novelraw Chapter 133 The Organ Monologue
Chapter 133 The Organ Monologue
Chapter 133 The Organ Monologue
"Senior, I think of some kind of urban legend I once heard from a friend."
"Ok?"
"It is said that among the group of teenagers, very few people suffer from a disease called 'puberty syndrome'."
"Disease?" Bai Yuan was taken aback, wait, he remembered a certain drama that he had watched in his previous life, it was very similar!
"Adolescents suffering from this disease will have certain incredible phenomena themselves. It is said that there are 'hearing the voices of others', 'manifestation of trauma', 'predicting the future', 'Laplace's demon', 'between someone and someone'. soul exchange' and other phenomena that are difficult for ordinary people to understand."
"You mean..."
"Yes, there is a high possibility of puberty syndrome on Senior Sister Organ!"
Although listening to Kaoru Amamiya's explanation, Kashiwahara is still a little unbelievable, but it seems that it can explain why the piano has such a change.
"So, if there is really no problem with the piano, then the problem lies with senior sister organ, isn't it?"
"Well."
Bai Yuan nodded slightly, although he still doubted in his heart that what organ suffered from was not puberty syndrome, but a mental illness.
"However, thank you very much. Please don't tell others about it. I don't want the organ to bother you." Bai Yuan nodded gratefully.
"Hee hee, don't worry, I won't say it out, but well~" Yu Gongxun's eyes kept wandering, looking ambiguous, and he stepped forward and asked in front of Bai Yuan:
"Could it be that you like senior sister organ?"
like?
"Nothing." Bai Yuan smiled unnaturally, but the clever school girl saw the clue and snorted softly:
"Is the senior a good liar? Hee hee, ah, it's getting late, I'm going back to the classroom first."
"Bye-Bye."
Bai Yuan smiled and watched the girl's back as she left. The two braids flicked and flicked, looking lively and cute.
Although Yu Gong Xuemei is not beautiful, but for some reason, Bai Yuan always feels very relaxed and comfortable when getting along with her.
The two get along as harmonious and natural as friends.
When Kashiwahara asked where the organ was, she replied that she had returned to Class A.
Deliberately passing by the door of Class A, Kashiwahara cast his eyes inward, and the girl sitting at the first table in the first row frowned slightly.
Bai Yuan smiled lightly, it seemed that there was nothing unusual, so he was relieved for the time being.
three days later
It's already late June.
The weather is getting hotter, and the chirping of birds in the lush woods is not as pleasant as spring.
Everything looked sickly.
The students are looking forward to the coming of July, and the end of July is the time for summer vacation.
Staying at home as a rice bug, or going to the seaside to travel, or organizing clubs to study together in the mountains and forests, are many times better than staying in a boring classroom.
Kashiwahara lay melancholy on the metal desk, and suddenly felt that Sequence 6's ability to warm the sun in winter is also good, that warm-yang physique can not be afraid of cold or heat, and the four seasons are like spring, how wonderful.
The second LINE message, sent to Asaba Chizuru.
But it has been two days and no reply yet.
Closed?He thought boredly.
The first is from the organ.
In other words, in the past three days, Organ never eats lunch in the literature department, but always says to go to the cafeteria.
Could it be that he is deliberately alienating himself?
But at night, when Bai Yuan went to the literature department, she was normal.
But Bai Yuan still kept an eye on it, and sat with the girl silently until five o'clock or six o'clock.
He would be relieved only after he would silently watch her get into Aunt Ling's car.
The girl knew what Bai Yuan was worried about, but she didn't say a word, and she didn't want to talk to Bai Yuan.
After class in the evening, Narumi Ryoma said that he would go to the dojo in the evening to ask his godfather for advice on swordsmanship. When Kashiwahara was thinking about it, he happened to receive a message from LINE.
【Don't wait for me in the literature department at night, I'm already home】
Information from the organ.
As the girl said, Kashiwahara was bored in the Literature Department by himself, so he packed his schoolbag and walked out of class with Yamazaki.
Walking out of the teaching building, walking across the pond and the tree-lined path, Yamazaki was chattering along the way, talking to Kashiwahara about some pornographic waste that he had just heard, laughing alone there.
Bai Yuan shook his head pityingly, boy, when are you like this, when will you find a girlfriend?
However, Masato Yamazaki was so happy that he laughed and invited Kashiwahara to play pinball without knowing it.
Kashiwahara would not go to pinball, which is almost the same as gambling. He shook his head and advised Yamazaki not to go either.
Yamazaki didn't listen, Kashiwahara was helpless, but Yamazaki's family seemed to have a little money, and they gave him a lot of pocket money, and they always made small troubles, so Kashiwahara didn't say anything.
