Living Only For Myself: Make Those Who Hate Me Regret It

Chapter 294: "Then Let’s Perish Together.

Zhou Mochen parked the car by the river. The night breeze blew in through the open window. He said softly, "After meeting you, I’ve really started to believe in fate."

"..." Xu Su’s mind was a mess, racing as she tried to sort out the differences between her two lives.

In this life, it was only after they met again at the milk tea shop that he realized his feelings for her.

’So, in my past life, I never went to that milk tea shop. Where did Zhou Mochen see me again, develop feelings for me, and decide to stay in Chang City?’

Xu Su clearly remembered that their first meeting in her past life was after the Xu Family moved into the subsidized housing. Zhou Mochen appeared in her life as a neighbor. Before that, she had never seen him, let alone spoken to him.

’It wasn’t love at first sight in this life, so it couldn’t have been in the last life either. If that’s the case, and we had no other interactions, then that Zhou Mochen...’

At that thought, the hair on Xu Su’s arms stood on end.

She had always found the Zhou Mochen from her past life strange. His initial appearance in her life was odd enough. He would escort her to and from school as her neighbor, but he was incredibly aloof and would never say an extra word to her.

He was so cold. That was why, in her past life, it never occurred to Xu Su that an adult like Zhou Mochen could have any inappropriate feelings for a child like her.

At the same age, the Zhou Mochen of this life would gently coax her, smile, and unabashedly tell her how much he liked her.

But the Zhou Mochen of her past life was completely different. Even though he liked her, he showed no sign of it during the three years he escorted her. Later on, he simply offered her money to be with him.

So much time had passed that many memories had blurred, but Xu Su still clearly remembered Zhou Mochen’s calm expression the day she went to him to borrow money.

Before that, she had already vaguely sensed her neighbor’s feelings. She was extremely resistant and couldn’t accept an adult she saw every day having such thoughts about her, so she deliberately avoided him for a while.

Later, when her grandmother had an accident and the family had no money for her treatment, Xu Su was at the end of her rope but still didn’t plan to ask him for help. She was genuinely scared. In the end, she was practically pushed by Chen Shulan to go to his door and ask.

She still remembered how the moment the words "borrow money" left her mouth, he showed his true colors. He dropped the act entirely and directly demanded that she move into his home.

Not the one next door to the Xu Family, of course, but the apartment at Imperial Central.

That night, Xu Su had trembled with fear. The Zhou Mochen of this life would never have the heart to put her through something like that.

But the man from her past life had no such reservations.

"What are you thinking about?"

The familiar voice in her ear snapped Xu Su back to reality. She frantically threw her arms around her boyfriend’s neck, her face inexplicably flushing. "Nothing."

"Why is your face so hot?" With the girl’s face pressed against his neck, Zhou Mochen reached up to touch it and couldn’t help but raise an eyebrow. "Thinking naughty thoughts?"

"..." Flustered and angry, Xu Su released her arms from his neck, opened the car door, and got out.

The wind by the river at night was strong and cool, dissipating the heat from Xu Su’s face. She quietly watched the river water flow under the bridge.

Zhou Mochen hugged her from behind, pecking kisses on her ear, and sighed softly, "My good girl."

"..."

After all this time, Xu Su still wasn’t used to that nickname.

After a long silence, she suddenly asked in a joking tone, "Zhou Mochen, have you ever thought about what would have happened if I hadn’t shown up at the milk tea shop that day?"

The hands on her waist tightened abruptly.

Zhou Mochen buried his face in her neck, inhaling her scent, and spoke in a raspy voice, "Unless you managed to never let me see you again for the rest of your life, to never appear before my eyes again. Otherwise, I still wouldn’t have let you go."

"..." Xu Su was speechless for a moment. "So you’d just chase after me relentlessly, is that it?"

"Mhm..." Zhou Mochen’s voice was laced with a smile. "I can’t bear to let go."

’That’s right...’

’This was the true, obsessive nature of Zhou Mochen’s feelings for her.’

Xu Su posed a hypothetical question. "What if, when we met again, I was already with someone else? Had an intimate partner, or was even married with kids? Would you still interfere?"

"Don’t say such unlucky things."

Zhou Mochen pinched her waist in annoyance. "Your imagination is running wild. Who do you want to marry and have kids with? Xu Su, our fate runs deep. Chang City is a huge place, yet we managed to meet several times within a few days. How could we have missed each other?"

"Answer my question!" Xu Su wouldn’t let it go. "Answer me directly. If you met me and I was already in love with someone else, what would you do?"

"What would I do?" Zhou Mochen’s voice suddenly turned cold. He reached out, turned Xu Su’s chin to face him, and looked at her face, which had grown sassy from being spoiled by him. He let out a low laugh. "Are you sure you want the truth? You won’t be scared?"

Xu Su: "...Yeah."

"Let me think..." Zhou Mochen pretended to ponder for a moment, then said with a smile, "I’d probably find a way to snatch you away..."

His gaze held an unreadable glint. "And ’take care’ of you so well that from body to soul, you’d only remember me."

He enunciated the words "take care" with particular weight. Zhou Mochen placatingly kissed Xu Su’s eyes and coaxed her with a smile, "Falling in love with someone else requires punishment. But don’t be afraid, I wouldn’t have the heart to punish you too harshly."

Xu Su swallowed hard. How could she not understand what he meant?

Taking a deep breath, Xu Su turned and wrapped her arms around his neck, her voice muffled. "Then I’m afraid I’d take you down with me."

’If she truly had a lover she was devoted to, only to be forcefully stolen away by him, she would rather die than give in.’

"Alright."

Zhou Mochen seemed completely unbothered. He chuckled lightly and said, "Then let’s take each other down."

His voice was gentle in her ear, yet the words he spoke were chilling.

Xu Su didn’t know whether to be scared or exasperated.

’This guy is like a mad dog, isn’t he! He’s really latched onto me and won’t let go!’

"Stop letting your imagination run wild. We’re fine, and you won’t be with anyone else." Zhou Mochen stroked Xu Su’s cold face. "Let’s go back. The wind is strong here, don’t catch a cold."

’The college entrance exams are coming up soon. Catching a cold now would be a real problem.’

Xu Su climbed back into the car. Watching the man driving calmly in the driver’s seat, she suddenly blurted out, "No, that’s not right!"

Her intuition screamed that his earlier statement was wrong. "I don’t think you’d do that. Zhou Mochen, last time, when you were so furious after I tricked you, you still didn’t do anything to me. If you really met a version of me who was in love with someone else, you wouldn’t have the heart to do it either."

’He’d waited for two years only to find out he’d been deceived, and even then, he couldn’t bring himself to be cruel. So, in a situation where she hadn’t deceived him, but fate just kept them apart, how could he possibly have the heart to ’punish’ her like he said?’

"Why do you keep thinking about non-existent problems?"

Zhou Mochen glanced at her and sighed. "I’ve never experienced it, so how would I know what I’d really do? Xu Su, what I said just now might have been putting it lightly. If you really did fall in love with someone else, it’s very likely I’d kill you in bed."