Hello, my Mr. Shangguan

Chapter 429 I feel precious only after I lose it

Shangguan Rui looked at the writing on it.

I just felt those handwriting, as if someone was holding a sharp carving knife, brushing across his heart stroke by stroke.

[We went to the theater to watch Westward Journey today.

I am very envious of Fairy Zixia, her dedication to love.

Moths to the flame, probably like this!

This tragedy of love is heartbreaking and helpless.

If Zixia hadn't died, Supreme Treasure would have no way to become Monkey King; but when Supreme Treasure became Monkey King, he would have no way to give Zixia another love.

Blind dates can't be close, maybe that's it!

Love is something that is never clear.

So, I think, when I see him, when I can be with him.

All I can think of is what I want.

As long as he's by his side, I'm willing to do whatever he asks me to do. 】

[I bought fish today and came back because I wanted to make fish soup. Because of some minor accidents, I had to give up in the end.

Standing next to me, when he watched me handle the fish, he obviously disliked it, but seeing that my hand was scratched, he actually cooked the dishes himself.

I secretly thought in my heart, can I understand his behavior as caring for me?

I was overwhelmed by the little thoughts that popped up in my heart.

When I wanted to help him a few times, I was yelled at. Seeing his serious and awkward appearance, I felt for the first time that even when he yelled at me, it would make me feel at ease.

I looked at his side face and understood in a trance.

Emotions will indeed sink deeper and deeper. 】

[Actually, I don't want to leave.

But, if I love someone, how can I want him to be trapped because of me.

In this last life of mine, his brief company is enough.

He gave me a peaceful life and gave me a relationship.

　 Although the time is short, it is enough. 】

Everything about her is related to him.

It felt like she existed around him.

She remembers every bit of every day.

However, she didn't tell him.

Not a word.

He saw an envelope tucked inside.

There are some faint marks on it, he thought, she must have shed tears when writing this letter.

Shangguan Rui didn't know what kind of mood he was in, and opened the letter.

It was the same handwriting as in the diary, and the first thing he saw was his name.

"Shangguan Rui, hello

When you can read this letter, I think, I have completely left this world.

Sorry to say goodbye to you in this way.

I think, facing you, I don't have the courage to say the last word to leave.

My love has always been humble.

It was so humble that I got used to hiding it.

I dare not test the position in your mind.

I just comforted myself again and again, thinking, maybe you treat me well, it is enough to prove that I am so different in your heart.

I think, with your pride, I can't wait for the day when you say 'I love you' to me. 

So, if the relationship ends in tragedy in the end, I would rather you not leave too much impression.

For the rest of your life, you don't even need to think of me.

Our beginning was not very pleasant, even a little bad.

I know that from the very beginning, I have always played the role of a stand-in by your side.

Whether you treat me well or not, that is your emotion passed on to another person through me.

This kind of cognition made me very frustrated, even helpless.

Originally, when I started, I was thinking, even if I was a stand-in, it would be good to stay by your side!

However, when I can really stay by your side, I hope that what you see is me, this person.

It is not the sustenance of your feelings, let alone others.

Such thoughts are very greedy, but the more I am with you, the more greedy I will be.

If there is anything in my life that I regret, it is that the time with you is not long enough.　

　I am so grateful for the month you have been with me.

Because of you, I have no regrets in my life.

But, I'm sorry, I can't continue to love you anymore, and even, I can't be by your side anymore.

However, I know that your life would be better without me.

Maybe, you will meet someone who loves you more.

Shangguan Rui, when it comes to love, I think I'm a very stingy person. I hope you can meet the person you love, but I don't want you to forget me completely.

I hope to leave a little impression in your heart, really, even if you can only think of me occasionally, I will be very satisfied.

However, I am also afraid!I'm afraid you will be sad when you think of me, I don't want this to happen, what should I do, I'm such a contradictory person.

I thought about this question for a long time, and later found out that it doesn't really matter, as long as you live well, whether I'm good or not, it's all good.

So, after this life, my only hope is that you can be well.

Shangguan Rui, I hope you are happy. "

Even if the person beside me is not me, as long as you are happy, that is enough.

When Shangguan Rui saw those words, the setting sun hit him, and those clear words were a little blurry before his eyes.

One drop, two drops of tears hit the paper.

Wet the beautiful handwriting on it.

Everything here is so familiar, he can even imagine how sad it is for her to sit at the table and write these words stroke by stroke.

He didn't know that she had endured so much.

The sky brightens, then darkens, and then brightens again.

The days and nights of reincarnation, together with draining his soul dry.

He thought that he was probably just so numb.

She was gone, taking all his life force with him.

His twinkling eyes had long since lost their brilliance and became completely numb.

He thought that his emotions would no longer fluctuate because of anything.

However, when he saw the square tombstone again, he realized that all this was just the beginning.

Especially, when he saw the name on the tombstone, it was 'Sangyu'.