On the ramp after school, there were lively atmosphere of students playing and laughing, blending into the young crowd, Bai Yuan also seemed like an ignorant teenager.
Although his mental age is more than seventeen.
Walking out of the school gate, during the time after school, there are many private cars outside the campus.
Kashiwahara and Yamazaki were chatting and laughing, but when they reached the intersection, they noticed a silver car that was barely noticeable from the corner of their eyes, which made him stunned.
If it wasn't for seeing him often these days, Bai Yuan would be easily overlooked in so many private cars.
But why is Aunt Ling's car still here?
If Organ goes home, she must be in Aunt Ling's car.
"What's the matter Kashiwahara?" Yamazaki asked puzzled seeing Kashiwahara stunned.
"Yamazaki, you go first, I have something to do."
After finishing speaking, Kashiwahara quickly walked towards the silver car, Yamazaki was taken aback and shrugged, Kashiwahara was puzzled again.
Knock on Aunt Ling's car window and meet her puzzled eyes: "Bai Yuan-jun, what's wrong?"
"Well, didn't the organ say she was going home?"
"Oh, the organ, she said she has something to do at school and she has to come out later." Aunt Ling asked curiously if she didn't go with Bai Yuan.
"No, it's fine."
Bai Yuan subconsciously shook his head and dialed Xia Zhi, the organ.
However, no one answered the phone.
"What's wrong, Kashiwahara-kun?"
Bai Yuan's serious expression made Aunt Ling a little restless.
"fine."
Even so, Bai Yuan turned around quickly, ignoring the surprised eyes of his classmates, and rushed back to the campus.
Deep uneasiness enveloped his heart, making every pore of Bai Yuan start to tremble.
Recalling that day, when the organ leaned out of the window, those dull eyes.
That dazed, helpless eyes that seem to have lost all meaning in life.
"Don't... don't act like an idiot..."
Kashiwahara gritted his teeth and accelerated to run around the campus.
Hurry up, hurry up!
"Miss Hanyu, have you seen the organ?"
When he searched the Literature Department and Class A but found no trace of the organ, he called Hanyu-san and said hastily.
"...Not really. What's the matter?"
"Excuse me, has the teacher in charge of the last class of the organ in the afternoon seen it?"
"I'll ask, wait a minute."
"..."
"Kashiwahara, no, what happened?" Hanyu Kirino asked worriedly.
Bai Yuan frowned, standing by the flower bed, pacing back and forth, not knowing what to say or not.
While hesitating and distressed, he inadvertently raised his head, and when he saw the figure on the top of the roof, he suddenly froze.
"I'm sorry Miss Hanyu, I'll call you back later..."
He hung up the phone in a loud voice, and then ran like crazy towards the club building.
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"Let's go! Let's go! Sorry, let's go!"
Groups of students were walking on the stairs of the club building. He rushed up, shouting apologies, and everyone gave way to him in a panic, all looking at each other in blank dismay.
Before he knew it, beads of sweat hung on Bai Yuan's forehead.
However, as he got closer to the rooftop, he subconsciously controlled his voice.
The sun has been obscured by dark clouds.
The wind at four o'clock is very cold on the body.
Bai Yuan pursed his lips, controlled his rapid breathing, and slowly opened the iron door of the roof, trying not to make a sound.
The roof poured with cement shows an indifferent gray color.
The cold wind kept whistling, blowing against his clothes, rustling.
The bewildered figure of the girl came into view, standing so alone on the rooftop.
When he stood on the roof of the club building, the noisy laughter on campus seemed to be cut off.
Only the bitter cold wind surrounded him.
But what is the girl thinking?
When she stood on the edge of life and death, looking into the distance, all the scenery and characters were so small in her eyes.
The hustle and bustle was quickly removed, and the meaningless things were also removed.
As if in high altitude, wrapped in cold wind, shrouded in endless loneliness.
She looked to the side, showing an inexplicable smile, and asked with her cold white mouth:
"Mom... Will I be able to be with you if I walk down?"
【Yes】
'Mom' replied with a smile.
"I see." Organ showed a calm smile.
Mom, I have extended an invitation to her, as long as I walk down, I can go to that world together.
Presumably, it must be a carefree world, right?In the world where only you and your mother exist, you no longer have to worry about being separated, and you will be together forever and ever.
In this world, there is nothing to remember. Dad now has his own happy family. Every New Year, the three of them seem to be the one who is out of place, and Dad will always show an embarrassed smile.
No one cares about themselves, no one...
The meaning of her existence is only to serve as a benchmark and model for others.
No one will care about their departure and disappearance.
Organ's eyes gradually lost their light, recalling the past.
