Huh? The Tyrant Cries After My Inner Thoughts Were Exposed!

Chapter 258: Song Qianhang (Extra)

My elder brother got married, a marriage bestowed by Your Majesty. He feels this marriage disgraced him because the other party is just a merchant’s daughter. However, I heard that it was he himself who agreed to it before Your Majesty.

My elder brother is interested in Liu Miaoying, the daughter of the Chief Secretary, which is known throughout Capital City. The Emperor could have chosen someone else, but to win the Emperor’s favor, he married her.

I have seen countless women, those with good looks and those with good figures. At a glance, I could see that this girl’s appearance is exceptionally outstanding, not inferior to Liu Miaoying, who is known as the first beauty of Capital City. But she’s a bit young, her beauty not yet fully developed. Who knows what she’ll blossom into in a year or two.

Su Juan has an interesting nature. Like me, she enjoys listening to songs and admiring beauties. She often pulls me along to Baihua Building and even wants to visit Chunxiang Building, but I would never go to Chunxiang Building again.

Whenever I think about Chunxiang Building, my waist starts to ache faintly; it’s truly embarrassing.

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Su Juan is nice, but my elder brother is not the kind of person who knows when enough is enough. He wants everything, but Miss Liu does not care for him. I’ve met Liu Miaoying a few times, she’s a girl with definite opinions, and her mind and ambition are not tied to romance; otherwise, she would have married Liu Xuan years ago.

Actually, since I was young, I’ve always liked my elder brother and wanted to be close to him, but he never really liked me.

Whenever I excelled in calligraphy, reading, or writing, he would be displeased.

Yet, in our childhood, he was once a caring elder brother, shielding me from many scoldings, but I don’t know when he started becoming distant.

I began not standing out in everything, hoping to mend our brotherly relationship, but he remained distant, his temper growing increasingly strange, to the point where I began to fear him, always feeling he had become a different person.

Su Juan tricked me into copying the "Lessons for Women" for her. I couldn’t stand reading those backward thoughts, but my elder brother used it as a punishment to make her copy it.

That day, I worried that since my elder brother and I had practiced calligraphy together since childhood, he would definitely recognize my handwriting, just like I could recognize his.

But days passed, and he showed no unusual reaction, not recognizing it was my handwriting at all.

On the day Su Juan told me about my elder brother’s murderous intent towards me, I honestly didn’t believe it. But the signs were clear — my elder brother had no brotherly feelings for me at all. In his heart, he cared for neither our father nor our mother, only power. He wanted to vie for that position because the current Emperor had no offspring.

I went from disbelief to fear; after all, no one wants to die. I began planning to move out of the Prince Mansion.

On New Year’s Eve, our family entered the palace for the feast. Su Juan wore a new dress made from materials previously bestowed by the Empress — it looked very nice. No noblewoman in Capital City had such material, showing the Empress really liked her.

Over half a year, she had grown quite a bit, her features more refined. With applied makeup, her fair cheeks had a rosy tint, and her lips were colored with rouge.

Clearly, I was right from the start; once her features matured, she became a real beauty.

Father kept hinting at her wanting that warm clothing, but her mind was solely on entering the palace, thinking only about the food inside.

Father said I didn’t understand him, but I felt, how could anyone understand without him saying a word?

With Su Juan’s personality, if you don’t speak plainly, she’s too lazy to guess, finding it troublesome.

When we arrived at the palace, the night had already darkened, and the first snowfall of New Year’s Eve was quite beautiful.

She didn’t stand firm when getting off the carriage and bumped into me. I bent down to pick up the umbrella that had fallen and held it for her, "It’s okay."

After all, I’m not like my elder brother, who loses his temper easily.

She still had a bit of a young girl’s heart, reaching out to catch the falling snowflakes, ["It’s so beautiful."]

I looked over too — the red palace walls and the falling snow stirred my emotions... indeed beautiful.

This was the first snow of the year, but actually, I was saying she was beautiful.

Noticing my elder brother getting off the carriage, I instinctively let go of the umbrella, leaving it with her maid, and distanced myself from her by a couple of steps, still hearing her sigh, ["Such days are few."]

After my elder brother got off the carriage, he stared at Su Juan for a long time. I knew he was somewhat entranced, perhaps not realizing that the wife he had neglected since marrying was actually quite beautiful.

But my elder brother couldn’t appreciate it, clearly enraptured but still managing to mock, "Dressed like a bear, ugly to death."