He cried again, uncontrollably.

Originally, after seeing the news circulating on the Internet, he really thought that this matter had something to do with Mu Zixiao, so he wanted to go there and do his best.

However, he didn't know that she was Sang Yu until Shangguan Jingyu took out the document.

The entanglement between him and her is really too much, too deep,

They did meet at Hirakawa University.

He had also pursued her.

At that time, he was young and frivolous, and he forgot her casually in a blink of an eye, but he didn't want to let her remember her silently for so many years.

He looked at everything that had become cold in front of him, and a sentence suddenly came to his mind, "It's okay, even if one day you don't like me, I will find a way to become like you!"

This is what she once said to him.

I don't know what's going on, but the image that was originally blurred in my mind has been recalled in the past few days.

Thinking of the absurdity of these years, he wanted to slap himself twice.

With a guy like him, no wonder so many people hate him!

But he didn't understand, she had loved him for so many years, why didn't she want to tell him!

She didn't tell him anything, and was silently by his side all the time.

If it wasn't for the document that Shangguan Jingyu threw in front of him, he wouldn't know that she had suffered so much for him.

Every look of her appeared in front of his eyes, every expression, every movement was deeply engraved in his mind, the trace she left in his life was so deep, but she completely pulled away in an instant.

Don't leave him with a single thought.

If he hadn't gotten the news, he thought, he wouldn't even have seen her for the last time.

He knew that she really loved him, but sometimes, she was really cruel to him.

He didn't understand why she had to bid farewell to him in such a way. Obviously, they got along very well during this time!

He has a lot to say to her, but he doesn't know where to start, let alone whether she can hear her.

Looking at the photo on the tombstone, it suddenly occurred to me that on the day they went to Pingchuan University together

She stood in the sun and smiled at him.

She said to him, "Shangguan Rui, I have seen you here before."

She only mentioned this sentence to him, and she didn't mention a word about the rest.

He remembered the sarcasm on her face every night they got together, and she asked him, is this the face you like the most!

Every time he answered, he was insane.

Seeing the deep sadness in her eyes, he still answered 'yes' to her.

However, because of this, she never told him.

When he knew all this, it was too late.

He can no longer hear her say a word, nor see any look in her eyes...

If you haven't lost it, you don't even know what you once had.

He helped choose a bunch of purple hyacinths again, and put them in front of her.

Along with a letter addressed to her.

"Hello, Sang Yu:

I'm sorry, I can't say the last word to you until now, I love you.

A bit late, isn't it?

The saddest thing in this world is that when I know that I have loved deeply, there is no possibility in this life.

Sorry!I knew that the moment you left, I realized that I had fallen in love with you a long time ago.

In fact, you are not like her, you don't have to be like her at all, you are yourself, just yourself.

When I was with you, I never felt who you looked like.

You are never just yourself.

But, unfortunately, it was too late.

Indeed, when you were by my side at first, I thought you were just a substitute for my feelings.

But it wasn't until you were lying in my arms that your body temperature slowly faded away that I finally knew what you mean to me.

You're right, I never knew how to love, my so-called emotion is getting what I want.

It was only when I was chasing other people's figures that I realized that behind me, there was a person who silently guarded me for so long.

I'm sorry to make you love me for so long, but it's too late for me to love you again.

Sometimes, I wonder if there is another life?

If there is a next life, can we meet again?

I tried to think about a lot of possibilities, but every time I thought about it, I felt very unconfident.

I am a very bad person, selfish, irritable, do not know how to take care of others, and have a very bad temper. I don't know if I will have so many bad shortcomings in my next life.

I am even more afraid that such a bad me will be met by you again.

The thought of this possibility made me even more worried.

So, if there is an afterlife, I think, you don't have to remember me, you don't even have to love me.

If possible, I hope that in the next life, you don't know me anymore, don't meet me again.

If possible, I hope I can see you, without breaking into your world, just looking at you from afar.

I hope that the love that I did not give you will be brought to you by another person. You will no longer be sad, sad, and painful, and you will not have to carry the lives of others. You will live a peaceful and happy life. , worry-free life.

Although it is a little late, this is a letter written to you by someone who dare not love you.

I dare not ask for your forgiveness. "

[PS: I tried my best to write this paragraph.

I think that once some regrets are caused, they are likely to be eternal regrets.

So, if something is missed, it is missed.

Some missed it, and didn't even have a chance to make up for it.

As for Jin Yuhan, she never brought up her past with Shangguan Rui, but she was worried that Shangguan Rui would feel indebted to her. When she was with Shangguan Rui, all she thought of was the love she wanted from the beginning to the end. It's not any pity or debt, so she won't mention her past.

Shangguanrui and Jin Yuhan didn't have a good start, and it's inevitable that they have developed to this day.

Combined with Shangguan Rui's previous absurdity, this can be regarded as his punishment!Why!This pair of CP is written as hen xin s]