Little girl space upgrade

344 Self Disgust

Qi Qi started the cup again, shaking her fingers lightly, picking up a teaspoon from time to time to fiddle with it twice, and after a while she made another picture of a pine and a crane. Not only is the pattern beautiful, but the meaning is even better.

The room was bustling with activity, when she saw a little palace maid coming in from outside, she gave Yun mother a wink, and Yun nurse hurriedly walked over, Qiqi heard the little palace maid whisper, "Outside the virtuous concubine Guo Luoluo and Shu The nobleman Fucha is here."

"What are they doing here so late?" Nanny Yun frowned, and then glanced at Yunlu again. One of these two ladies is his sister-in-law of Fujin, and the other is his cousin of Fujin.Seeing that this is not the time to ask for peace, did you hear some rumors to find out the truth?

"What else can you do? Everyone is restless!" Wang Taifei snorted coldly when she heard the return, and her happy expression also restrained. They saw that Xiao Shiliu had a good relationship with the emperor, and they had real power in their hands, so they could not fight. To curry favor with the people in his house?I'm afraid I still think that if we form an alliance in the future, it will be beneficial to everyone in the palace and outside the palace.Short-sighted and superficial, but also a noble lady!It's not as good as coming out of a small place like theirs.

Wang Taifei has never liked those so-called noble girls very much, because she herself has been bullied and looked down upon by these people.

"If Er Niang doesn't like it, then it's fine, why bother to be angry with them." Yunlu knew that Er Niang didn't like those women in his house, and even these relatives who didn't like them, seeing the old lady in a bad mood, she was busy advise.

"Forget it, face is always given, after all, they are also the emperor's women." Wang Taifei pursed her lips.Said to Yunlu and Qiqi, "You two should go inside to hide first, Qiqi or Xiunu let them see that it's not good to spread any gossip."

Qiqi nodded obediently, she didn't want to kneel on her knees.Avoid it if you can!

But Yun Lu said, "In this case, she and I will go back first, and we will come to see Eniang another day, it will not be too early now."

"Alright." Although Wang Taifei was still a little bit reluctant to part with Qi Qi, she also knew that the future would be long, so she nodded and said to Nanny Yun, "Yun Duo, it's cold outside, use my sedan chair to take this girl back. Pick a more remote place. Don't be too conspicuous."

Qiqiyi heard that she was going to be sent off in a sedan chair.Hastily declined, "No need for Er Niang, just find a maid to take me back. I'm not afraid of the cold."

"My child, it's a long way to go! Listen to me, don't be stubborn, you'll be fine, you'll be supported by my mother. Just go back and have a good rest, and my mother will come to play with you tomorrow." After saying that, she greeted The little eunuch beside him said, "Go, come over with some snacks."

And took Qiqi's hand and told him worriedly, "When you go back, eat less of the food inside, who knows if it's clean or not? There are many things in this draft. I heard..."

"Emiang, the people outside are waiting impatiently. If there is anything you can't eat with my protection, that's fine, let's go." Yunlu interrupted her when she heard that Emiang was going to tell those so-called stories again, Does it make sense to talk about it?

Qi Qi was very touched by the unreserved concern of Princess Wang, she nodded her head repeatedly to express that she would definitely come to accompany her tomorrow, and then the Princess Wang let her go, and a small palace maid took Yun Lu and Qi Qi out from the side door, and Qi Qi was far away. Hearing the voices of two delicate female voices saying hello, "Greetings to the empress dowager."

It was different from Wang Taifei's cold voice, "Get up! Do you have something to do in the palace of Aijia so late?"

Afterwards, what we talked about became more hazy. Qiqi saw that the weather was getting darker after leaving the dormitory of Wang Taifei. It was relatively early in the evening in early spring. I got into the sedan chair I was already waiting for. Quiet, not only desolate but also a little scary, there is no sound of people around, only the light footsteps of the little eunuchs carrying the sedan chair outside.

"What? Are you scared?" After leaving Wang Taifei's courtyard, Yunlu told the little eunuchs and maids that he was going out of the palace. In fact, he just went out for a while and then came back stealthily to follow behind Qi Qi. At this time, he felt Her mood was a little unstable and she laughed.

"Who, who is scared? I have nothing to be afraid of." Ordinarily, she should be the most daring one. She has died once and seen so many ghosts. What is there to do when she is walking at night? I'm so worried, maybe I can do more business if I meet a few more ghosts!But people are very strange in their hearts. They may not be afraid when they see it, but it is much more terrifying when they think about it.

"Just be tough!"

Qiqi pursed her lips, and didn't try to defend herself, knowing that people wouldn't believe her, so she simply didn't explain, but she was actually a little scared.hey-hey…

After thinking for a while, he asked in a low voice, "You interrupted what the empress dowager concubine was going to say just now, so why don't you tell me about it? What happened during the draft? Is it really so dangerous?"

