novelraw Chapter 141 I am just as weak
Chapter 141 I am just as weak
Chapter 141 I'm just as weak
Lu Yue was kicked out of the bedroom.
Or rather, it would be more accurate to say they were "kicked out".
The moment Shen Zixin closed the door, she almost instinctively locked it from the inside.
He completely rejected the woman's advances.
Then, Shen Zixin sat on the bed, hugged her knees tightly, and buried her face deeply in them—
Noah stood there silently.
The sound of Su Qingyuan sobbing intermittently could be heard from outside the door, along with the sound of her pounding on the door.
"Zixin—Don't do this—Open the door—"
Theoretically, Su Qingyuan could certainly transform into a magical girl and kick the door open. However, doing so would be completely pointless—
The closing of the door represents a rejection from the heart. If Shen Zixin hadn't opened the door herself, forcibly breaking in would only have caused greater conflict.
Hearing Su Qingyuan's cries outside, Noah felt no pity; she was more worried about the mental state of her other "self".
Finally, somewhat impatiently, she walked to the door and opened the bedroom door.
The woman with the face of "Lu Yue" was standing in front of the door. When she saw Noah open the door, a glimmer of hope instantly ignited in her eyes, and she reached out and grabbed Noah's sleeve.
"That—I—I'm sorry—I—" Noah completely ignored her, instead shoving Su Qingyuan to the ground. Then, Noah looked down at her with the cold gaze one would give trash.
"Don't touch me. Also, we're about to go to sleep, can you please be quiet?"
"If you really feel guilty, then think about who you should apologize to."
After saying this, Noah slammed the door shut again without hesitation, leaving Su Qingyuan outside.
After Noah's reprimand, there was indeed no more noise outside the door.
Seeing that Su Qingyuan had stopped making a fuss, Noah slowly walked to the bedside and sat down. Looking at her lost and dejected self, Noah felt a pang of pain in her heart.
As expected—it still turned out this way.
"I" simply cannot accept all of this. However, most people probably wouldn't be able to accept such a thing either.
Looking at Shen Zixin, Noah seemed to see her reflection in a mirror.
The difference is that Shen Zixin now retains his gentleness. But back then, he used the most vicious words to curse the woman who was groveling at his feet.
Her bond with her "sister" is real, their memories are real, and their deep connection through life and death is real.
However, the thought that her enemy had taken her sister's place and enjoyed all of this made Noah want to kill him on the spot.
Ironically, Su Qingyuan in both timelines saved "herself" more than once. Moreover—it could even be said that she was willing to expose her own secret in order to save herself.
So, upon learning the truth, Noah only hurled insults at her and then banished her from her world forever.
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"What should I do?"
After a long silence, the "other self" curled up on the bed asked in a low voice.
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Noah looked at him, a pang of sorrow welling up in her heart.
Yes, what should we do?
She had asked herself this question countless times.
"Even if you ask me—you're asking for an answer you already know. Because this is also—the pain I've already experienced."
"My choice is—I will never forgive her. But I will not kill her either—after all, she saved my life."
Upon hearing this answer, Shen Zixin let out a soft laugh that sounded like self-mockery.
"—Is that so? I—I think so too."
Then, Shen Zixin's thoughts involuntarily returned to that night a few months ago.
It was in this bedroom that Noah first revealed to him the vulnerability and sin she had buried deep within her heart. And after hearing her story, he reached out to her without hesitation.
Give me all that pain, all that confusion, all that past that you can't even forgive yourself for.
Let me share this burden with you.
Because I am you. And you are me. No matter what you have done, no matter where you are going—I will always stand by your side.
How arrogant I was when I said those words.
It turns out that it was only because what Noah told him that night was an experience unique to Noah—and those things had not actually happened to him—that he could speak those words in a seemingly authoritative manner.
He thought he was ready and prepared to share Noah's pain.
However, once he found himself in the situation, he discovered that he was not as strong as he had imagined.
I felt like I was about to collapse after experiencing only a small part of Noah's despair.
What kind of deeper despair will Noah experience in the future? Will I, too, have to go through it all?
In the end—the truly weak one is oneself.
Noah watched all this calmly without saying anything, and slowly walked to the light switch and turned off the bedroom light.
As darkness fell, Noah slowly made her way to the edge of the bed and sat down next to Shen Zixin.
"It's okay."
She reached out and gently embraced "another version of herself".
"That night—when I was in the most pain and despair, you lent me your shoulder, allowing me to cry all night without restraint."
"Then, tonight—you can cry your heart out in my arms."
Noah hugged him tighter, feeling her other self trembling slightly.
"If you want to cry, then cry it out."
"We are all weak, but when it comes to 'ourselves,' there's no point in hiding it, is there?"
There's nothing shameful about crying.
Feeling Noah's body temperature, Shen Zixin's voice began to choke up—
"No way—I had the audacity to say before that I would share all of this with you—but now I've become like this—it's so pathetic—"
"Isn't this a two-way street? Why can't I help you share all of this?"
"It's because I've been through all of this that I understand your pain. You want to stand with me—and so do I—we're the same."
Noah stroked his back, constantly comforting Shen Zixin's wounded soul.
"You've done more than enough."
Shen Zixin's body trembled slightly, and finally, a low sob came from Noah's arms.
Like a wronged child, he buried his head in Noah's chest, letting all his pain flow out in tears.
Noah simply held him quietly, without saying anything more.
She was powerless to change the tragedy that had already occurred. But Noah silently vowed in her heart that she would never let "another version of herself" suffer the same hardships she had endured.
Now, let the tears wash everything away.
Until—the dawn.
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