Since she was too good at urination, she was always praised by the teacher with joy, and she was cold and beautiful, but she was always excluded by her classmates.
Secretly being talked about as out of gregarious and arrogant, on the surface there are also strange and jealous eyes.
Every time she comes back from class, the stationery is always messed up and the books are messy.
The students on the side whispered and cast gloating glances.
She always knelt down silently and calmly to pick it up.
Even if some people couldn't bear it, the surrounding 'air' was filled with the smell of being alienated from the organ, so they had no choice but to remain silent.
From kindergarten to elementary school to junior high school.
For her, the lifestyle was no different.
She is always alone at school, even if someone is willing to be with her, they approach her with curiosity or various purposes, which makes her disliked. Soon, those people cannot penetrate the hard heart of the organ and are stopped Then leave angrily.
In fact, as long as the organ changes a bit, and the temperament is not so cold or even indifferent, it will be welcomed by the students.
But Organ just chooses to be herself, she doesn't like to cater to others, and she won't put down her figure to please others.
For her, time is not seven years.
Instead, it was repeated more than 2000 times a day.
It's just that my mother left temporarily.
Organ's father is an entrepreneur, and his mother is a piano teacher. Shortly after giving birth to Organ, the two divorced because of personality differences.
She has always lived with her mother.
My mother's salary is about [-] yen, and I can barely live in Tokyo.
Her mother stubbornly refused her father's call for living expenses, thinking it was a charity.
The organ's mother teaches the piano to students outside of class from time to time, and the life of the mother and daughter is still reluctant.
Since childhood, the organ has been given high hopes by her mother and treated with the strictest requirements, whether it is the piano, or academic performance, upbringing and etiquette.
The mother of the organ requires the organ to be the first.
The mother's tough temper naturally affected her daughter, and the organ did not disappoint her.
Organ was isolated at school and did not tell her mother.
When she was ten years old, Feng Qin's mother passed away due to illness. After learning about it, her father made arrangements for her funeral and took the young Feng Qin back to live with her.
However, after not seeing each other for many years, the father and daughter are very strange, and they can't find any appearance of relatives at all. The cold atmosphere around them makes Organ's father embarrassed and uncomfortable.
Because he couldn't accompany and take care of his daughter because of work, he paid someone to take care of the organ. Later, he had a new family. Gradually, although he gave the organ the best material life, he rarely came to visit.
After that, the father and daughter will only meet each other at the end of the year.
The father and daughter have acquiesced to such a lifestyle and do not disturb each other.
For Organ, before the age of ten, it was her mother who lived with herself in this world, and after she was ten years old, she lived alone in this world.
People in the world are only divided into herself and outsiders by her.
Life is meaningless and boring to her, she has nothing to pursue, and she sees everything in her eyes about the boring future.
It's just that the girl's youth came as scheduled.
Meet someone different.
This boy broke her ancient heart and made her feel the fluctuations in her mind that she had never had before.
He has a gentle temperament and is sometimes an unruly bad guy.
It's also one of the few people she cares about.
Perhaps, among the nearly 70 billion people, Bo Yuan was to her, just like thousands of boys, she didn't need him, and he didn't need her.
For Rose, Kashiwahara, the fox, is no different from thousands of boys.
However, they could have tamed each other, could have become each other's only, could have become each other's indispensable existence.
But in the end...
At her most distraught, 'Mom' is back
……
The aimless thoughts stopped spreading, the organ's clear eyes closed at some point, the little black leather shoes were raised to the side, and the slender body swayed slightly in the bitter wind.
"Mother……"
The girl muttered to herself.
"Wait... Organ, please don't make such a joke!"
A helpless but suppressed angry voice sounded from behind her.
The footsteps gradually approached, causing the organ to slightly open its eyes.
Barely standing on her feet, she knew who it was.
"You came?"
The organ didn't seem to care, it had already been expected.
Yes, for some reason, Organ felt that Bai Yuan would definitely appear.
From her intuition.
"What are you doing? Don't be a fool, you idiot!"
This is about 20 meters from the ground. If it falls, the chance of survival is less than 10%.
Bai Yuan knew this very well, so he approached slowly, for fear of irritating the organ, but the organ seemed to be unable to stand for a long time, and a shake made him stop quickly::
"Please stop and look at me."
"Mom... said she would take me to her world..."
This answer made Kashiwahara almost suffocate.
Organ's mother passed away seven years ago.
"You... what are you talking about? Don't be kidding, your mother passed away seven years ago, don't you remember!"
"Dead? No... Mom just left for a while, and now she's back."
On the edge of the solitary rooftop, Organ looked at her 'mother' silently watching her with her dull eyes, showing an inexplicable smile.
"Mom is always with me."
(End of this chapter)