko, for a long time."

"Yeah."

Miyajima Eriko squeezed out a somewhat forced smile on her face, and said that she got up and went to the bedroom to get the wine.

Not long after, she came back with two bottles of shochu, and the two began to chat and drink.

Perhaps because he had drunk some wine, Yamada Yuta gradually became more talkative, mostly complaining, complaining about the company, complaining about the boss, complaining about work.

Miyajima Eriko didn't know what to say about this, so she could only nod in agreement from time to time.

After all, she herself was also troubled in her heart.

Because the two had their own troubles recently, they drank quickly, and in a short while, most of the two bottles of shochu were gone.

And at this time, Miyajima Eriko, whose face was slightly red, looked at Yamada Yuta, whose face was flushed, and her eyes became more and more firm.

Just like Asano Makoto said, liquor emboldens the coward, Miyajima Eriko finally mustered up her courage.

However, the situation was a little different from what she had expected.

She overlooked one problem, and that was Yamada Yuta's alcohol tolerance.

Because he already had a lot of troubles, he drank quickly, and on top of that, he was drinking shochu with a high alcohol content, so when she finally mustered up the courage to speak, Yamada Yuta was already drunk and unconscious.

And what would happen when he was drunk, naturally there was no need to say more.

So, Miyajima Eriko, who had finally made up her mind, stared in astonishment as he slammed his face heavily on the dining table.

Miyajima Eriko naturally knew what Yamada Yuta would be like after he was drunk. At least he wouldn't be able to wake up for a while.

So, after being stunned for a long time, she came back to her senses and sighed heavily, feeling very helpless about this.

But at the same time, the heart that was hanging in her throat was slightly lowered.

No matter how willing she was to admit her mistakes, she was just an ordinary person. She would feel extremely nervous when apologizing for her mistakes, especially in the current situation, so she couldn't help but hope that that moment would come later.

Perhaps even God doesn't want me to mention this matter tonight...

Miyajima Eriko thought this way and couldn't help but show a wry smile, then got up to go to the bedroom to get a blanket.