I'm a magical girl in the future

Chapter 132 The Madness of the Diary

"After the 'unexpected natural disaster,' I returned to the ruins of the original laboratory and found this diary. I saw that the owner of this diary was Su Qingyuan, so I kept it. After all, it is her keepsake... and also a bond of our 'family.'"

After hearing Fu Xin's explanation, Shen Zixin's initial excitement was immediately dampened, turning into a heavy sense of disappointment.

His and his older sister's initial reason for going to Guangyang City to sweep the tombs was to visit their family. And among the names of the victims engraved on the stone wall in the memorial park... was Qingyuan's name.

So... Sister Qingyuan's death is officially confirmed.

Indeed, such a miracle does not exist in the world.

"Then why... did you give me this diary?" Shen Zixin asked.

"Ah, you'll see when you take a look. Because this diary... records a lot about you. I think it's necessary for you to see it."

Upon hearing this, Shen Zixin lowered her head to read the diary, but then suddenly remembered something—

"So... who are you in the lab?"

"Huh? As for me..." Upon hearing this, Fu Xin looked slightly embarrassed. "You probably don't remember me. After all, we weren't close back then, and we didn't exchange more than a few words."

"Huh? But you seem to remember me?"

"That's different! You were the only boy in the lab back then! Everyone basically knew you, but you might not remember everyone!" He clapped his hands in front of his chest. "In private, you were very popular with girls! You were practically the empress of a harem surrounded by beauties! It's just that you didn't know how lucky you were to live among women."

"...I don't want to call this a 'harem'." Shen Zixin rolled her eyes at her, somewhat speechless. "Besides, how old was I back then?"

"You were 13 years old when the 'unexpected natural disaster' happened, I remember it very clearly. It's normal to have budding feelings for girls at that age."

"I'm not that precocious... So, who exactly are you in the lab?"

"Waaah, little brother Zixin, you definitely don't remember me..." Zixin sighed, feeling a little disappointed. "I'm Wang Xue."

The moment the name was uttered, Shen Zixin was momentarily puzzled—this name was so common...did she really exist in the lab before?

Seeing Shen Zixin's reaction, the expression on his face immediately fell. He puffed out his cheeks in feigned dissatisfaction, "See? I told you you definitely didn't remember me! You were only hanging out with Lu Yue and Su Qingyuan back then, we barely exchanged a few words."

"Um... I'm sorry..." Shen Zixin lowered her head shyly. "Then... how about... you deactivate your magical girl transformation first, and let me see what you look like in your true form? Maybe then I'll remember."

"No way. I'm almost thirty, how could I look as good as I do at eighteen? Besides, ten years have passed, my appearance must be very different now, right? You probably wouldn't even remember me if you saw me."

Seeing Shen Zixin's somewhat embarrassed expression, she chuckled again and waved her hand, "Although I'm not happy to be forgotten, but... after all, you're my favorite 'Zixin little brother,' so I'll reluctantly forgive you."

Then, he patted his heart and looked at the diary in Shen Zixin's hand, his expression becoming more serious—

"Instead of that... let's get back to the main point. Let's take a look at Su Qingyuan's diary, and see what that girl is like... her inner world."

Then, she patted her heart, stood up, and walked towards the door.

"I suggest you read this diary alone when you get to it, so I won't bother you any longer."

After saying that, he patted his heart, opened the door, and quietly left, leaving Shen Zixin alone in the room.

Shen Zixin took a deep breath, refocused her attention on the notebook in her hands, and slowly began to flip through its contents.

To be honest, the diary entries were somewhat depressing.

Su Qingyuan's diary is mostly filled with accounts of her daily bullying and isolation. Interspersed within are emotions such as resentment, jealousy, and anger…

However, later on, "Shen Zixin" was mentioned almost every day.

[They splashed water on me with a basin again today, my clothes are all wet, and I'm so cold. Why do they always bully me? I just wanted to stay quiet... Thankfully, Sister Lu Yue stood up for me again... She's truly amazing.]

Today, my little brother Zixin had lunch with me. Hehe, he even asked my aunt for a few extra meat patties for me. So happy!

Ah, my little brother Zixin apologized to me today… He said he saw me being bullied yesterday, but he was too scared to stand up for me. How could that be? I'm so happy he even thought of that. He's still so young; it's too much to ask him to face girls older than him. That he thinks of me like that is enough.

Lately, Zixin's younger brother and I have been getting too close... and the way people look at me seems even more disapproving. Today they hid my homework, which caused me to get scolded by the teacher. Although I'm very upset, the thought that Zixin's younger brother will come to see me tomorrow makes me feel like... it's not such a big deal.

[It seems like my younger brother, Zixin, really likes Sister Lu Yue. And it makes sense; Sister Lu Yue is so cheerful and strong, it's so nice to see them together. It's wonderful that the two most important people in my life can get along so well.]

Shen Zixin's younger brother seems to be getting too close to Lu Yue... I'm a little unhappy about it. But they're both important friends and family to me... Why do I feel this way?

Why...why is Zixin's younger brother Lu Yue's "younger brother"? Clearly...clearly I was here first...why? This feeling is so unfair. Unfairly unfair ...

[Thinking about it, it makes sense. How could anyone like someone like me, a "thief"? Lu Yue is so outstanding, it's only natural that Shen Zixin's younger brother would like her, right?]

I envy Lu Yue so much... I envy her being able to stand so naturally beside Zi Xin's younger brother. If... if only I could be her.

The handwriting on the last page was blurred due to the tears.

Shen Zixin closed her notebook and remained silent for a long time.

He always thought that Sister Qingyuan was just an introverted, pitiful "family member" who needed to be protected.

That admiration, that jealousy, that self-loathing... all were silently buried in the disaster ten years ago, and only today, through this old diary, have they belatedly been revealed to him.