"What's your name, Empress Dowager? Wasn't she still called Erniang just now?" Yunlu was dissatisfied with Qi Qi's change of title, and lightly reprimanded him before saying, "Actually, it's nothing. That draft was not all such bad ideas." It's a matter of calculation and calculation, but because some people watch it, there are very few major incidents that cost lives, but it's just something that hurts the appearance and gets a little illness!"

It's all disfigured and sick, isn't it a big deal?Qiqi curled her lips disapprovingly of the ancient royal family's disregard for human life, just about to say something sarcastic, but was secretly startled.What about her?What is her attitude towards life?

In these years, except for those close to her, she will try her best to change her bad fate, but after several failures, is she a little disheartened?She feels that as long as she works hard and the result cannot be changed, it means that her destiny cannot be violated, and there is nothing she can do about it?

Are you still watching with cold eyes as an outsider all these years?Do you always feel that you don't belong here, or do you have a mentality that you are superior to others and have everything in your hands?So wherever you go, you want to watch a show, and you don't take it too seriously?Does this mean that not only did I not fit into this world well, but I also had some disregard for the people in this world?

The more rooms in the space are opened, the more things she can rely on, the more she feels that she is great?Is it because I want to keep a hole card for being reluctant to tell Yun Lu about space?Or is it because you are selfish and don't want to share the secrets of this space with others?Want to make yourself the most capable and capable person in the world?Although this one is most hidden in the dark...

In the last life, although others looked at her contentedly and happily, only she knew the deep inferiority complex she buried deep in her heart. Who would really want to beg for food in the street under the cold eyes of others?Doesn't she want to sit in a bright classroom with her schoolbag on her back and read and write?Although she laughed at herself that white-collar beauties are not as comfortable as her, but who knows the rolling envy in her heart...

All these things were changed after reincarnation. She had space and the convenience of trading with ghosts to easily obtain talents. That's why she was unstable and faintly complacent. As an outsider, the attitude of looking down on everything is not aloof, is it a kind of demon?

The more Qiqi thought about it, the more frightened she became, and she fell into a demonic barrier. Yunlu immediately realized that there was something wrong with her, and he couldn't care less about frowning and sneaking into the sedan chair, only to see Qiqi's pale face, covered in cold sweat, busy Holding her in his arms, he took out a large fur cloak from the storage bag and wrapped it around her, "Qiqi? Qiqi, wake up, what's wrong with you?"

Yunlu patted her small face, and read it three times in a row, light hearted decision entered Qiqi's mind, Qiqi suddenly felt a little light-headed, and seemed to have something that she couldn't figure out in a daze just now some awareness.

Seeing Yun Lu's anxious eyes, feeling guilty and inexplicably wronged, hugged his neck and cried softly, "I'm sorry, I'm really sorry, I didn't mean it, and it's not that I don't believe you, I'm sorry..."

"What are you talking about? Did you accidentally fall asleep and have a nightmare just now?" Yun Lu patted Qiqi's back, soothing her emotions bit by bit.

Qiqi just shook her head and remained silent. She hadn't sorted out her mood yet, and didn't know what attitude to use to face him, but she knew that her previous actions and ideas were too ridiculous and wrong.She has obviously been reincarnated into this world, and she can never go back. She in the previous life has long been a memory, and only Qiqi is her in this life. How can she still pretend that she is in the book of The World of Red Mansions? ?

She couldn't just run away with guilt because she didn't save Moyu and her adoptive father and mother, thinking that this is a book anyway, and I can't change it no matter what, did she do her best?If she works hard, she can still change a lot of things!Hasn't she already changed the fate of Xiaohong and Qingwen?

But she just watched from the sidelines, thinking that the fate of the little people can be changed, but she can't do anything about the fate of the big people. She doesn't care about Yingchun and Xichun. They are still young and can change their personalities a little bit. Guided to change, but she just watched and did nothing, too selfish, too cold-blooded.

Since she felt that she couldn't change it, why did she still work hard for Daiyu?To put it bluntly, it's not because Sanchun has the same relationship with her, so she...

Qiqi buried her head deeply in Yunlu's arms, ashamed of her own selfishness and indifference!

"What's the matter? Are you really scared? Because of what?" Yun Lu is not good at words, and he is not very good at comforting others. Seeing Qi Qi like this, besides hugging her tightly, he doesn't know what else to do to make her feel better.

Qi Qi shook her head without making a sound, but buried herself in his arms and refused to come out, surrounded by a strong sense of self-disgust, she seemed to have returned to the little girl who knelt on the side of the street and was ridiculed by others, The self who was crying and huddled in the corner...