Living Only For Myself: Make Those Who Hate Me Regret It

Chapter 277: "I Believe You’re Interested in My Body.

Do you even know what it means to like someone...

Xu Su pressed her lips together tightly, speechless for a moment.

’Like hell I do!’

Gu Yunjia was right. She had never truly cherished anyone’s sincere feelings.

Not Zhou Mochen’s, and not Xi Zirong’s.

Sincere affection was something she’d gotten too easily, so she’d never treasured it, nor did she know how.

"Speak! Aren’t you usually so talkative? Why are you quiet now?" Her speechlessness made her look even more guilty, as if her lie had been exposed. Seeing this, Zhou Mochen’s rage boiled over. He kissed her, biting down. "You like him that much? What’s so good about him? Xu Su, you tell me, how is he better than me!"

"How did he win you over? Tell me. Tell me everything, so I can at least understand why!"

The cuts in Xu Su’s mouth had mostly healed, but Zhou Mochen’s kiss was forceful, and it still hurt her. As if punishing herself, Xu Su didn’t struggle, and tears welled up in her eyes involuntarily.

Zhou Mochen stopped and looked at her, then let out a cold laugh. "What are you crying for? Do you cry when he kisses you, too?"

’He’s completely lost it...’

Xu Su wiped away a tear and threw her arms around his neck. "Whether you believe me or not, I really didn’t do anything with him. We just had a meal. Just... pretend I wasn’t thinking straight. My face was stinging, my ears hurt, my hand hurt, and I couldn’t get in touch with you. He just suddenly showed up, and I didn’t even have time to think before he was pulling me into his car."

"Didn’t even have time to think..." Zhou Mochen repeated slowly, his voice terrifyingly grim. "How much must you trust him to get in his car without a second thought?"

"Even if we broke up, he’s still my classmate. Is it such a crime for me to trust him?" Xu Su explained hurriedly. "Under the same circumstances, if it had been Shen Chen, I would have gotten in his car too."

"How is that the same?" Zhou Mochen demanded sharply. "Don’t you know what my biggest hang-up is?"

"..." Xu Su choked up and obediently admitted her fault. "I was wrong."

"Wrong about what?"

"I shouldn’t have gotten in his car. I shouldn’t have lied to you. I shouldn’t have been so inconsiderate of your feelings." Xu Su critiqued herself with a very sincere attitude.

Zhou Mochen’s eyes narrowed, and he gave a cryptic smile. "Admitting you’re wrong is one thing, but will you dare to do it again?"

"I won’t. I really won’t," Xu Su said, shaking her head repeatedly. "From now on, I’ll consider your feelings in everything I do, okay? I thought about it carefully. You’re right. I like you, but I always end up doing things that hurt you. I’ll change. I don’t want to make you sad."

Thinking about how he was clearly burning with jealousy but had kept it all bottled up, Xu Su felt like a total asshole.

"Why didn’t you come and ask me about it the moment you found out last night? Why not just confront me like you used to and let me explain? By bottling it up and letting your imagination run wild, you’re only making yourself miserable!"

Xu Su hugged him tightly, her heart aching for him. "If I hadn’t started this fight with you, were you just going to pretend you didn’t know?"

"It’s tiring enough for you to spin one lie. Why would I ask you about it?" Zhou Mochen stroked Xu Su’s long hair. "So I can hysterically interrogate you, only to get another lie in return? Xu Su, am I that pathetic to you?"

"...After all I’ve said, you still don’t believe me?"

Xu Su glared at him. "I really do like you, Zhou Mochen. I’ve never liked anyone in my life the way I like you, not even Xi Zirong! Just looking at you is enough to make me happy. I want to hug you every day. I like everything about you. Because I like you, I get hung up on everything you do. I hate it when you treat me like a kid. I fucking like you so much I just want to be all over you, and you still don’t believe me?"

The moment the words left her mouth, Xu Su realized what she’d said, and her whole demeanor crumbled...

She hurriedly dropped the hands that were wrapped around his neck. "Forget it, forget it. If you don’t believe me, then fine. Let’s go eat."

"What’s the rush to eat? Come on, keep talking." The person who’d been so eager to eat suddenly wasn’t in a hurry anymore. He raised an eyebrow, feigning that he hadn’t heard clearly. "You want to be all over me?"

"You misheard..." Xu Su’s face was flushed crimson. ’What do I do? I got carried away in the middle of our argument and exposed my true nature!’

"No wonder you got so angry when I said I treated you like a child." Zhou Mochen clicked his tongue softly and looked at her with a smile. "My Susu really isn’t a kid anymore. My mistake. I failed to consider my girlfriend’s... physiological needs."

"..." Xu Su touched her own face and decided to go for broke. "You’re my boyfriend. Is it wrong for me to want to be close to you? Or would you rather I find someone else?"

Zhou Mochen looked at her, a half-smile on his face. "Xu Su, you remember this: I can give you anything you want. But if you find someone else... I can’t handle that. Someone will die."

The look on his face was genuinely intimidating.

But Xu Su decided to call his bluff. "Are you going to kill me?"

"You? I don’t know... If I still have any sanity left, I might not be able to bring myself to do it." Zhou Mochen’s smile slowly faded, and he looked at her expressionlessly. "But that other person will definitely have to die. No matter who it is."

’That look in his eyes might as well have been spelling out ’Xi Zirong’...’

Xu Su was utterly speechless. "Relax. I’m only interested in this body of yours. I don’t want anyone else. Just you."

"Now that’s what I like to hear." Zhou Mochen nodded in satisfaction and couldn’t resist giving her a kiss. "Let’s go eat. Tonight, I’ll reward my good girl by letting you be all over me."

"..." Xu Su’s lips twitched. "So you’re not angry anymore? You believe that you’re the one I like?"

"Half-convinced, maybe." Zhou Mochen pulled her to her feet. "You have a pretty serious track record. I have to reserve my trust in you."

"Don’t push it!" Xu Su glared at him. "Think about it. With my temper, if I didn’t like you, would I really swallow my pride and coax you like this?"

"That’s a fair point." Zhou Mochen nodded. "But it doesn’t rule out the possibility that you’re just placating me because you’re afraid I’ll go after Xi Zirong."

Xu Su roared, "Zhou Mochen!"

"Alright, alright, I believe you, I believe you." Zhou Mochen put on a helpless look. "I believe you’re interested in my body."

"..." ’That shameless bastard!’

Xu Su was extremely frustrated. She didn’t understand. Wasn’t she the one who was angry at the beginning? How did it end up with her having to coax him?

And coaxing him was one thing, but the problem was she’d been at it for ages, poured her heart out, and used up a lifetime’s—no, two lifetimes’—worth of sweet-talk all at once...

And he was still playing hard to get!

When the reconciled young couple returned to the restaurant, Shen Chen was already half-full.

He looked at Xu Su, who was flushed and clearly no longer angry, and sighed deeply. "I’ve misunderstood you all this time."

Xu Su shoveled a mouthful of rice and asked curiously, "What?"

Shen Chen said, "I always thought you only had a bad temper with me. Today I learned that our dear Xu just has a fiery temper in general."

"..." Thinking about what she had just said, Xu Su felt a little embarrassed. She shot Shen Chen a glare. "Shut up!"

Zhou Mochen glanced across the table. "If you’re full, get out."